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Nidji i remembered bought the CD for my sista. It was the right thing to do. The songs were so precise and right on target. I guess when all words seemed so wrong this was the next best thing to do, to say that i care and i know. Its never easy to be the first in the family, btul tak wtl - biah - cekya - awan? yesterday wedding at BB was a tiring one. My ears felt like screaming mintak ampun due to the makcik and pakcik singging hindi duets, i think her high pitch notes can sure break glass windows, thank God for the open space. The DJ was so kerek. Keep on repeating that he's an executive in muis bla bla bla .. goodness what was wrong with him, i can't get his motive at all. Ayah obviously having problem wif his eyes, he can't see well. No more reading newspapers for him. Yup am worried, his appointment wif eye centre is scheduled end march. pernah dengar tak penantian suatu penyeksaan ? kallang roar no morning caffaine lead to whole day of migraine. Saturday took 4 tables...

macam mana aku enjoy mendengar lagu2 nidji masih tak dapat mengalahkan lagu2 dr peterpan. suara ariel yg asyik merindu bulan dan bintang di langit yg menjadi idaman dan teman untuk aku berangan. Silat session last nite was so fun. I thot dibdib would be the only small one learning silat rupanya aku salah. Another boy; Ilham hakim same age as adib join silat last yr. I was looking forward to meet wif the parents and hehehehe Kak Emmy, would u like to make a guess sape mak/bapak dan nenek budak kecik nih??? 1stly, i saw ilham mommy .. who happened to me by junior. Nama dia Fizah. I recognize her face but not her name but she remembered me by name hehehe she now a property agent... lepas tu kluar plak Ilham's daddy.. yg ni aku cam terperanjat kodok jab cos it was Hidir. Kak Emmy, kau ingat tak hidir anak sape??? Ni Hidir anak murid kau kot ... huhu non other then anak ustazah kesayangan kau lerrr Ust.Salamah quek quek quek!!! Segan jugak mula tuu esp bila teringatkan dulu he tried to...

waktu aku pulang dari kerja kelmarin, dari dlm bus aku lihat ramai wanita2 separuh umur berlegar2 di lorong itu mencari rezeki. Wajah lesu nampak penat aku pasti kalau diberi pilihan pasti mereka akan cari cara lain utk menanggung belanja harian. Bontut tonggek, kaki terhencut usia makin lanjut .. hati aku menjadi sebak terasa bagai ada sempadan antara kita. hari kedua di office, aku pergi lagi ke dept shanti .. haha to provoke that "somebody" (i guess) in case i get to see her. But met with a colleague who was under stress and waiting to breakdown. Well, she did actually .. while me & shanti tried to console her, came two ladies (i wasn't sure who but ive seen them in the lift) asked if everything alright, wondering why shanti talked around the bush so i blabber the truth abt what happened to our fren. What do i know, she said she will talk to her staff .. hahaha i just kepo myself with the directors of the dept. Woo hooo!! if anything happened to me here in the offi...

phew! half day dah gone just like that. i dinch do anything except jln ronda2 meeting frens and showing off my lil darling photo. Banyak nak kene catch up, thank God ramai yg excited aku balik at least am still likeable kot.. cos when u love to listen to pple sure pple miss when ur not around cos diorang tak de vanue nak meluah prasan hahaha. shanti's dept is one hell to work in, plus wif her devalish superior - lets called her "a-tin". I went up to see shanti and connie. Their boss walked passed by me and say " u given birth already?" i say the usual lah "yeah" and i also told her i came to see my old frens. Since then, she walked 3 times and still see me there TALKING. Sape nak teke what she did next? no price lah cuma nak bitching2 jer... when i visit another fren kat different floor i met a-tin lagik. sure dia tengok i lain macam but to me i dinch do anyting wrong yet. Back to the office, my boss was telling me abt the dept new policy and stuff wh...

Cak!! another year, another chance to start the year if u didn't hv a good start in 2007. i bought shoes for ayah and spec and bed sheet for ibu. Another hole in my pocket but i think its worth it. Aku cuma nak mrk happy .. dan aku nak share apa yg aku ada dgn mrk. walau pun tak banyak tapi yg penting mrk happy. Fil and Mil pun cam gitu jugak. Fil need to be happy so he can recuperate fast and mil looks tired these days. I was touched when Fil said he likes the raya photo of lovey,me and dibdib. I gave it to him plus with the rest of raya photo of him and his brothers .. i sure snap lots of pics of him hehehe... yesterday i went to the library again. borrowed 2 sandra brown and 2 malay novel for ibuk and Bil (bro in law). I want bil to learned how to be a romantic .. hope it work this way .. i did strange stuff kan? btw smlm while i was searching for books i prasan ada orang walked behind me, so i turned and look. Hmmm funny thing the man who was walking looked at me too and tetiba...

this is my 650th post! congrets to watts_in. so adek dinch even know tat her lappy was having some problem until she read my blog. so i kindda diggin' my own grave gitu lah. In return she tak mau bayar bill kat umah. But yang best nya i pray very hard to Allah and in return the laptop is working again. Amin... i shoppin' tadi. bought tudungz, and 3 top, cussion cover for ibuk and me.. kira3 i spent almost to 300$. there goes my $$. Personally, during my first one i tak sibuk sangat abt renewing my wordrobe apsal kali ni im more vein. Agaknye semakin tua makin tak mau nampak tua tak? susah nak paham penomena yg berlaku skarang nih. Apa2 pun im happy cos duit saving dah cecah jumlah yg dihajati tahun lepas. Harap nye tahun ini akan meningkat terus Insyallah dan berkat lah hendaknya. some worry part dengan "aku" dan diriku sendiri. Semoga Allah sentiasa pelihara imanku krn sujudku hanya pada yg Satu.

eh meriah nya kat sini ive bn bz with apa-ape jer sampai tak sempat nak blog plus i crash adek laptop. mati!!! sape nak jawab eh??? i just keep quiet abt it hoho. pasal jodoh tuu AMIN!! semoga yg mencari jodoh akan ketemu dan berpanjangan hingga ke syurga. jimi, i dinch do anything pun, cum copy and paste jer... btw, i can only listen to the music thru firefox. kalau pakai IE sure bisu. ok nak mandikan anak2 ku... hv a gd monday ok cekmi darling, ur ok karang nih?

aku dah tak marah lagik. skarang nih aku tengah penat tapi bahagia sebab aku ada time to be with my own self. That's a wonderful feeling hahaha its like rediscovering my 'oldself'. Sejak smlm aku temankan mil ke hospital. Fil masih di rawat di sana lagik. Selain itu aku ronda2 kota raya satu SGH bley gitu? aku suka sendirian, macam apa yg jimi tuliskan di blognya. sendirian yg di cari sungguh mengasyikan tapi bukan yg berterusan lah betul tak cekmi? tadi aku sempat ke library di aljunied. tempat jatuh lagik dikenang inikan pula tempat aku, TD dan imshe bertemu dan bergossip. Aku pinjamkan novel melayu utk ibuk dan satu buku romance hahaha utk aku. Nak revitalise ar.. lepas tu terjumpa plak dgn cekgu miah, guru waktu sekolah dulu ... sure terasa muda kembali. oh ya, last sunday my uncles and aunts dtg to see kimi. Fed up seh when one aunt kept on saying aku gemuk. setahu aku Awan cukup impress bila melihat aku tempoh hari hihihi... lagi pun kalau gemuk pun ok lah anak pun da...

i looked forward of seeing him after such a long day. ive cooked, cleaned, washed .. taking care of the kids and i was looking forward of having a nice dinner together with u before u headed to dreamland. But that got into u man? got pissed like a mad dog... damn, i didnt get to sleep much cos my mind wasnt in peace. kissing you goodbye wasnt that easy, dats why i choose to walk away. can't u see the swollen eyes?. p.s: am not sad now, but am pissed.. berbakul2 aku menyumpah hahaha but am ok. he apolagized. I hv to play my card well, am gonna make him regret for ignornig me the whole nite. Am gonna make u feel guilty by being good to u and ur family hahahaha [the evil laugh]

sejak kebelakangan ni ramai betul pompan vietnam dtg menyewa rumah jiran ibuk. Tadi satu pompan lalu di depan aku. ahhh tak kuasa aku nak tengok muka dia. keras kaku tapi yg jadi perhatian ialah yang ada dlm baju :) sape suruh kau jln depan aku tanpa pakai bra, sape suruh kau pakai t shirt nipis putih yg berlengan kodong tu? jln lah kau marah .. aku hanya melihat apa yg ada.. tak payah nak tenong aku cam gitu sekali, i did nothing more than just stared at those tits hahaha... couple of nite ago, one of them came to a fren and asked him if he wanted to spend a nite with her .. phew.. taufik kata usah lepaskan. tapi mestilah kene dgn keadaan kan? want to see the now and then pic of me, my darling cuzens and adek? hv a gd weekend all. FIL is looking good in the hospital.

Assalamualaikum rasanya tak terlambat utk aku ucapkan selamat tahun baru 07 pada semua. almaklumlah baru kali ni aku dapat kesempatan mencoretkan isi otak yg membeku dikalbu. aku rasalah sambutan tahun baru agak mendak sedikit sebab ramai yg sedang berkumpul dgn keluarga dan ada pulak yg melakukan ibadat korban. tapi mendak pun mendak lah asalkan berkat. [pause] apsal tulisan aku kali ni lain macam huh?? let me try again. awal pagi tadi FIL telah pun menjalani operasi by pass dgn jayanya. FIL sekarang ada di ICU. FIL dah sedarkan diri Alhamdulilah. semoga FIL cepat sembuh krn aku masih belum cukup puas mendengar cerita silam FIL yg tak pernah dia ceritakan dgn sesiapa pun kecuali aku hehehe... mlm ni ialah mlm kedua aku dan anak2 tidur di rumah ibuk. lovey temankan MIL sementara FIL masih di hospital. Insyallah esok aku pulang ke pa.ris. home sweet home lah kata kan.. hmm.. tadi macam banyak idea tapi sekarang macam dah tak de plak. apa2 pun aku harap tahun ini akan membawa barakah pad...