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2 more days of Ramadhan 2 more days to Syawal Selamat Hari Raya pd keluarga, sahabats, blog sahabats, jiran dan sepa sajer. Semoga kita bergembira dan lebih menghargai keluarga kita jauh & dekat. Lun jugak memohon ampun dan maaf jika terdapat layanan atau kata2 yang menyinggung hati semua. (amak time tak cukup nih.. i nak kene cabut skarang, tudung raya pun tak terbeli lagi nih..nak cerita pasal kuih raya pun tak sempat) Spread the love pple on hari raya..and jgn 'kudukut' bila bagi duit raya k hehehe lots of love lunacy

i keep on looking at the empty Hari Raya Kad .. kenapa susah betul hendak aku tuliskan ucapan hari raya pada sahabat handai yang selama ini tak putus kata berdoa dan memahami situasi diri ini. Pada mulanya aku rancang untuk menghantar ucpan hari raya serta terima kasih aku pada mereka atas setiap kebaikan dan jasa mereka pada aku dikala kesedihan. Tapi, entah lah.. tak tercapai pen, tak terkata isi hati, tak berupaya rasanya untuk aku lunaskan hasrat hari ini. Lagu2 hari raya sungguh syahdu rasanya .. melemaukan lagi perasaan ini. hari2 semakin singkat nampaknya, sungguh tak mudah untuk aku kecapai segala khazanah yg terbentang luas untuk kita semua. Selamat buat kuih semua .. glitter-graphics.com Ibuk:ASTRI Sufi Science Technology Hair Roots Analysis – 16 September 2008 1. P53 & NK Cells – BioEnergetic reading is 53

glitter-graphics.com apa nak jadi nih? as if exchanging portfolio will solve the matter. no need to understudy? morning news on tv pagi tadi sungguh merepek. i pity the newscaster sbb kene kupas berita dlm surat khabar. Redundant job!! caya tak kene cakap 'nak kenalkan si pulan kepada dunia. bla bla bla ..' do we really want to hear that? cam lah dunia tak kenal lagik .. bukan orang baru pun. he was called 'evil' so what do u expect...

ive been thinking and thinking and for the love of our mother, i carry on with it. yes, i seek treatment from a sceintist to help ibuk fighting gainst her cancer. it was a tought decision but i don't think i wanna wait .. and if [e=mc2 x the light] would be able to help ibuk, why not. Alhamdulilah, last nite ibuk started her medication. 17th Ramadhan full of barakah pls bring health to ibuk cos money can't buy us another ibuk. Insyallah, we shall not stop from trying.

smlm as we drove passed by Aljunied Swimming Complex, aku teringatkan anjarulan. Hai.. dah 14 ramadhan, pastinya anja dah pun 'pulang' ke rumah 'menjenguk' kami semua terutama ibuk. Mungkin kali ini bila anja 'pulang' dia terasa kesuraman ibuk. Bagaimana agaknya perasaan dia? melihat bunda kali ini tak dapat berpuasa .. masih cuba ceria walaupun qudrat pada diri amat terbatas sekali. Setiap tahun, ibuk akan bercerita tentang bagaimana ibuk 'bertemu' anja dalam mimpinya. Kasih sayang ibu dan anak tak pernah putus dan saban tahun waktu2 begini lah kami sekeluarga ingat sangat dengan anja. "boy, jangan putus doa untuk ibuk k". 16 Sept .. aku menunggu penuh debar dan semangat..

seorang teman selalu call utk bertanya khabar ibuk dan perkembangan ibuk setelah ber'therepy'. Ada masa tu aku ok melayan tapi kengkadang tu aku takat 'uh' 'eh' jer bila berbual dgn dia. nak tahu kenapa tak? sebabnya setiap percakapannya akan disambung dgn ungkapan ini "kau paham tak?". Oh it such a turn off lah.. apa aku ni nitwit ke tak paham apa yang kau cakap? get the hint lah, mood aku dah lari bila kau tanya aku cam tu. hmm on the bright side, Insyallah Jun is coming ova to SG again next march. This time around the whole family will be coming too... we all so excited lah thinking abt it. Insyallah kalau semua ok, we shall try to organize something proper this time it will be family base hehehe...so akan ada yang tertinggal. We almost reach half of ramadhan. Subhanallah .. can't help thinking of raya preparation. cam ne nih?? by this weekend, lagu raya sure dah banyak yg kluar kat radio abih lah mood raya mengatasi segalanya hehehe .. duit...

its the 10th ramadhan and my 4th day fasting. i join in late but im determined to make it worth while Insyallah with the help and guidence from Him ofcourse. We all miss ibuk's cooking dearly. How i wish i can cook like ibuk. I need more confidence and moral support on that hehehe. Tired of outside food already plus malas nak gie beli cos sakit mata tengok budak2 yang tak hormatkan Ramadhan. too many .. too yucky.. too revealing the babats.. to merosakkan mata & hati. yesterday we had spaghetti for buka and sahur. Its a conbination of yeh and me that a buka spread was surved. Today it wud be Kway Teow goreng ibuk style.. its ok to goreng kway teow but to match ibuk taste i dono if i can do that. Nevertheless, by 7.07pm we all will be too hungry to be particular, right?? oh btw, last monday while buying burger budget special kat depat Darul Arqam, a man approached me and started to murmur something like 'che' tolong saya bagi lah makan mee hoon ke .. mee teow ke.. s...

probably my body came to a conclusion that it could not take it anymore. First my body started to ache. i popped panadol, drank milo and out of sudden fell asleep in the middle of emailing the ladies from blogsahabats. That afternoon i felt weak and hungry .. the hungry strike like almost every hour. Lovey picked me up from office and zoom we went to fetch the kids. I rest a while in Ibuk house .. fever was 38.3. Ok, time to see doc dearest.. dun think self medication would work. Doc said my temp had shoot up to 39. Ah .. no wonder i could barely open my eyes.. with wobbly legs we went home. I was given 2 days mc to rest and take care of myself. 1st day of mc was terrible. Being sick and still hv to look after the kids was a challenged to me. My body ache so much that i could not explain it how. Stomach felt empty but everytime i forced to swallow some food, it felt so 'pedih'. On and off, i felt like throwing out. on 2nd day of mc, i surrendered. Told lovey, i could...

sorry yeh

i have not met with any of them. Our timing was never right. Mak Ngah, Mak Long, kak kamariah, now kak lin .. all the long distant pple that came down to visit their sister/mak teh. But that's not important, the important thing, ibuk feels happy seeing her sisters and neices with their kids here in singapore if only for a short while. I would say, ibuk is a bless lady.. May Allah continue to give her the inner strength that she needed most now. She gone thru hard life, no doubt but she still manage to help and encourage others. She makes strangers feel at ease .. she is 'Ibuk'. Everyone calls her that .. and now u all too, right? Ramadhan Mubarak to all .. dun think i hv the time to post the daily 'hikmah terawih' as i used to do since i started blogging. hmm, things change..