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Aku baru selesai bermunajat dan mengadu padaNya. Sesungguhnya aku sebak melihatkan dia menjadi lemah setiap hari datangnya asar dan makin bertambah lemah dari maghrib ke isyak. Ya Allah, ujian ini amat berat. Kami takut kami tak sanggup menanggungnya. Ya Allah, kau sihatkan lah suamiku. Kau panjangkanlah usia kami dgn iman dan kesihatan. Ameen.

Being 40 is not that bad at all. We don't look old but we do feel old. With the notion that death is nearing I just don't want to thing. If u ask me abt death, I think I don't really mind but leaving the 3 boys that filled up the whole lot of my love list, I think I need to think twice abt it. Ayang, adib & ami, just thinking abt them give me pleasure. ... And yet... And yet, Allah is testing us again.  La quwwata illa billa. ..

I watched you as u lay beside me, slowly tears falling on ur face. I wiped it away and another tears followed. How do I take away your pain, dear? I cried  Posted via Blogaway

Ya Allah, jgn kau kabulkan doa hambaMu yg hasad dan dengki terhadap kami. He called me to share the story. His superior wants to get a replacement for him. Its harsh n cruel when pple judge you not by your work n integrity. I feel for him. I could only doa that this will turn out well. For now, Ya Allah kau berikanlah kepada kami Sobran Jamilan Mu, Ya Allah. Posted via Blogaway

Last wed, while I was in my hadith class, ayah called to inform that he is not well. Told him to wait for me, we would see doc once the kids finished school.  But knowing ayah, I was surprised to find out fr Adek that he called up ambulance to take him to hospital.  Doc said ayah had mild heart attack, water in lung n leg. Today, was the 5th day ayah in hospital n ayah cant walk or move much. His heart is stable n doc had flush out water from his body. Yet, his knee, angkle and back got weaken.  Ya Allah, ease his pain pls.. I offered him to come n stay  in pasir ris. He let the option open. Seeing how weak ayah was earlier today, makes me wonder how wud it be like to live without ayah... Posted via Blogaway