lunacy - di sini taman langitku

Setting: Kedai kopi koufu Next week I'll be doing my practical driving (mood: seram sejuk). Bagaimana harus aku ucapkan syukur pada Mu sedangkan tiada bahasa Yg dapat mengambarkan perasaan ini. Jumaat yg lalu, seperti biasa kami ke T3, changi airport. Anak2 seperti biasa enak2 bermain. Lalu dtg sekumpulan jemaah Indonesia Yg baru pulang menunaikan ibadah umrah. Tiada satu pun ibu2 dan bapak2 yg bisa mengukir senyuman. Heran ya? Waktu berlalu.. Jemaah itu masih tidak berganjak, mereka seperti Ada masalas pulang ke tanah air. Aku lihat Ada seorang kakek berjalan ke sana sini lalu aku jemput "Bapak" itu duduk. Lalu aku mulai berbual. Bapak itu katanya kaget melihat aku kerana sangkanya aku ini cucu dia yg bernama NurHalimah. Katanya lagi mereka tak bisa pulang kerana ada masalah. Dari mekah mereka ke Doha utk beberapa jam. Lalu terbang lagi dan sampai ke SG sejak pagi tadi. Mereka tak cukup duit. Yg Ada hanya Wang rupiah Yg tak laku di SG. Dia minum secawan kopi kon...

I'm having a bad feeling. I dont like it at all and I hope I'm wrong. I think Bapak at his age now sometimes his 'agaration' when driving can be quite off. I'm worried for his safely and everyone else too. I'm thinking of the best possible ways to make Bapak less driving. I'm suck at it. I got a call fr SIL. She wanted to know if I could look after her baby whenever she got event to attend. But she wanted me to stay at Mak house instead of sending the baby to my house. Hmmm my chest got congested suddenly. Further to that she also wanted her baby to get familiarise with me which mean I hv to carry the baby from now on??!!! Spoke to lovey abt it and he was not that excited with the idea. Oh gosh!! .. We'll see but from what I see now its a win-lose situation.

And who can refuse such a sweet lil thing? Syukur Ya Allah, Alhamdulilah. I could feel his happiness when he held Thia in his arm sambil baca2kan selawat like how he did to the boys. Gently, he tucked her in on her crib. Slowly arranging her pink dress properly.. I will continue to doa Ya Rabb. Thank u for the reminder.. It's all sweet now. Alhamdulilah. He even asked abt her milk formula, just in case he could find a cheaper price at the shop we frequent. And he's thinking abt what to get for Thea. All praise to Allah. All praise to Allah

Syukur to you my Lord, u answered my prayer. Alhamdulilah with the help and doa from everyone things are moving positively well. Thank you to my adek2 for the love and concern. Thank you for taking the big step. I love you so much for that, lovey been quiet abt it. But he's not moody either. Guess, it will somehow heal. I must be the happiest person yesterday, holding Athea again in my arm, she's baby shmall!! Kimi just so "geram" of her. By end of the day, baby shmall left her smell on me hahaha And yes, I hv too many grey hair these days...

It's 1.16am Ya Allah Ya Rabb .. Aku mohon yang terbaik dari Mu. Kau permudahkanlah. Amin.

Thanks to papa Kiki..

Wahai taman langitku, aku gembira krn aku masih ada kamu. Aku terjaga dari mimpi ditengah Mlm ini dan aku rindukan mrk berdua. Ya Allah, setiap masa hati ku pd mrk. Sakit hati ini menjadi benci. Kala ini kebahagiaanku aku, dah aku buang jauh. Ya Allah.. .