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It's the greatest challenge of all. My in laws are coming to stay. Errr I'm scare to death or am I over reacting? I guess for the past 11 yrs we never live together and now I'm all nervous and friggy. I'm worries that I may not be the best that I shld be, I'm worried that the evil in me might just come out and .. Oh no!! Ya Allah help me pls.. Let me be at my best behaviour and let it be the all good till the end. Merry kissmass, Lun!!! Hahaha

It's the 3rd of the last month in the calendar. Abt 40 yrs ago, Ibuk & Ayah got married on this date. I wanted so much to visit ayah today but due to rain all plan had to be cancelled. Kids weren't too happy cos they missed their yayi and Thea. I just spoke to ayah, he sounded fine and cheerful. Oh my, why was I too sensitive..

That's abang Adib, wiping his tears away when I told him that this blog is meant for him, Kimi and lovey to read when I'm no longer with them. Soft soft heart .. Don't cry my darling. Just be happy that you're ibu love you with all her heart

{since no one comes here anymore, I find it safe to talk} We can't believe that we had to forego Legoland. Sorry kids but its not enuf for now. I actually had to bad mouth Kimi abt how hot it could get and in case of rain, we had to run for shelter which is not easy to find there. Sorry Kimi, you'll probably will understand it someday. As for now, I'm quitting kimi's reading class to save some cost. i'll be coaching Adib & Kimi instead. Ya Rabb, guide me in this. Pls make it possible. But while we feel the pinch of not having. enough, Allah grant us the time to ngaji and love for each other. The day when Lovey had to work late, the three of us missed him much. The work of Allah, is so beautifully crafted that I don't know if not having enough luxury as compared to others is actually a good thing for us. Anyway, of late Lovey's health has been in the top of my worried list. I hope Allah will grant him syifa' n happiness in life. To my darling...

I had the chance to go back to my old office. It was a pleasant idea to be able to meet with old frens that partly lives in me. I miss them whole lot and it was pretty noisy when we meet, joke and hug each other. Alhamdulilah, thanks to My dear Mr T for taking good care of me. I carried myself well that my colleague approved of my look - 'fresh & pretty' was what they said.

All praise to Allah. Barakallah humalana... He is charmingly 6 yesterday. Alhamdulilah, adoring him and 'disgusted' by his full of confidence that's what I'm feeling. And he knows it and gloating with love and happiness. Sayang bubu Faqihi Hakimi aka Mahezen lol .. I pray for you everyday. May you hv a blissful long life. Your acknowledgement upon death sometimes makes me wonder how can you be so small yet matured at times. You are so worried that you will lose me just like I lost my Ibuk. I'm sorry that you started to feel this way at this young age. May Allah bless us all and let us stay loving each other for the longest time. Don't stop showing us your love, Kimi. Happy birthday!

Nvr feel this sad for eidul adha, suara takbir berkumandang dan aku sekeluarga tidak akan kemana-mana pun kerana kami down with fever, flu and cough. No lepak-lepak together nampaknya .. *sad*