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this morning

just had chicken rice and tea tarik. lovey kerja morning shift today so i reached ibuk's house early morning and got ready for work from there. Ibuk looks better but weak. She wanted to take her medicine but need something to fill in her stomach. I asked her what she wants for breakfast? she said she will do fried rice. Huh?? how can i let her do the pounding of chili & onions in her condition?? it was 7 am .. i was suppose to be out but i still puzzled ova wat to do .. told adik to help ibuk with the pounding but she continued to sleep. ayah was nagging over yg teramat over abt something i wouldn't want to care abt. so that's it. i look at ibu asked her what she plan to do today, she said, she only wants to fried rice (cos her husband was unhappy he dun hv breakfast!!) and she wants to do some washing. okies ... i looked at her i told her i will do that for her. she looked down .. i could see she was fighting for her tears .. boy, i was almost breakdown rite there .. this is the ibuk that been taking care of me all my life, around the clock ..she will do everything for me .. pamper me like nobody business ...

i pick up my hp and told my boss that i'll be taking am urgent leave. so i started with friying the rice, washing the clothes, dibdib ones too. Bathed dibdib .. play with him for a while ..asked ibuk what she wants for her b'day ... which she said .. don't talk abt it now lah wait till i recover .. so (korang caya muka aku ni dah basah kuyup ..my chinese colleague plak bertanya khabar .. dia offer aku water chestnut which is gd to clear my flu. Connie dear, ni bukan flu but lunacy tengah melalak ler...) hehe .. sesi nangis2 ni memang agak komen lah kat opis aku agaknye cos smua orang ada masalah kan? aku menaip sambil mendengar lagu nyanyian amy search - tiada lagi cinta. hehe ..dari adren's blog lah mana lagik... hai adren, lunacy bertambah sedih lah ...

tadi i dah beli kan roti, food, newspaper & menda2 lain for pple kat umah tuu melayari hidup utk hari ini. i pass some money to adik cos esok dia akan bawa ibuk ke doktor again...

this page dah jadi semakin personal nampaknya. jauh dari apa yg lunacy plan sejak mula dulu .. jgn berhenti berharap lunacy .. pray to God.

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Mama Emmy said…
hi dearie.... was touched by your writing.... knowing exactly what you are going thru and how you feel... take it easy beb... Allah is always with us, InsyaAllah... I can even understand how ibuk feel too... nothing new i supposed....

Sorry, wasnt around to comfort you... but you know i am always here.... take one step at a time ya....

But one thing for sure.... ibuk is soooooo lucky to have daughters like you and dian.... alhamdulillah... and I am sure she knows it too... and please do not easily flare your temper with your dad.... whatever he is, you are his daughter, his heir.... Love him, and he will love you... respect him and he will respect you... maybe not now but soon..... who knows.......
9:23 AM
lunacy said…
hey enig, it ok u not around..where were u? sejak jadi cikgu nie hueue
me & ayah cam tu lah..lepas cakap yg tak elok abt him, sudenly dia "terbaik" plak. kan i dah kata he got the x-tra senses.. ibuk pun cam getting well Alhamdulilah .. but will still phycho her for a thorough check-up lah.
10:35 AM
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