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aku masih termangu dgn episode smlm. susah nak digest berita tentang abg zaid. Segak dan peramah orangnya. aku jadi takut..di takat nyawa ala ala ikan nie semoga hidayah Allah bersama dgn dirinya. setiap saat aku menunggu berita terkini tentang dia yg baru berusia 43 tahun. Muda kan tu? aku jadi gusar dgn kehidupan seharian yg semakin kurang.

a fren that visited him yesterday told me this: It was a sad visit. He has been unconscious since the first operation on Saturday. He depends completely on high-dependency machines. May God bless him.

sebenarnya aku tak berapa kenal dgn zaid ni. rapat jauh sekali..kita sekadar hi hi ajer bila bertemu di lobby but the news abt him shock me semacam tsunami melanda jiwa. live or let let die..aku takut dgn option yg kedua.

but again, Dzue's entry beri aku idea baru..semacam harapan yg boleh aku buat utk institusi kekeluargaan. Dzue mengupas surah Al-ankabut. Alhamdulilah aku masih ingat lagi surah itu..si labar-labar. masa muda ku dulu, ibuk ada tafsir al-quran di sebelah katil. Bila senang ajer aku akan membaca kisah2 disitu..dan lepas tu aku gunakan sebagai modal sewaktu dlm kelas..heh, memang aku suka bercerita pada anak2. so tak lah terperanjat bila omar (ex-student) told lovey baru2 ni yg dulu dia bercita2 nak jadi ustaz. sebab dia gemar kalau aku cerita tentang sejarah and isi al-quran. tapi itu dulu..hidup hari ini menjadi terlalu rutin sehingga kehidupan menjadi malap. Aku mau terangi kehidupan seperti dulu..mampu kah aku?

ops, aku bermonologue lagi...

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