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its hard to accept the truth but nilah kenyataanya. For the first time in my life, am looking fat. Oversize, overloaded and overeat. I have not come to the level of hating my body yet .. am afraid i just might soon.
you see, since young i was always the "kudut Rat" yup never "Fat". I wore big shirt/blouse/baju kurung just to hide the skeleton inside .. i wore baggy pants so pple won't be able to see the 2 tiang gol!!. I wore big chunk of watch to hide my bones. Yes, i was like that .. i wanted so much to gain some weight but it never happen... a good friend of mine said *sebab dia selalu kene sumpah* hahaha!! I was damn pissed by her comments. Looking back, im thankful for the sumpahan at least am not fat! Back then, i was all flat, no hour glass figure at all. No wonder aku tak de boyfren!!! ish!! When i started working, my colleague called me "cutie pie". They said im slim, young and pretty (lahhh konon tuuu). That was the time i started to blossom (kira nih case late bloomer) Hmm have bit of here and there of flash lah kira. Still not hour glass lah hoi but better .. Now, after 10 yrs of working, married with one kid; I officially declare myself as Fat!!
this entry is for me, i need to put in my thots and feeling at the current moment. Cos it sadden me to see me like this. I'm a confident girl but i think im losing it lah.. (kira kalau aku tak kuasa sure hilang segala confident, i hope to be in the right mind, Insyallah).
p/s: pls don't get offended by this entry oks. we can all start to ddddd daaaa x x ..... urrgghh! i just hate that four letter word lah..
eh aku ni steam gemuk sekali tuu aku p... tak?
its hard to accept the truth but nilah kenyataanya. For the first time in my life, am looking fat. Oversize, overloaded and overeat. I have not come to the level of hating my body yet .. am afraid i just might soon.
you see, since young i was always the "kudut Rat" yup never "Fat". I wore big shirt/blouse/baju kurung just to hide the skeleton inside .. i wore baggy pants so pple won't be able to see the 2 tiang gol!!. I wore big chunk of watch to hide my bones. Yes, i was like that .. i wanted so much to gain some weight but it never happen... a good friend of mine said *sebab dia selalu kene sumpah* hahaha!! I was damn pissed by her comments. Looking back, im thankful for the sumpahan at least am not fat! Back then, i was all flat, no hour glass figure at all. No wonder aku tak de boyfren!!! ish!! When i started working, my colleague called me "cutie pie". They said im slim, young and pretty (lahhh konon tuuu). That was the time i started to blossom (kira nih case late bloomer) Hmm have bit of here and there of flash lah kira. Still not hour glass lah hoi but better .. Now, after 10 yrs of working, married with one kid; I officially declare myself as Fat!!
this entry is for me, i need to put in my thots and feeling at the current moment. Cos it sadden me to see me like this. I'm a confident girl but i think im losing it lah.. (kira kalau aku tak kuasa sure hilang segala confident, i hope to be in the right mind, Insyallah).
p/s: pls don't get offended by this entry oks. we can all start to ddddd daaaa x x ..... urrgghh! i just hate that four letter word lah..
eh aku ni steam gemuk sekali tuu aku p... tak?
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