lunacy - di sini taman langitku

aku ambik cuti setengah hari sebab ngantuk yg dah sampai ke migraine. Last nite i slept late again, helping lovey with his presentation. By 1.30am aku dah close to zombie .. pagi bangun antara hidup dan mati .. akhirnya bila sampai ke rumah ibuk i took penadol and zzz... i called ofis to let boss know that i got headache and will be coming in the afternoon. By 9am, i was wide awake .. been wanting to take halfday leave since last week cos i wanna catch Brokeback Mountain. But ney.... as what Awan said "tengok vcd sudah lunnn.." yeah well i guess i shall stick by ur advice dearie Awan dari play truant eh? Scrap the idea of watching Brokeback. Am sure Lee Ang did a great job! Tadi pun sempat baca abt the lead actor's experience acting in the movie hmmm ... cekmi, u oso dah watch ye??? kiter sangat jeles lah .. Anyway, i have another mission. Today will be the last day of Pasar Geylang In Action. I want to be part of it .. part of history kaum melayu .. just like pasar ...

from all of us.. sohabat di Watts_In

adek shanti si kuttyboy ada buat janji to meet kawan lama dia kat seremban next week. Tapi sayangnye kawan tuu meninggal kerana accident. Kesian dier... abis barang2 dia dicuri orang. Semalam mlm, kuttyboy dapat panggilan dari arwah. Dia tanya bila nak dtg, kuttyboy kata "minggu depan aku datang seremban". Bila dia matikan telepon baru dia teringat eh, kan kawan dia tuu dah meninggal ..... Kuttyboy called isteri kawannya itu, tanya pasal hp arwah. Dia kata semua dah di curi orang. Selepas itu, hp kuttyboy bunyi lagik. Arwah kata kenapa kau call isteri aku .. sekarang dia menangis kat rumah. Ish! Kuttyboy jadi takut terus called shanti. Shanti pun takut gak so kuttyboy's line was diverted to hasben shanti. Wah! Hasben shanti lagik best, bila arwah tuu called dia kata apa kau hendak dgn adek aku? kalau kau berani mari dtg sini!! Suara tuu kata kau pusing belakang sekarang. Hasben shanti kat ape? aku dah pusing tak nampak ape-ape pun!! dah tengah mlm, hp bunyi lagi...

aku dodol ar!!! Its either i have so much thing in my mind or i have not much of what you call as 'brain. smalam aku mengaruk kat blog .. pasal APM on the 24th... which i thot is tonite. aku bising2 tak mau attend handsome cuzzen tunang lah .. apa lah .. sekali tuu tadi while watching "Baik Punya Cilok" yg aku beli smlm di Muzika .. adek called aku. Dia panggil aku dodol!! eh bley gitu?? apsal eh??? kisah nya this morning she called and said the programme (APM) tak SHOW live kat TV which puzzle me .. i say adelah ... so tadi she dengar kat radio .. jeng jeng jeng ... APM tuu 24 MARCH daaa... dodol dodol!! kopai seyyy... aku rasa aku pun kene Cilok gaks!!! Ketawa giler sey bila dengar the truth!!! IM SO KAYAU!!!

aku kurang mengerti akan maksudmu aku tak suka dileter begitu aku tak suka diulang tanyang bertubi kurangkah hormatku jika aku tidak memanggilmu "abang" kurangkah cinta dan sayangku tanpa perkataan itu? dalam kemalasan dah tidak kuasaan .. aku mendapat idea baru tanduk ku mula menampakkan diri(?) belang ku mula menampakkan taring(?) aku tahu apa yang bisa aku lakukan .. akan ku katakan dgn indah apa yang kau idamkan am sure gonna irritate u duhai "abang"

aku dengar di menangis sedih .. ku tanya mengapa? di terus menangis .. ayang, bukak mata ayang .. ayang!! di cuba buka sedikit matanya yang sepet itu .. ku tanya kenapa? dia kata dia mimpi aku sedang berduaan dgn orang lain dia sedih ... Nauzubillah.. its the 2nd time he had such dream. Scary ... Mimpi itu permainan tidur, tapi mimpi juga suatu petanda... (in case korang perasan i stray away from lovey pls enlightened me.. i wanna be true to lovey. Especially bila Ari berulang kali kata "Nak Taha, nak Taha .." i must say "tak boleh!!" refer to Awan's blog) am looking forward for this friday APM. every year oso i bising2 pasal nih.. i wanna watch PEterpan!! I want them to bring home those awards. I want to watch Nuar too!! want to see his hair.. last nite adek dreamt of Anuar Zain .. and she was so geram cos even in her dream i was there telling Nuar i wanna take picture with him hehehe... Oh btw, this friday, my handosme cuzzen nak tunang. Ish! can't they ...

the magic moment in life .. Passion that flows through your veins Awakening your every nerve Singing a lullaby that fills your soul Soothing every restless desire Intriguing to every sense Only love can grant it Nothing can replace it. - ravanoon alkisahnya hari ini aku ngantuk banget.. am reading sandra brown book again best best best .. last nite was magical!!

I got "food fright" eversince i call myself ChubbyCheek .. this morning, i check out my weight and ive lost 5kg already. Hahaha .. bukan aper, i better hilangkan those extra bagage before Ligo starts her diet regime .. i saw the shots of Gubra last sunday, looks great, macam tak sabar plak nak tengok .. well at least my curiousity was answered, kalau Jason mati whose the guy that look like jason?? hahahha ... best best best.. at least can still see Jason, in diff character kot... I bid my farewell to our EMxxxT [E=Encik M=Mohd T=Taha] sad u know to drive off and leave him there; ALONE. Am thankful for his service to us .. [aku betul sedih tau, sampai kluar airmata, sungguh! tak bohong!] Lovey dulu pernah cerita, masa dia primary 1 dulu his principal drive this type of toyota corolla. He pun start dreaming abt driving the car. Bila dibdib was born, we started thinking of the possibility having a car .. budget punya budget, we decided to buy a COE car.. which means lepas ber...

OUr big brader tag me ar.. cos he wants to know what's inside a singaporean bag! i shld say big Tankiu to Zuhri cos i've been wanting to clean my bag for weeks!! BIG bag how, besar tak? segala macam benda i bley sumpat tau hehe. Now u ols know .. i oso know what's inside my Bag. harta karunKU 1- my organizer aka diary (tak cukup blog nak bawak diary lagik and to do my budget) 2- payung (cantik tak? last yr b'day present from adek) 3- coins.. (yeah aku kaya!) 4- EZ Link card (kita naik public transport jer) 5- batteries ( i think this one dah bley buang) 6- keys ( to happiness) 7- crystal bracelet (lama carik tak jumpa nih) 8- tissue ( hehehe mostly use for dibdib) 9- obat (2 weeks ago i fall sick) 10- pink pouch ( rahsia perempuan hahaha make-up ar!) 11- holy book ( to keep me saint) 12- pink hp cover (eh, asal banyak nah pink nih... tak rock abis sey) 13- water bottle (morning nescafe still ada.. ibuk buat tuu) 14- radio kecik (my morning humour) 15- golden pink (it...

i saw the MOON this moring!!

hairan lah .. these days aku terasa sibuk yg tak tentu arah especially after working hours. Fikiran selalu ajer nak bertanya khabar pada kawan2. Tapi kesempatan dan kesempitan masa dan idea selalu saje menjadi penghalang utama. Aku dah berapa hari ni teringatkan Kroll. Apa khabar dia agaknya? Mungkin saje rindu nak lihat nama dia di blog ini. Aku masih teringatkan gambar Kroll yg dulu .. harapku semoga sekarang wajah makin tampak berseri dan bahagia. Vacancy dah terisi ke belum eh?? Semalam waktu kat kereta aku dengar lagu Berhenti Berharap. Rasanya sekelip mata aku berada di alam 2 tahun lalu .. waktu Adren bersedih-sedihan dan Kroll bertemu Watts_In. Hmmm .. masa tu pun lunacy exist withOUT gender .. hehehe Am glad to hear from WTL again semalam. Her email to me at least mengurangkan kerisauan. Im looking forward to seeing her kalau dia dtg Sg July nih. Awan pula .. asyik bermelankolia. Risau lah gini, thank God buat masa nih cekmi, cekya tengah ok. Cuma Tatot jer aku blum...

this morning, there was a caller on the radio .. the DJ teased him for being very shy. The whole scenario reminded me of my conversation with Danny long time ago. He told me he was a very shy person but i dinch quite believe him. Infact, i thot he was the "bo pien" sort especially when i asked him something and he just kept quiet. Pelik kan tu? So today ive learnt someting new abt people and Men can be shy too.. lunch hour passed just like that.. i managed to eat a slice of morning toast bread and the rest of the minutes gone just like that with me watching ova and ova agian klip videos of "kupu2 mlm" and "menunggumu" by who else kalau bukan abang achem anakku.

dibdib was asked to spend 3 days with Pooh Bear and wrote it in the scrape book. Last nite, i put together all the pics together .. while over in KL, tatot was seriously doing her paper work which due today at 8am. So cool right? jauh but action dekat. hehehe.. after finishing dibdib homework thot i can hit the bed, but dibdib started crying .. sakit perut and all.. in the end i slept after 2am. This morning, dibdib sakit perut lagik ... i was late to work. Saturday, i went for a talk on "retail knowledge". I feel the need to be my own boss one day, who knows dreams do come true kan? On the way back, sempat pergi ke KK - KanDang Kerbau Hospital to visit Ligo. Alhamdulilah our blog fren yg satu nih dah pun selamat melahirkan anak boy .. Congrats to u dearie, Have a great 3 months away from Office!! While i was there with her, Cekmi smsed me. Cekmi, are u gonna blog abt it?? ligo's baby boy Zuhri, i had fun time at home yesterday watching PeterPan's videos.. from u...

once a point a time

last monday aku mc kan? aku ikut ibu hantar dibdib ke sekolah. Waktu nak menyembrang jln .. ada bus nak jln .. so kita pun stop kat road divider sekali tuu the bus stop, and give way to us.. bila i tengok aape drivernya ... hehehehe mat takeshi kaneshiro lah!! handsome!!! he wave at me some more but offcourse masa tu i tengah dokung anak!! hehehe very not glamourous! This morning plak, another mamat cute ala ala Jacky Chung yang bawak bus. motivasi pagi utk pergi kerja hahahaha... waktu aku menaip entry nie, aku terasa mood aku berkocak2 macam nak ok dan tak ok. Bila aku dengar tiap tapak berlalu pergi meninggal kan aku sendiri kat opis, aku semakin .. errr sedih?? hmm tak jugak. Marah? pun tidak .. cuma tak memuaskan jiwa. An ex-director nak give us all lunch treat today.. but i dinch go sebab masa silam ada perkara menyayat jiwa berlaku antara dia dan aku. arrggghh lupakan lah .. shanti pun ada appt. arrrgghhh i benci lah perasaan macam gini. I plan to go out today .. but rasa mac...

aku alpa sekali lagik .. hari ni dah pun hari yang ke 10 di bulan Muharam. Bukan kah 10 hari pertama bulan Muharram ni digalakkan berpuasa? aku lupa .. sehari pun aku tak sempat nak puasa. Tetiba pagi ni aku tersentak bila dapat tahu hari ini dah 10 Muharam. MasyAllah... haya' haya' ... hmmm... ada sesapa buat bubur asyura?? mungkin kat masjid akan lebih meriah.. kalau kat masjid pasti ustaz/ustazah akan ulas semula peristiwa2 yg berlaku sempena 10 muharram ini .. u ols sure dah tahu kan kisah2nya ... yg lun suka sekali peristiwa Nabi Adam & Hawa bertemu di Arafah...

last friday entry. just found it in my draft folder. rupanya banyak entries yg aku buat tapi aku tak post kan.. hai susah lah .. aku benci goodbye. belum apa-apa lagik airmata dah meleleh .. ni baru abg khalil. Aku sentivi sorang .. tak tercakap pun dgn abg khalil apa yg hendak aku cakap. thanks god i wrote something in the card, and tadi i snap pics of him .. he won't be around to remind me to go home @ 5pm on friday. Come to think of it, in this 10 yrs .. he taugh me how to kick ball ... my no.1 MU newsCaster. He taugh me how to kayak and rock climb. He chase away all those maintenance guys, telephone man & cleaner from mengurat i. Pokoknye ke takes care of me like am his sister or maybe one of his nieces. Ya Allah .. aku emo giler ni sekarang. End of this month .. aku lagik parah. Both Shanti and Connie will be leaving the dept. Tissue! tissue!! i need many many tissue!! hv a good weekend semua sohabatku

Al -Kisahnya aku mengiegiel sejuk dari hari jumaat mlm lagik, tapi aku prescribe my own medicine cos aku sure doctor will gimme the same one if i go and see him. On and off aku demam. Batuk makin teruk ditambah pulak dgn usulan boss besar mahukan aku ikut sama ke ClubMed Bintan for dept Retreat. Aku kata "let me discuss with my lovey first and let u know on monday k". Hai lah nasib, lovey aku siap "boiling" bila aku sebut pasal overseas retreat... "nasib badan ...." tapi aku redha jer .. sapa nak merentas badai tanpa izin suami?? ada kan kene makan dgn ikan macam cerita nabi yunus tak balik modal hehehe On Saturday tuuu .. walaupun aku seram sejuk .. aku masih jugak nak buat postcard for Awan's b'day on Monday. Cos dia ni pemaluuuuu sesangat. tu yg besh nyakat kat dia hehehe... tapi sayang nyer hari tu tak leh nak upload picture pulak .. so i saved it jer lah. On Sunday nite, selepas menghadiri ke sana sini aku pun giegiel lagik!! Batuk makin ...

SElamat ULang TAhun Rulan Awan!! Semoga berbahagia selalu...

Had lunch with shan @ secret recipe. Im too full now to think. But Aridewa's Moojik Times: Prophet Muhammad Disrespected In Cartoons entry nevertheless, sparks some curiousity in me .. abt the "danish cartoon". Kalau ikut P.Ramlee style, orang yg melukis cartoon tu patut ditembak saje dgn senapang gajah. Biar bersepai jasad dari nyawa. Masyallah .. this is isu Kekasih Allah yg kita berhadapan sekarang. Habibullah yang kita selalu memohon syafaat darinya. Sedih sangat perasaan ini bila aku amati lukisan itu satu persatu. Allah Akbar ... semoga kekacauan dunia dapat dielakkan.. life has been a tiring one (yes cekmi, u can jolly well laughing at me. Orang penat dia syiok2 jln2 kat klcc tengok "fearless"). Lovey is buying a new car. We finally find something that suits our budget. But at the same time, very sad to part with our "cek md.taha" (our car's name). Weird lah .. dibdib is growing taller by the day. These days, he can bargain with m...

a beautiful remix by Peterpan. Use ur headphone to listen to the lyrics .. as a kid, i always wonder what the song is all abt ... the song is very human like .. anyway, I discovered a brand new world while blogging [tak de kene mengena dgn the song ok]. Am a total stranger trying to get comfortable among "them". They have been very nice to me, accept me into their world. Thanks for the friendship. like zuhri said in his previous comments, semoga kita berhijrah kepada yg lebih baik (literally translated). Oh yes, don't we all want that in our life. Semoga Allah lebih mengasihani kita semua .. hambanya yg penuh dengan kekurangan ini. Al-Fatihah untuk ibu cekmi .. yg telah pulang ke rahmatullah tahun lalu di tanah suci Mekah .. cekmi, ur mom's name .. i terlupa .. Hjh Saedah?? or Sa... apa eh?? Al-Fatihah..