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Al Fatihah to Mak Andak. semoga roh mu dirahmati dan bersemadi bersama orang2 salihin, Amin.

Mak Andak's passing reminded me of ibuk's fate. She died of pancreas cancer detected at stage 3. we visited her last week while she was in the hospital. Hair all grey and refusing to eat her meal. I knew how it felt cos ibuk was once like that. Food seemed so hard to swallow even for porridge. I remembered the first time when i saw Mak Andak was on my wedding day. She reminded me so much of my arwah nenek, someone tall and big? ..

i met wif Su last nite and i managed to pull her one side just to clarify something that been bugging me and lovey. Hearing her confession made both of us wept and hug tighly. I managed a whisper that "we all love her and to stay strong". My heart still ache for her..

a fren, formerly known as ****** called. Recently, she got issues with 'what we called her' and we all respected her wish tho we don't exactly understand her reasons. Anyway, after 8 yrs of marriage, she was tested with a domestic welfare. Something that need to tackle wisely or else it cud spread like cancer.

phuh! what a day people .. ibuk and ayah helped to look after the kids today :)

p/s: finally i bought SEPI

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