i could still hear his voice asking me "ayang ok?". i looked into his eyes and said "ok". But the truth was, nothing seems ok with me. in fact i kept trying to console myself and my feelings but it didn't work at all. he joked, he tried to engage me in small conversation it didn't seem to work. Actually, i was disappointed with him. My request yesterday was not taken seriously. He might have his reason for doing what he did. To me 'wateva!'. i don't want to hear his excuse. Tho, this morning i felt guilty for not making breakfast and coffee. I ignore the guilt. He simply thot i was tired and sleepy and i let him. The only thing i could do was to passed him a bar of 'sneakers' and left the car after kissing his lips. sorry dear, no 'i love u' for now.
i did something bad by "accident". i dun dare to own up!! scared he gonna get angry .. i wish and i pray hard he got back whatever files he stored in his tumbdrive .. cos i accidentally throw it into the washing machine and dry it in the dryer. God! i feel terrible for what i did. Fren, if u love me pls pray for miracle that somehow the thumbdrive is still working or worst come to worst .. he got back up in the office. Ya Allah .. im such an idiot!! and he must be cursing and swearing for having such a bad luck. Pity him .. he stuck wif me, the idiot!
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