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Kimi & ibu had our day out!! Kimi was excited to the idea of us taking a bus ride to Yayi house .. he was so restless waiting for the bus and kept asking me "ibu, mana bus ni?" hehehe .. lucky for us a double decker bus came along and we excitedly found our favourite seat on the upper deck right in-front. Hehehe kimi was so excited and he said "ibuk see this .. ada aircon!!" heheeh cute kan.. but the excitement somehow gone as the bus took quite a while to reach Yayi house so kimi had his milk and soon felt asleep. I had to carry him .. oh mind you he weight more than 10kg paket rice ok .. and i still had to find Kuah Rawon for ayah as promise. Nasib .. yesterday after school while in the car i saw this bite mark on kimi's hand. Asked him what happened and he said " Ibu, Wana gigit Ibu" hmmm .. Si KECIL yg cute ni lah Wana ... hehehe...

somehow when i got into my bed last nite, i got affected ova the dream that i had on previous nite. The feeling that lovey decided to leave me and move away so i couldn't find him scare me but im just too ego to admit it. Without any words i tucked myself to bed. i was awaken by ligo sms. Thank God! i wanted to sahur too while ligo just finish cooking. err.. so early in the morning gurl?? anyway, after the morning routine, my eyes stiff puffy..body aching with energy level drop to 0 i go back to sleep with kimi right after shower. i was feeling tired, too tired to even to talk. Lovey was shocked to find me wrapped under the soft comforter with kimi by my side. He called mak and he made his way to work quietly. My only wish he would drop a kiss before he left for work or was i dead in sleep cos when i opened my eyes again it was eight in the morning. once kimi woke up, i got no chance to laze around. tried to keep up wif him and .. its not nine yet so no OKTO for him. I ended wa...

sejak ibuk meninggal dunia (which to me was the most impossible thing to happen), one part of me jadi immune dgn berita kematian and another part of me jadi begitu berbawa-bawa. Seperti kematian MJ tak lama dulu .. macam impossible .. aku bukan peminat besar beliau tapi aku suka dgn beliau. hasil kerja beliau..lagu2 nyanyian beliau. Bila aku sampaikan berita kematian MJ pada lovey dulu, aku sebak menahan tangisan .. aku rasa secubit kebahagian di waktu kecil aku diambil dari hidup aku. Setiap hari aku menonton E! entertainment tonite just to hear bits of news of MJ dan dan aku ikuti pengkebumian beliau dan siaran ulangannya juga. Dan yang baru ni pula, Yasmin Ahmad. Direktor yg aku rasa dekat dlm hati esp melalui blog and iklan2 yg melembutkan jiwa sehingga minitis air mata. Ingat tak the ads abt that 'Red shoes' misalannya membuatkan aku tersenyum sayu lebih lagi dgn suasan rumah pangsa zaman 80-an. Teringat aku waktu kecil ketika bersama ibuk. Dan yg terbaru tentang seorang b...

its time to say goodbye to our chevy aka Lightning McQueen. Kimi cried painfully when he saw a guy drove away wif our McQueen. However, he got use to our new Terios right away esp when lovey fix the vcd player just for 'em. I still couldnt believe that we actually bought a new car. Less than 2 weeks we brought home our Baby!! The old one had shown sign of sickness .. looking at the expanding number in our family members lovey said maybe its time to get a 7-seater yet still categorize under small car. Yup, our baby is big for us but it belongs to a 1.5cc. Ibuk would be happy if only she still with us. We choose chempange cos we knew that was ibuk fav colour. so we happily 'pokai' right now with our so called 'SUV' .. and adik got a car for nikah : ) p/s: thanks Rahmah for sharing ur experience. appreciate it a lot!!

how wud u feel eh to find out that the reason ur little one kept wanting to go his grandpa house was because he was still waiting and looking forward to meet his late grandma. everyday aku cuba jadi kuat, aku cuba kuatkan hati. aku cuba tanamkan senyuman. aku cuba ceriakan perasaan. dan bila anak kecil ku kimi bertanya mana Nyai bu? kimi nak nyai . hmmm macam bersepai rasa hati ni. aku pilih utk berjawab perkara yg benar bahwa nyai dah tak de lagi. Nyai dah meninggal. Rumah Nyai kat kubur dan macam2 lagi .. dan aku tahu kimi 'refuse' untuk terima apa jua jawaban aku kerana dia masih menuggu nyai ..

cemkmi dah selamat sampai dan mungkin sekarang ni sedang bergaya dgn winter jacketnya huhu .. Alhamdulilah adib has recovered. no additional redness spotted as expected. No fever at all so far. im thankful to Allah, may our family always in iman and sabar. kimi still refuse to wear his school uni to school. That boy seems to develop the love of staying home and watch tv. *ouch* Syukur and congrats to our fren Dem. may everything goes well to u .. may sharmaine dpt adik Insyallah. ani called me after reading this blog abt adib sickness and in return i found out that ani jatuh kat tangga sampai kaki kene semen. Aiyoo girl!! but on 2nd thot .. best gak eh ada orang mandi kan hehehe .. mungkin jugak engkau akan terjangkit si Dem tak lama lagik, Alhamdulilah syukur i keep on missing from office .. work done half way here and there .. one particular person keep on spotting all the loops holes .. feel suck to the edge. watever it means lah.. erm.. on 2nd thot, our new baby is coming real so...

bidding cekmi goodbye before he left to pursue his dream was the best that could happen this week. Thank Mi, for including my in ur life .. till we meet again ol'brader of mine... to see ayah's pain lessen was a bless .. i hope to see him well again. As cekmi's said 'he's my life now'. hmmm cought me off guard for awhile .. maybe he is after all : ) hunger strike .. was chewing the longan but ended up chewing my own tougue!! *perakus* the pain travelled up to the brain beb!! kimi refused to put on school uni! insisted he still on school holiday hmm bought a dress for myself *ops* doc confirmed it last nite that adib got HMFD!! MasyAllah ... i'll be home wif the kids for this weekend!!

adek celebrated her bday cum ROMM with family at Carousel. Hmm kalau ibuk ada lagik syiok kan? Pastinya dia lah manusia yg ter'happy' kalau dia masih ada ... Kengkadang tuu terasa hujung mata tu berair bila melihat semua happy mengadap juadah. *dia dah tak de daaa* Jumaat lepas ada satu lagi kematian, lovey mau menyusul jenazah ke tanah perkuburan selepas solat jumaat. Aku pun apa lagi, tak lepas peluang nak susul sama. Ideanya ialah, aku sudah rindu dgn ibuk. Setelah jenazah selamat dikebumikan, adib kata "buk, tengok tuu kubur Nyai". Aku toleh kebelakang .. Masyallah!! tu dia, kubur ibuk putih dan berseri dengan tulisan mas. warna kegemarang ibuk. Anak-anak mula berlari.. seakan melihat Nyai. Ya Allah Ya Rabbi, rahmatilah Ibuku ini. Kasih sayangnya terhadap kami terlalu indah untuk digambarkan. Ikhlas untuk kami. Ya Allah Ya Rabbi, ampunilah dosa2 ibuk kami. Bahagia hati dapat melawat pusara ibuk. Alhamdulilah, akhirnya aku luangkan masa utk pergi ke t...