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this ramadhan ..

last night, both my kids tell me they want 'nyai' and started crying. Oh boy .. what can a mother do other than get them both to read Al-Fatihah for our dear 'Nyai'. May Allah bless her soul, Insyallah. After recited Al-Fatihah, adib look at me and cried again .. he wanted Nyai (again) follow my kimi .. (the copy cat). I know my mom love them too much .. always there to kiss and hug the boys. In my prayers yesterday, i pray to Allah for my mom .. i picture her in my mind and that brough painful sadness, such aching was hard to describe ...i cried my heart out.

last week, visited ibuk 'kubur' was the happiest family outing i can think off. sitting beside her 'kubur' while recited surah yasin i felt so closed to her. I told Anja "Boy, bring ibuk home with you this ramadhan, k" .. aching .. heart aching .. still.

This ramadhan, will never be the same ..

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Aliff Danial said…
Salam Kak Lun,
Saya dapat bayangkan kesayuan Kak Lun bila budak-budak tu tanya tentang nyai mereka. Mereka tidak faham erti pergi tak kembali. Kadang mereka rasa seolah-olah nyai mereka cuma pergi bercuti ke mana-mana dan mereka menunggu kepulangan nyai mereka. Tambah sayu dan sebak bila ianya mengingatkan kita pada detik-detik yang seolah-olah kita mengalami dejavu bersama dia yang tersayang.
Kak lun jangan sedey-sedey ek..

kak lun, ini blog terbaru saya..bolehlah kak lun tukarkan dengan yang baru formula24hour.blogspot.com

dzue
aqriz said…
sedih nya.. ;-((
Yati WTL said…
yes dear it will never be the same. we both know how it feels like.
lunacy said…
Alhamdulilah, adik ku Dzue muncul kembali. Dah kahwin?

ligo and yati ..at times the feeling is just too hard to control

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