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he's young, smart, skillful in football. My boys love him and so are we .. Ya Allah semoga sakitnya dapat diubati, Amin. doc suspect he got leukemia. yup, this 17 yr old cute lil boy. If it is true, i hope it is still the initial stage. Flashback: i rememberd last year, every friday noon i wud rush to Cancer Ctr @ SGH. Adek would bring ibuk to hospital and i took over after that. Today, i went back to the hospital. The deep cut feeling as i saw the building for cancer patient. Since ibuk gone, ive never been to the hospital so imagine the feeling. Now its Iwan. Our cousin's middle child. Nothing is confirm yet, we shall continue praying for him. His mom and dad p/s: oh! i saw an old fren's working place right infront of Blk7 @SGH. Oh wait a minute ..not only i saw the building, i actually saw her!! She's looking fine, as always.

last year, we had hard time with issue on school bully. Adib was bullied several time by few of the boys in school. Remembering back how he came back home with bloody mouth, losing his baby teeth (twice on diff occasion), being pushed, two boys pulled his legs and hands and he ended up fell flat on the ground. It was all too painful and pityful for us as a family. We were worried sick about adib development in school. Worried especially if the class bully would 'teased' him. Even on the last week of school last year, the class bully still tried his luck to bully adib. This year, i have not heard of any storys yet. Only that the class bully would use adib writting materials in class. Few times we told adib to inform the teachers but not too sure if adib actually did it!! And sooo the story goes .. Yesterday, lovey and me weren't working. We dicided to fetch adib in school, I happend to meet with the form teacher and to my SURPRISE teacher told me adib did something last ...

really hope she likes what i got for her. i had a good time searching for this gift. the 'feel good' - feeling is overwhelming!!.  happy to be able to see her again. tho for just 5 minutes .. She is one of the nicest person that i know since my innocent age. Wish you happiness with Iman & Sabar always dear sahabat.  May Allah bless u and family, live full of love, Amin.

i suddenly hv this urge to listen to David Cook -Permanent. The song become a Permanent Resident in my head. Good Weekend !! travelling in a bus from Suntec to ayah's house listening to this song cause my emotion to go thru a rollercoaster ride.   i could see the the last look in ibuk eyes.  i could feel her, water started to fill my eyes.. i guess the sadness is Permanent.

can you see happiness in my eyes. I like that .. i like to be happy and chirpy like the birds in the morning .. tho, one of my eyes was covered by my 'senget' specticles. im still happy with the way it turn out. it really captured the HAPPY mood. We are the Working Moms!! the one forever bz juggling between home-work-kids-hubby-personal indulgence ha! im happy to meet 'em. Bless indeed for having frens to share my worries and frustration on everyday life.  I found a train comfy enuf for me to continue my life journey.  Its on the othe lane, a different track.  Tho there were times when i wish the old train didn't leave me stranded but i have to give in to FATE. Im happy to lose that 'sadness' in my eyes ..

last nite, my niece asked for my help to save a file into her thumb drive. ofcourse!! i was more than delighted. my niece shahidah was goggling for Acrostic Poem on the Net. Her friend gave her the website for the poem. But to my surprise at the end of the short poem the name satan sibling caught my eyes. So i figured, lets goggle it again surely, we could find something suitable for a 10 yr old girl. On the other hand, my thots ran thru once upon a time ago, a good friend of mine by the name of Danny ever wrote an acrostic poem for me. L ife U nderstands N ature A fter C herishing Y ou. p/s: i asked shahidah, do u hv an email a/c? she answered me with the most innocent voice "belum ada lagi, ibu kata nanti nak minta izin ayah dulu". Hmmm .. lunacy decided to keep her mouth shut!!

CONVERSATION: i kata : weekend i totally tak leh .. but its ok, u both can carry on : ) im sure its gonna be fun. C kata : no fun without u... L kata : Tak fun lah, dah lah tak ramai reunion gang kita kan. Kita tengok hari jambu kita half day or mc. p/s: probably it was because of my earlier post, dats why she suddenly felt like giving me a hug. I was surprise and i felt wonderful. Thank you.

i don't know it could be this painful. i ate too much chocolate and durian within a day while having sore throat. In the end, i couldn't sleep cos my throat was burning with pain. Serve me right kan?? i know but i never felt this strong about chocolate before .. its like a new found love!! and a painful one. So i learnt. Back to the office, i felt trapped and confined most of the days. Not so much of happiness except when i got my paycheck!. i lead a pretty quiet life, alone most of my days. there were days when i felt like quitting while some i just love what i was doing. How much longer? i keep asking myself. oh yes, love blossom. Im thankful for that. Tho, there were days when things got bad for me (erm just for the record i took some pills to 'get high' cos that seem to be the easiest thing to do and the fastest way out.) Thank you Love for sticking by. Sorry to put u thru this madness. ive learnt so much that morning. Thanks for not lecturing me.. i promise,...