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Andai ku tahu ..

sejak akhir-akhir ini persoalan tentang mati sering hinggap di minda. Tak, aku tak macam setahun dulu yang ingin mati mengikut jejak ibuk. Aku tak tahu kenapa tapi bayangan 'andai ku pergi dulu sebelum mu' datang setiap kali aku berjalan seorang diri. Entah lah. Apakah tempoh hidup ku akan expire dalam masa terdekat ini wahai Maha Pencipta sekian alam? Bagaimana dengan Lovey, Kimi, Adib .. Adik .. oh Ayah juga. Kengkadang aku rasa macam aku ni pendukung kuat kehidupan ayah sekarang. Perkara yang nak-atau-tak-nak mesti dilakukan.


untuk Lovey ku sayang:

"Picture this: you and me
Walking down a white sand beach
We're holding hands the warm wind blow
We're all alone"

- Painting in my mind by Tommy Page

Comments

she-blocks said…
missed you kak lun!
lunacy said…
yes, thanks dearie. hey!! im still alive hehehe...
Yati WTL said…
i have that thoughts too lun...

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