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6 Jan - to a new beginning

 Subhanalah, I did what i been wanting to do.  Shanti just told me its been 5yrs since she left mas. Which mean, for the past 5yrs i was the wondering ghost looking for a new friendship which i thot i found but somehow lost it again. 
I end the agony of a lonely heart this morning.  I could never do it for myself but last december after a phone conversation with Adib, I suddenly felt sad.  What was i doing working while my poor boy hopelessly left without guidence.  Oh! he was in a good place, Alhamdulilah.  The only thing, Adib is like 'unpolish gem'.  I've seen so much potential in him yet he still lack of confident. I dont want to waste anymore time. Furthermore, Kimi is going for his pre P1 entrance test, I have to coach him at the soonest.
So day in, day out .. the feeling gets stronger, and finally i found the courage to leave.  The letter above was from Kiki. Anna and Hui Tuan helped to do a touch up before i printed it, signed and pass to boss.

Tears.  That is something i dont understand. Im happy yet im crying. I just dont get it. Yes it will dry off soon enuf. To Lovey, thank you so much for supporting my decision.  To Ayah, your approval made it easy for me.  To Yeyeh, haha .. i dont need to take mc to see u while you on labour!! Kiki, thanks for the letter.  To Jimi, thanks for supporting my decision. To Hilmi, i havent got time to keep in touch with you. To all Sahabat, thank you for your support and understanding.  To Allah the Almighty, thank you for gerakan ini.  Aku redha dan bantulah aku seterusnya Ya Allah. 
Im thankful for the song "open your eyes" by MZ. I can see the wonder spread infront of me, Alhamdulilah.  Right now, I pray that Allah take us in the best way, guide us in every single day, Amen.

Boys, Im coming home ...

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