This year his bday came a day late cos of leap year. I'm still wondering what to get for him within a very tight budget :)
I'm trying my best to be as much as what he hope me to be but time and again, things happened that upset him. I starting to hv doubt on myself these days. Was i really that bad? Ya Rabb, if its all bcos of me, help Ya Rabb.. I love him so much and I want him to enjoy life with happiness and full of Barakah. If I'm the reason that cause him all the sadness, pull me away from him.
If I can't be the bridge to pple happiness take me away Ya Rabb, it hurtful enuf as it is and I can't be crying everyday and I hate to put on a happy face when my heart is being torn apart.
I'm tired going around asked for help and nothing seems to be working. Now I wish I could fade away and be gone ..
i did something bad by "accident". i dun dare to own up!! scared he gonna get angry .. i wish and i pray hard he got back whatever files he stored in his tumbdrive .. cos i accidentally throw it into the washing machine and dry it in the dryer. God! i feel terrible for what i did. Fren, if u love me pls pray for miracle that somehow the thumbdrive is still working or worst come to worst .. he got back up in the office. Ya Allah .. im such an idiot!! and he must be cursing and swearing for having such a bad luck. Pity him .. he stuck wif me, the idiot!
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