This year his bday came a day late cos of leap year. I'm still wondering what to get for him within a very tight budget :)
I'm trying my best to be as much as what he hope me to be but time and again, things happened that upset him. I starting to hv doubt on myself these days. Was i really that bad? Ya Rabb, if its all bcos of me, help Ya Rabb.. I love him so much and I want him to enjoy life with happiness and full of Barakah. If I'm the reason that cause him all the sadness, pull me away from him.
If I can't be the bridge to pple happiness take me away Ya Rabb, it hurtful enuf as it is and I can't be crying everyday and I hate to put on a happy face when my heart is being torn apart.
I'm tired going around asked for help and nothing seems to be working. Now I wish I could fade away and be gone ..
i wonder if jimi kerja today ataupun tercegat kat depan kotak tv menyaksikan Oscar "live" sajer, mengubati demamnya hehe. Aku tak rasa dia buat kerja bodoh punnn... sebab suatu masa dulu, aku pun gitu. Tak pernah miss any of the award ceremony. Skarang jer aku tak de time utk benda2 gini, jadi aku suka tompang sekaki dgn obsesinya. selamat ada jimi , aku baca review dan lepas tu aku cari vcd sajer.. lovey masih blum 100% sihat. He lost 5kg in 5 days .. drastic tak tu? skarang ni dia rasa mabuk dan mual selalu. Last saturday, after dibdib's reading clinic lesson kita gie carik peacock feathers kat little india .. out of nowhere lovey turned pale, white!! cam tak de darah, aku risau. For the past nites lovey been talking in his sleep. Its all abt working. Last nite, i got notti and decided to record it instead. Hehehe .. so funny he said the office looked funny, looked like hospital and then he had a shocked to see me (i appeared in his dream). Actually dia berbual banya...
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