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What's my wish for this year apart from crucial family happiness and marriage bliss and health and wealth and Iman ... I wish for ... Lipstick - a bright colour that would make me look so alive and kicking and wake all the dead on a ghost month haha ok that sound so freaking. Lipstick - incognito #316 to die for that would be my daily fav colour. Steve madden - I want something from that store. I don't know why probably I always do Wrist watch - its bn months I go ard watch less probably its abt time for me to change the battery I feel like put this up on FB ..

Ptg raya suasana sayu sekali, ibuk semakin pergi, ayah tiada disisi. Ya Allah kuat kan kami semua.

When I first started blogging, I had so much of hate for him. It was always him that put us all down and sob abt life. Ibuk, adek and me always wish for him to leave us so we could be happier on our own. But Allah had better plan for us, He took our beloved Ibuk from us and let us continue dealing with him. Somehow I manage to put aside all those hatred and love him like a daughter shld. But he's not someone that appreciate what good life is. Now that he's health is improving, financially stable, he decided to take his leave and disappeared for 3 days until i had to lodge a police report for missing person. Looks like he prefer to be alone rather than having us around him. He told me he will go again for a few days and will only be back after Raya. It is sad to know that your own flash and blood and the only one left prefer to be alone in a foreign land than be with us. I forgotten this is the real "him" that has not appear ever since Ibuk left us. Ya Allah, alang...

#2 track was not for me but track #12 broke me to tears. Everytime I heard it. You went so soon, you left so soon. I have to move on cos I know it's been to long. I have to be strong and move on.. And I remember all the stories you told me, I missed the time you were around. But I'm so grateful for the time I spent with you. Buk, tahun ni lepas solat, I selalu nangis ingatkan Ibuk . Sejak awal ramadhan lagi, hati rindu sangat dengan Ibuk. Tahun ni, kita sambut raya ala kadar jer Buk. I dah tak kerja, jadi banyak yang I kene cut down. Bila dengar Yeh beli brooch baru, oh baru I ingat kita selalu beli brooch, kasut, beg dan make up baru utk raya. I dah terlupa semua tu sbb I kene budget sekarang Ni. Kalau boleh I tak mau minta lebih walaupun I tahu kalau I minta dia sure kasi tapi I rasa tak sama dgn guna duit sendiri. Jadi tu, I beli mana yang patut je la tahun ni. Dulu pun masa I kecik kita pernah susah so kalau sekarang I tutup sikit sedikit keinginan, Insyallah boleh kan I...

Sitting here watching videos on iPhone, watching pple meet up, discussed biz, agents selling ins policies is actually a fun thing. Watching pple reaction oh if I'm lucky the good looking one is much preferred (of course). While the ladies with their designer bags and clothes. And not forgetting the gossip that going around here. Hv a nice Friday