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kaklar kaklar life is so kaklar.. terkekek aku dibuatnya menyingkap perasaan yg berbuku di hati.. hmm dah brapa jilid agaknya buku tuu ye? itulah aku kata semuanya cukup & sungguh kaklar... menda yg tak de kene mengena dikena-kenakan.. untuk apa? menda yg patut & menjadi sumber kehidupan di lengah-lengahkan.. apa pasal? menda yg bertahta dlm jiwa jgn dimatikan..... rosak binasa! amak!!! boring ar, im in daze... wanna sleep sooo MUCH! i miss my bed...

sabtu hati girang & riang .. i got emails from my 2 beautiful bros hehe why are they so beautiful .. i dunno but they sure make me feel beautiful not on the outer part but deep inside my heart. after enuf of playing sisterly thru the emails early that morning, its time for me to be ME. Playing that "ME" role is a responsibility. But deep within me, i put pressure on myself just to make sure that i didn't slaken from being "ME" after being granted to play my sisterly role. Damn, what am i talking abt nie??? (actually, im taking a break from my form testing again. dunno why it didn't run smoothly. perhaps after this entry i'll hv a better luck!) We went to shanti's house.. baby Vitesh was soo cute. Ya Allah aku ni dikenali oleh kaum krabat Shanti. hehe.. the famous XXXXX - they call me. Shanti's siammese twin. ahad kak lun aka filipino maid. tapi tetap sempat menjengah ke blog2 yg wajib sambil2 tuu letak message to enig yg berk...

lun nak jadi pencuri skang ini.. hehe nak curi masa kerja sebab nak berblog! anyway, im waiting for some report to be out to do another set of statistics (stats) and listening to peterpan buat berabad kali ku katakan.. cekya cepatkan "Bintang Di Syurga" selagi stok masih ada... and read the band members comments especially ariel lah... dia ucap terima kasih pada cinta, mlm, pagi... Ya Allah sungguh i likeeee (ok lun bawak mengucap...) dzue , tadi pagi kak lun & adik kluar rumah bersama .... cos skola adik & my workplace selari/sejalan gitulah... suka dia bila kak lun beritahu yg dzue suggested kak lun bagi bunga kat dia... ayooo!! anyway dzue, Alhamdulilah me & adik rapat banget... yg gaduh tuu gaduh manja jer... bila dia ada bf dulu, i took my time to get to noe himm so now kita in gd term but ofcourse initially i warn him.. anything happen i look him up but it turn out.. adik ni yg bully si crabby! huhu... Masyallah, cuaca makin panas yee... banyak bush fire ...

a lot of stuff in my mind right now and im rushing to finish another form testing, why the system sooo slow?? its lunch time now and im not too sure whether to eat or not. selera not that good these past few days ... maybe takut naik badan kottt... nak puasa, malas plak ... ayo, lun .. lunnnn apa nak jadi nie? lun teringat adek lah. few times she called me today. she always complain abt me being fickle. heh, that's one of my weakness. im so fickle minded... and rite now im not only fickle but confuse. hmmm.. padan muka u lun. so kepo ceduk2 kisah hidup orang now u worried like nobody business huhuhu... apa nak buat, dari ol' skool time dulu pun cam tuu jugak .. bila terperasan ada classmate menghilang jer lun go around skoll gie carik dia.. tho' lun tak leh tolong but lun harap my present dapat kurangkan kesedihan dia. bila lun nampak ada juniors yg tak termasuk dlm "in-group" lun akan duduk lepak dgn diorang heehe sampai lun dapat nick "kakak gengster...

today cam tak de topik sangettt nak tulis ...hmmm another bizi day but still manage to blog. arrgghh, korang ni happening sangettt.. btw, smlm..i took my own sweet time re-read a bro's blog. i listed few unbelievable stuff abt him (heh wa sound so flee kan??) entah kenapa i did it, rasa macam terpanggil untuk buat gitu. im so glad that he's so lively, chatty & witty now. dah banyak fans lagik....ekeeekekek bro: - you started blogging earlier than me eh??? - you have no life, no frenz?? (hmm tak caya lakss) - miserable personnal life?? (hmm can't be) - "my blog has become an unspeakably passive and dead object" (not anymore) - just 1 enty in dec 04?? (won't let it happen again) - u bought a laptop huhu.. (wow! kelassss) - and etc etc etc... So Bro .. i can tell that ur life now is less lonelier or maybe hectic than ever with enigma & lunacy and the rest around u (huhu) and im sure that u can't wait to be alone these days so u can ...

it has been a quiet morning. tag-board down maka terputuslah komunikasi yg selalunya berjalan lancar. pagi ini, alhamdulilah terasa segar sedikit.. dikit lebih baik dari smlm. walau pun paras PSI mungkin tinggi kerana sana sini berjerebu tapi jerebu dlm jiwa udah berkurangan. bumi semakin hangat.. Ya Allah apakah hambamu sekelian patut bimbang dgn kepanasan yg makin terik ini atau memandang kehadapan utuk menunggu limpahan nikmat dari Mu. smlm ku berhasrat utk menulis tentang rock opera. bukan tentang tayangan di esplanade itu tapi cetusan rasa dari pementasan yg diadakan ... sayangnya, tidak terlaksana apa yg dihajatkan ... takpa takpa ... smlm aku bereksperimentasi dgn diri sendiri. aku ikut rese, kesabaran & akal waras ku letak tepi .. ku biarkan perasaan & imaginasi bersatu .. aku berlunaci. jiwa rockmetal ku pulangkan semula arrrrggghhh aku udah lupa bagaimana rasa kenikmata gentelan gitar, pukulan drum yg suatu masa menjadi nadi diri. perasaan yg lama terseli...

lunacy berada di atas paras normal segalanya tergendala, some technical problems ... pikiranku - tak dapat kumengerti - kaki dikepala - kepala dikaki - pikiranku - patutnya menyadari - siapa yang harus - dan tak harus kucari tetapi tak dapat ku mengerti - sesuatu - yang baru kusadari - kau tinggalkanku - tanpa sebab yang pasti - sesuatu yang harusnya terjadi - kau sakiti aku - kau yang harus kubenci tetapi tak dapat kumengerti - tetapi tak dapat kumengerti - Di atas normal by peterpan

I_mshe: i met I_mshe last saturday. Dia tengah bizi but still pleasant with people hehe, ol skool time dulu pun i like to tease and irritate dia but dia tetap tak marah ... dia cakap baik2 lagik ada that's what i like abt i_mshe ni. it was great to see u again and good luck with the interview okies.. bHumi: korang collect comments ke? sorry for not writting nice stuff abt u guys...typical s'porean yg tak support local music kan? like i say before, u guys performance was ok well... good actually. i was suprise to know nadira can sing very well. hmm.. good combination. Again, jgn slang sangettt ya. the dressing part wasn't meant for u guys lah .. if time permit, shall see u guys kat fort canning ok. teruskan berkarya utk muzik singapura ... i'll look up for ur music soon! oooppss lupa, congratulation for winning 3 awards that nite...semoga terus berjaya danny: sand-wiSH for a young and notti engliCH t'Sher hihi.. enigma: ur back! hectic week lah.. good morning to ...

its hot tonite, lama tak hujan .. tadi hujan sebentar jer.. cukup ke nak basahkan bumi yg kian bahang ini.. after months of having my monitor being turn to 90 degres cos dibdib touch some button that turn the whole screen .. finally i managed to put it back to normal ... with the help from HP ofcourse esok, 10 muharam .. sape upaya silalah puasa ok well, the house is kindda quiet now after herok pikok apm. tadi vince kat nak nyanyi ngan taufik lagu pernah mana dia?..hmm tak de time kot.. oh well, ariel was there..smilling at last. u should see him in his video clips ..masam sungguh muka dia!! mungkin nanti was great.. tho'. originally it was more energatic. bhumi band .. aku tak kenal sanget... dengar lagu dia pun baru few times .. kira ok lah for local new comers kan? tapi jgn slang ar... diction melayu hancusss ah.. talking abt newcomers i think they are SOOOO OVAAAA baju, suara, figure... arrrggghh why like that ar? and kd looks like a lion yg cengkung.. siti looks kindda tembam...

i can't wait for tonite APM hehehe hopefully tonite will be as entertaining as previous yrs. lovey & me dah plan nak balik rumah awal2 .. hehe so by 8.30 we'll be home relex and tergolek2 di depan tv .. hope everything will turn out well.. apart from wanting to watch peter pan, dewa, kikan, glen, taufik (dia akan nyanyi dgn vince lagu "kat awan putih's blog" hehe), hasrul nizam, bumi band (hope u guys r gd, tak yaya papaya ok) .. i nak tengok siti jugak.. pakai cantik2 tonite ok. Doubt nuar will be around but if he is ...wohooo this morning server kat opis is kindda slow..maybe gd jugak lah.. so i can do work. since i think danny pun dah ok skit dgn blog dia.. kecoh mamat satu ni tau.. wei, cikgu skip klass pasal blog??? might as well u call ur kid to reconstruct ur blog hehe.. sure they all lagik pro. But yg peliknye smlm ptg by blog page turn albino!! can u imagine?? so much of guiding a fren hah!! joker sey smlm.. there goes my gothic touch. ish ish ish .....

coffee can u imagine me travelling to work on a public bus with a handbag in one hand and another hand carrying a nice fancy yet plastic water bottle/tumbler. but funny thing, this morning i got this funny look from a not bad looking muscle man hmm... wajahnya pernah ku lihat tapi dimana ya..? that's ur lunacy in real life.. dia buat lagu dia sendiri tak kuasa nak ikut orang or kisah sanget pasal orang .. yg penting bila masuk opis coffee ibuk ada di atas meja yg sarat dgn paper ni.. email it started as a normal mail but situation got touche! and a revealation that makes me a very bad person. hmmm im no angel enigma. Dah beribu kali i said that and like u did before, u asked me to let go of the past.. heh, rose in titanic said: i'll never let go but she did. Am i rose enigma? lets check if rose a virgo or not.. anyway, my philo is easy: when u hurt me, i'll wait till one day, God put u to test and if you feel the pain thats how i felt. hidup seperti roda itu...

hmm.. i noe its coming cos he did say it few times before this. i wonder how it would be.. what would he writes for lunacy or maybe for me who's hiding behind the mask of lunacy... i was late to work today, pepagi masuk toilet skali tu ada cicak... maka terjadi lah expidisi membunuh cicak yg melibatkan bygone, sapu lidi & entah apa2 lagik. 2 cicak busters masuk ke toilet dlm keadaan geli geman... that's why im late to work!! ova at the radio the DJ was asking those yg "bermadu" to call the station and talk abt their experience. arrrrggghhh issue close the heart cos my shoulder has been the cry on place for a fren (she's the 1st wife) hump!!! REALITY BITES (ouch) the truth is - im still speechless ova the poem that was written by Danny for Lunacy. huhu apa nak komen?? OF COURSE I LOVE IT!!! LOVE IT LOVE IT LURVEEEEE ITTTTT sangetttt ... yg lain jgn jelos, suruh jer danny write a poem for u guys plaksss.... huhu to my dearie Danny, thank you so much! i might ...

seluruh muka kuyup dek kesedihan membaca entry enigma kejap tadi. Baru smlm hati berdetak bertanya dlm diri adakan enigma akan menulis tentang kak eda. well, as u can see here..up till now i masih susah nak letak perkataan "arwah" to nama kak eda sebab dia selalu hidup dlm jiwa kita smua bukan setakat kenangan manis bersama. rasanye indah sungguh hidup kalau kita dapat pergi menghadap yg Esa dgn meniggal seribu kemanisan dlm jiwa2 manusia yg mengenali diri ini. mungkin itulah manusia yg berjaya..biar tak de cash, car, credit, condo & career tapi tetap agung disayangi & dirindui selalu... betul ke enigma dah 7 tahun kak eda pergi?? the last time i gie solat kat masjid sultan terpandang seorang kakak yg persis macam kak eda.. Ya Allah berderau jantung sekejap... sebab aku pun rindu kat dia tuu..anak angkat ibuk. hehe tulah Eda, anak kepada bapa yg baik (Abu Hasan). i_mshe , i think danny tengah bizi buat upgrading blog so sabar je lah for his next entry. Danny , keep o...

the 3 of us shared one conetto ice-cream heh that was fun.. dibdib obviously enjoy the most. he even breaks the rule of eating conetto ice cream... he bite the cone first!!! heeeeeiiiii u need alot of practice dibdib.. u should clear the nuts and the chocolate first!!! it was not an ordinary nite.. just like any other nite..it was the nite for rebonding and nite wathcing " desperate housewives " huhu.. i miss the grammys ... maybe i've been missing it for quite a while now. takpe takpe .. im undergoing another phase of my life ... accept & redha hihi alaaaa enuf lah tuuu kejap lagik go online sure got news abt it. today is ani's b'day i sms instead of calling her .. what a way lunacy tak respect good fren langsung. hmph! the card that im suppose to send pun masih kat drawer lagi. bila syndrom maless dah menyinggah abis abok pun tak jadi kuang kuang kuang... anyway, ani, lin, jun & me .. we are good frens .. are we still??? hmm i_mshe dtg menyinggah tap...

its the time of the year again.. bunga naik harga, teddy bear naik harga.. chocolate naik harga ..hampers naik harga, food in restaurants pun naik harga.. but people still spend their money for what eh?? i think i should call the day as " THe foRbidden cElebRated dAy" unless u want to end up with a hole in ur pocket. apa tak nyer.. i guarantee today bila i take train home, im sure gonna see man & ladies proudly carrying bouquet of flowers sambil mata menjeling bunga orang lain and try to compare sapenyer lagik "standard" hehehe tak yah lah nak get involved dalam perkara macam ni.. manusia tak kan pernah puasnyer... especially pompan ehuk! reminiscing the past... teringat plak ol' skoll days.. i came from all girls skoll heh so kita orang senyap2 sambut friendship day instead. each one kat kelass cabut satu nama .. and kene beli hadiah + write a love letter to our fren yg kita pick nama tuuu. That was fun.. no one expect me to write such a love letter..jiwang...

heh, i got angpau dari nyonya toilet. funny lah, nyonya tot im still sweet & young. but the fact is im sweet cuma not that young, tho' i always act like one but hehe tak yah lah sampai bagik angpau smua malu den - "thank u antie mali"

yesterday i wasn't really happy with myself. well, only a little part of me i guess. heh, its not that big issue but i wish im able to handle the matter much more better. hmmm..me suck big time ar.. my heart wanna swear big time ah you noe .. like damn f@#$ing b@#%Ard (and a lot more) is eyeing over Iran for its nukes or maybe N korea which is in Asia where we all are. he'll never satisfied with all the desctructions in the world .....arrgghhh what a way to start new year .. btw, while danny's away in kelantan... we have another kelantanese who's now in Japan - Dzue. im so impress with what Dzue buat kat japun obviously it never cross my mind at all. i guess Dzue change my perception abt Japan. Cos few years back i was a J-freak. The things that i love abt Japan are .. I love tokyo tower/ shibuya / star gazing, i love J-dorama (say u love me, beautiful love, lion heart etc etc), i love J-pop/rock (smap, glay, gackt-kun, ayumi hamasaki, every little thing, lunasea ect ec...

Salam pada smua ... Selamat menyambut tahun baru ..esok kan Awal Muharram, pada yg berkuasa hehe puasa lah ... lets pray for the best utk kita & ahli keluarga, sahabat dan semuanya... semoga kita lebih tabah menghadapi ujian Allah Insyallah. dah baca doa akhir & awal tahun ke blum ...

shenton way at nite -adik 

bila tiba tahun baru cina jer bukan si chituk aje yg sibuk berbelanja .. bangsa lain pun turut serta penuh kan stock kat rumah. apa nak buat memang diorang ni control segala pasaran di sini so sebelum kebulur kita gie pasar ok? hmm tekak terasa nak makan bubur pulut hitam ar... esok bleh buat.. abis botak lagik daun pandan kat luar rumah tuuu ish ish ish... hope u guys ada plan for hari cuti nie. hv fun ... i just nak lepak2, rehat2 & kemas2 kat umah ajer.. if got time i blog lah. take care smua. Ahhh almost lupa .. esok bukan bangsa cina jer sambut tahun baru .. kita pun nak sambut Ma'al Hijrah jugak ... jgn lupa ye baca doa akhir tahun selepas solat asar dan doa awal tahun selepas solat maghrib . Semoga tahun ini pergi dgn seribu kenangan dan tahun baru membawa keberkahan serta keceriaan dlm diri kita. errr... i got the doas ... sapa nak let me noe ok : )

hmm.. first of all nak wish kan Awan haPPy Birthday on 6 Feb smlm . udah tuuu, buat baik berpada2 .. jgn sampai membakar diri. kalau dah tak leh angkat.. tinggalkan aje sudah, sebab sekali sekala tuu diri sendiri pun harus diberi keutamaan hehe.. u noe what's best for you so cheer up and Wooohooooo how ol' are u now??? If awan is Ad's good fren then, Jun is my buddy since i was 7. hehe how's life without Jun?? me going bonkers most of the time .. hehe yeke? Well, she's always the sensible and im the notti one plus with 2 other acquarian frens yg baik hati slalu. Jun will be celebrating her b'day esok 8 Feb. tu lah tanggal keramat yg Insyallah akan aku ingat sampai bila pun. Jun ni popular giler masa kat skoll dulu.... sape yg tak suka dia?? hmmmph!! but still i get to bully her the most. Come to think of it, she secrifices a lot for me ... mostly hati & perasaan lah cos my tantrum and nottines sometimes susah orang nak angkat but there she was always c...

ibuk - she's everything to me.. Posted by Hello been trying to add in pic for so long but can naver do it. today, with the IT dept away on retreat and waaalaa! my 1st ever pic in watts-in. two of a kind. the two was born on the same day & month. Ibuk & Dibdib..

tho we just met in this cyber world but he's been our fren .. another adik to me. yesterday, i just realized that most of the time im kindda "mean" to him on purpose. Not lunacy style at all but he's still here.. and i enjoy having him around. entah kenapa, but with him, i tak teragak2 nak kata apa yg dlm minda. few days ago, i asked him abt his mak ayah yg ke mekah.. and this morning, in his blog he wrote abt his mom yg telah pulang kerahmatullah dini pagi tadi. Masyallah.. dugaan Allah sememangnya tidak dapat dibendung. Tapi pastinya ada hikmah disebalik apa yg berlaku. Ibu Danny, pulang kerahmatullah di tanah suci mekah.. besar sekali ganjaran nya, di penghulu segala hari .. dan akan disolatkan oleh berjuta umat Islam .. Insyallah Danny, kesedihan ini pastinya membawa kesyukuran yg tak ternilai. Allah maha berkuasa dan dia amat menyayangi ibumu. salam takziah buat Danny sekeluarga..jgn nangis2 tau... "Ya Allah, kami memohon kepadaMu jiwa yang tenang, Ya...

arrrrgggghhh... its aching everywhere... sakit sekallll but it was worth doing it. hmm..ever since Angah passed away (drown in a pool)when i was abt 7..my family & I have the phobia of being in water. Tho' all of us loves the sea but seashore is the limit. however, yesterday, i tried to overcome the fear. i kept on drinking the mineral water as if it was air zam-zam. hehe to calm myself before i got to the boat. Splash!!! one of our directors who was in my team accidently felt to the river..aaaggghhh i looked at my colleague they reasured me nothing like that will happen. ha! i told them to make sure i'll float if anything happen and DON'T CAPSIZE THE BOAT i can't swim!!! In the end, rowing the boat was so much fun. I did a good job for a started haaa reminded me of a movie "oxford blues". oh yeah, rite after i got into the boat, i touch the water and spoke to them.. i give my salam to the water and tell them to be gentle with me. hihihi... t...

i keep on hearing what a fren told me today ova the phone and my first reaction was to piss back my anger to her .. but for once, the -tive energy was just not in me. heck, even at the time when i wanna be angry i can still reationalize within me that she still need me.. so i stay cool, hung up the phone and gie solat. rite after solat.. i told myself that i found what im been looking for since new year .. haha a new resolution and i found it!!! me, lunacy am going to restraint meself from being easily provoked by others. Laaa Taghdob - jgn lah awak marah yeah baby... am gonna try to restraint my anger... it's the toughest thing to do for someone whose born in the year of tiger ....grrrrrhhhh but i shall try. no guarantee or watsoever but i shall do it starting from now. Wish me luck guys!!

hey my adik boy - Ad was here...ehekehek ingat jugak kat akak ni eh.. thank u for adding kecerian in my hectic life.. this morning, i read few interesting blogs .. and one particular blog somehow remind me of who i am .. or who i was few years ago ... before lunacy was born. if i were to eloborate more abt it ..i dun think i can continue being lunacy.. it just didn't fit the bill. anyway, pagi ni membuka minda dan ketenangan. mungkin tidur yg cukup membantu perjalanan darah dan udara dlm badan+otak ku ini. Alhamdulilah.. so far so good here... the positive energy that i have in me really helps .. even when work keeps coming, i can still smile at my colleague. giler kan? but that's me ... i love to smile .. hihihi ibuk pernah kata "senyum2 .. macam kerang busuk" oppps.. but that's me .. kalau tak betul2 i won't show my true feelings to just anyone. i left early yesterday, the aircon man was coming. The new aircon at home doesn't seem to be working ...

i was chirpy as the cute little bird yesterday but too bad, kindda cranky today. adik .. dun u noe u piss me off? i got to do a bit of anger management here or else...kita dah stop talking by now. met priscilla this morning aaahhh feels like ol' time - we board the same bus and simply talk and talk and talk until we have to part ..hope u get the job gal, Insyallah... am tired, brain half-working this morning. arrrgghhh, lunacy lunacy ... stop it!! be yourself, dun let emotion takes control of ur sleepy head. wake up and BE NICE!! hope my pc tak de problem cos yesterday nite, while working on the forms suddenly the hard-disk started to run ... it goes duk duk duk duk duk duk duk duk louder and louder and louder until finally i gave a screeching sound and it stop!!!. hmmm...maybe my pc just had it for the day ... good morning to all : )