frustration. I had that. I had it since friday nite .. or many days ago, i don't know. I thot i was ova but i think it changed me. I didn't talk much these days. I let my head do the talking instead. Last friday, lovey's mom called cos they (mak & bapak) coming to get some stuff from my house.. but when she said she did some clearing at home and found those small2 items (mainly the "berkat" from wedding eg: bakul, pasu & mangkuk kaca) which she don't want but "sayang" to let go .. so she asked me if she can pass it to me. At that point, the mercury had gone up to its boiling point. BUT a soft voice from my head told me to hormat orang tua.. terima ajer. So i said "ok boleh mak"but at the back of my mind my heart was saying "ur so fuckup lun". Than she said, she wanted to give lovey the "caremboard". urrgghhh i was full of fury so i called lovey to talked to his mom instead while i let out the steam in my heart. You see... i am the sort that i would rather throw things that i don't want .. cos i more or less know how pple feel. Am i making any sense here?? GOD help me.. but rest assured cos when my in-law came im already in a steady mind but it turned out lovey yg marah2 sebab at 11pm baru his parents sampai rumah kita. Why so late? he's sleepy already...
After watching MI, i found out ada Peter Pan in konsert with Ari Lasso. Best banget nih.. aku nongkrong di depan tv ajeh deh hingga lewat malam.
saturday we brought ibuk and adik to eat kat Banquet Senkang Mall. It was all fun and i was greatful to lovey for being nice to my family, Alhamdulilah. But obviously on and off ada jer benda2 yg buat my frustration meluap2 lagik. Barang Barang ada warehouse sale(Senoko) ... weeeiiii i went there.
DibDib is getting naughtier these days. maybe its a sign of growing up. I pity dibdib cos when we're tired we just can't play the way he wanted and that frustrated him.
Sunday, frustration continue.. i sat and cry one corner. Felt like talking to someone but realized that Jun is not around to hear me wining ova stoopid stuff. PC at home was not working at that time so blog oso cannot. Felt like calling Danny but dah kenepa pulak aku nih?? so once again my mind straighten out everything ..
am up and chirpy again... (like real...)
After watching MI, i found out ada Peter Pan in konsert with Ari Lasso. Best banget nih.. aku nongkrong di depan tv ajeh deh hingga lewat malam.
saturday we brought ibuk and adik to eat kat Banquet Senkang Mall. It was all fun and i was greatful to lovey for being nice to my family, Alhamdulilah. But obviously on and off ada jer benda2 yg buat my frustration meluap2 lagik. Barang Barang ada warehouse sale(Senoko) ... weeeiiii i went there.
DibDib is getting naughtier these days. maybe its a sign of growing up. I pity dibdib cos when we're tired we just can't play the way he wanted and that frustrated him.
Sunday, frustration continue.. i sat and cry one corner. Felt like talking to someone but realized that Jun is not around to hear me wining ova stoopid stuff. PC at home was not working at that time so blog oso cannot. Felt like calling Danny but dah kenepa pulak aku nih?? so once again my mind straighten out everything ..
am up and chirpy again... (like real...)