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lunch yesterday was great. Time was short but to be laughing our loud was spectacular. I was enjoying myself listening to stories after stories. As for me, there were nothing to tell, my pathetic ofice life was quite mundane without shanti and connie. I was without partners and bestfren. Thank God, i could still manage work and get help when i needed one but still my everyday life was half empty. There were less naughty and dirty jokes, less gossiping and stupid act. I even talked less these days and smile more. Well, im a smiley person. At times, i couldn't utter a word at all so i just smile and feel stupid. Hahaha i was never the greatest person on earth anyway..

Just a while ago, the rest of my colleague left for some briefing without telling me. Thank God i remembered it on time. So how would that make me feel?? My survivor instinct told me to pick up those spirit and just go ALONE!!. Yup, i saw a vacant seat beside a girl that i knew and sat beside her. In fact, i had a good time cathing up wif her especially on our kids. I couldn't afford to be angry at all. I could be angry at myself but I wouldnt want that. Well, that was how pathetic my everyday life was. Imagine for the past eleven years i was happy lunching in, surfing the net or even enjoying my afternoon nap in the office during lunch hour but not anymore. I prefer to be outside. Alone, i found solace else where .. wondering like a cute lil ghost name casper...