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SelaMAT MeNyamBut AidiLFitRI kepada semua teman2. If only kita dekat dapat kita bersalaman dan memohon kemaafan sesama kita. Pada semua yg Jauh & Dekat .. maafkan ye kesilapan lun.. *enigma*Kroll*i_mshe*Awan*Adren*Danny*Cekya*Tatot*Wtl*Dzue* Jimi*Ween*Halian*ligo*Duan*Taufix*Adek*Fidz* Eid MuBarAK, Minal AiDil waL FaiZin Wal MakbuLin

Assalamualaikum raya datang lagi.. dah setahun rupanya tsunami melanda aceh? dah setahun rupanya tak jumpa sedara mara. dah setahun rupanya tak lap tingkap. dah setahun rupanya kita tak makan ketupat.. dan setahun datang lagik kita memohon kemaafan dari mereka2 yg kita kenali. Tapi patut ke kita ucap maaf pada "SEMUA" orang eh? dan setahun dulu lun lupa nak minta maaf kat lovey, semoga tahun ini lun lebih ingat hehe. tadi pagi lun nangis sedu sedan dengar pengalam "bapa tunggal di radio". lovey pun sedih jugak.. ada tuu kematian isteri sewaktu isteri melahirkan. sambil drive lovey usab kepala lun. Adush! terasa hilang segala marah dan frustrasi. I think he got magical hand hehehe.. just a pat! and i know he loves me and he appreciates me for the mess ive created in his life hmmm.. friday and saturday adek ova nite kat my house sebab kita nak buat kuih raya. Alhamdulilah thanks to her cos kalau sorang2 sure tak larat nak buat hehehe.. the best part, lun te...

Malam 27: Allah kurniakan orang bertarawih pada malam ini ketangkasan melintas atas titian Sirotolmustaqim seperti kilat menyambar. Malam 28: Allah S.W.T. kurniakan kepadanya pahala 1000 darjat di akhirat. Malam 29: Allah S.W.T. kurniakan kepadanya pahala 1000 kali haji yang mabrur. Malam 30: Allah S.W.T. beri penghormatan kepada orang bertarawih pada malam terakhir ini yang teristimewa sekali, lalu berfirman: "Hai hambaKu:Makanlah segala jenis buah-buahan yang engkau ingini hendak makan di dalam syurga, dan mandilah engkau daripada air syurga yang bernama Salsabil, serta minumlah air daripada telaga yang dikurniakan kepada Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. yang bernama 'Al-Kauthar". sharing with u pics of my biskutz keju and my Asst *grrrhhhh* work in progress hot from oven my "darling" asst. play with flour and call it sand!! *geramm*

Malam 24: Allah buka peluang 24 doa yang mustajab bagi orang bertarawih malam ini, (elok sekali berdoa ketika dalam sujud). Malam 25: Allah S.W.T. angkatkan daripadanya siksa kubur. Malam 26: Allah kurniakan kepada orang bertarawih pahala pada malam ini seumpama 40 tahun ibadat. so i just came back from bugis.. lovey dinch beli anything new so i bought him a shirt and a green table cloth and for yours truly.. aku pusing2 teragak2 nak beli handbag ke tidak..look at the cheap2 handbag but ended up buying my first ever bonia bag. (i thot's the brand only suit my mom's age hehehe). Balik nih.. mungkin sajer saye ke barang-barang utk mencari green plate..bley gitu? tak cukup dgn pokok kat umah .. hmm maybe bley pinjam pinggan Adren yg hijau kat umah dier tuu hihihi... mau beli barang2 kuih dah... mahu tak mau, persiapan syawal tetap jalan terus. Mahu tak mau..ramadan akan pamit tak brapa hari lagik. Alhamdulilah kita ada Ramadan sebab terasa dlm jiwa perasaan riang hiba...

how to make Biskut Keju: 1 Bar Kraft Cheese (grate) 12oz butter/mentega 1 kilo tepung gandum (not necessary to use all) kuning telur to sapu atas biskut Mix the grated cheese with butter. Add tepung gandum sikit2 dan gaul sampai jadi satu dough. Remember don't press too hard nanti cheese melt biskut tak rangup. bila dah boleh jadi dough, take some portion and flaten the dough for you to terap. lepas tuu letak kat tempat pembakar and sapu kuning telur kat atas. p/s: kalau u rajin, tinggal kan sikit grated cheese utk di tabus kat atas biskut before u bakar... how, can faham tak? btw, i normally use star shape for this (my mom use crescent shape hehe) and dibdib loves to eat. He called it "winkle winkle litter tar.."

Malam 24: Allah buka peluang 24 doa yang mustajab bagi orang bertarawih malam ini, (elok sekali berdoa ketika dalam sujud). last year raya, i sprained my right angkle. this year blum pun sempat datang raya my left angkle dah sakit pulak. Its damn painful i tell you. Mungkin sebab banyak jalan mungkin jugak kerana angkat adib to long (maybe). Today im using the angkle gut to work, hopefully it helps.. i did my health screening recently and the test showed that i had protein in my urine. It was reported in the news paper that protein in urine can lead to kidney failure. Nauzubillah.. maybe after raya i go for futher check-up lah just to clarify this matter.. early prevention is better kan? but let me finish my puasa dulu lah ye.. * Just in case i lupa, u ols yg care for me remind me k for the check up* smlm i went shopping di Orchard. From John Little to Centerpoint, singgah sekejap di Al-Falah for zohr and Subhanallah... dah berapa lama tak jejak kaki kat sana?? i love the am...

Malam 23: Allah S.W.T. binakan kepadanya sebuah bandar di dalam Syurga daripada nur. last nite we went to joo chiat complex and bought two fake plant i think we bought it at the best price cos i keep on bargaining for a lower price tho i know other shops are selling it at even a higher price. I think lovey and me watch too much of DesignerGuys till kitaorang pun tersampuk to add greenery into the house... THINGS TO BUY General items: 1) mirror for the toilet and its accessories - where to get? sim siang choon dah move out from SingPost ar.. 2) 2 or 3 big nice air-tight jar to put all the kerepekss 3) nice tray/ plate (prefer with cover, cos i saw one already) for cakes 4) if we are not using carpet, we may need to buy tikar (so far tak jumpa lagik) for living room (baliness house mah..) 5) paint brush for lovey DIY projeks 6) tapentine for Dibdib: 1) blue and yellow shirt 2) one long pants 3) shoe for lun: 1) hand-bag (try lah carik yg sesuay selagi belum raya) 2) scarf..hehe ibuk: ...

Malam 22: Datang ia pada hari Qiamat aman daripada tiap-tiap dukacita dan kerisauan (tidaklah dalam keadaan huru-hara di Padang Mahsyar). "she secretly went out with her mom. she just felt like doing it. Its a yearly thing.. She bought carpet for her mom too bad her mom couldn't find any hari raya outfit". Its coming to an end very soon. The bazaar at geylang is going to end. I just had to buy those burger wrap wif egg and dendeng. Its like a combo meal easily available in ramadhan. dibdib loves dengdeng too.. am sleepy yet i can't put myself to sleep.. just watching Gilmore Girls again.. the show always leave me with some kindda stuff to ponder. It fills my brain and hinder me from falling asleep. i need to find fake tree/big plant. Those will sure to add flavour to our house. need to send my ring for wash..dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd - i just ...

Malam 21: Allah binakan sebuah istana dalam Syurga daripada nur. mlm nih dah masuk mlm ke 21. Selekoh pertama.. pulak tuh. lovey and lun pun sudah sibuk banget kat umah..mengemas yg tak abis abis hingga me mlm raya (mungkin). Lovey dah kata dia akan lap tingkap pd hari raya ke-2. Hmmm, biasalah tuu first time raya kat rumah sendiri lovey cat gate dari mlm raya ke pagi subuh..2nd time sambut raya lovey lap tingkap on 2nd day raya .. 3rd yr raya was abit better but ova slept hehehe and this will be our 4th year raya di rumah sendiri.. rumah yg ala ala tongkang pecah tapi tetap "cozy" utk kita bertiga hehehe.. i guess everywhere pun kurang lebih cerita sama jugak, kuih masih blum ada lagik, lovey kata biskut kacang Kong Guan sedap sekali... dia nak buat kuih raya (aduss!!). I think this year ramai yg tak buat kuih sendirik.. aiyok am still going to make lah maybe this weekend kot..hehehe. I think kalau skarang nih, dah tak leh nak pikir pasal $$ lagik cos its keep on coming o...

What is Your Fav HaRi RaYa SoNg?? Malam 17: Allah kurniakan orang yang bertarawih pahalanya pada malam ini sebanyak pahala Nabi-Nabi. Malam 18: Seru Malaikat: Hai hamba Allah sesungguhnya Allah telah redha kepada engkau dan ibubapa engkau (yang masih hidup atau mati). Malam 19: Allah S.W.T tinggikan darjatnya di dalam Syurga Firdaus. Malam 20: Allah kurniakan kepadanya pahala sekalian orang yang mati syahid dan orang-orang solihin.

I was tag my fidz to list down my 7 deadly secrets haha.. so here u go!! Se7en things that (will) scare me: 1) God 2) losing my love ones 3) Death 4) animals, insects.. 5) being alone 6) cerita hantu 7) hantu Se7en things I like the most: 1) sleep 2) reading novels 3) watching rain from a bus 4) the moon & cloud 5) being appreciated 6) watching ManU playing 7) chocolate cake Se7en most important things in my room (change to workstation lah): 1) desktop 2) phone 3) music 4) stationery 5) tidbits 6) toothbrush 7) mug Se7en random facts about me: 1) left-handed (tho i write wif my right hand) 2) need problems to fill my head 3) love to sing 4) get awkward in crowd 5) sceptical 6) smile a lot 7) i don't think im a nice person Se7en things I plan to do before I die: 1) see Kaabah 2) continue supporting my parents 3) be good 4) be rich 5) visit jun in melbourne 6) start a business 7) stay happy Se7en things I can do: 1) be a gd fren 2) tell lies 3) master in anyam ketupats 4) cook ...

right after aku post the earlier entry aku pun start kerja but ada jugaklah tergendala sebab few pple dtg chit chat kat my workstation. but lepas tuu aku pun con't with designing the e-forms again.. i was working very hard and i kept on moving closer and closer to my monitor.. (pelik kan?) nak kata rabun pun memanglah aku rabun tapi asal sampai cam gininyer dekat... suddenly something struck me.. what in the world am i doing??? guess what?? i was actually falling asleep and dreaming abt working!!! my face was only few inches away from the monitor!!! ahak ahak ahak.. am going bonkers beb!! - hv a nice day!!

Malam 16: Allah S.W.T. tuliskan baginya terlepas daripada neraka dan dimasukkan ke dalam Syurga. by right tahun ini aku dan shanti akan sambut perayaan almost the same time. Yelah deepavali dan raya kan hanya selang hari jer.. but kenapa aku dan dia tak share the same excitement. Aku nih betul lah spoilspot abis tahap maxima!! while shanti sibuk bercakap tentang tak sempat nak buat kuih raya, sibuk nak kemas rumah yang tak siap2 dan bermacam2 lagi aku masih jugak cool macam timun. Gabrah langsung takde.. baju raya dah siap. Macam family Enigma, aku pun nak gayakan sepasang kurung biru gak (btw, at this moment khiril Johari Johar tengah nyanyi the exact song kat radio huhu). Smlm bila tengok kuih2 raya kat blog cekya aduh! baru terperasan dah nak raya ke?? apsal aku tak seram sejuk pun?? aku nih conflick tak abis2 dlm diri.. giler ke aku nih?? ada aku khabak kat shanti yg aku nih rasa aku tak patut raya sangat sebab puasa aku tak banyak ibadah.. shanti cam tak caya gitu?? eh e...

Malam 13: Datang ia pada hari Qiamat di alam aman sentosa daripada tiap-tiap kejahatan dan keburukan. Malam 14: Datang Malaikat menyaksikan ia bersembahyang tarawih, serta Allah tiada menyesatkannya pada hari Qiamat. Malam 15: Semua Malaikat yang menanggung 'Arasy, Kursi, berselawat dan mendoakan supaya Allah mengampunkan. aku tersenyum lebar membaca entry Awan Putih. Entry yg doesn't sound like Awan at all mungkin kerana tulisannya yg kurang puitis tapi cukup untuk aku tak faham apa cerita sebenar yg berlaku. Aku cuma bley agak2 ajer. Apa pun, I love the brotherhood between Awan and frens (u guys always stick around with each other no matter what).. gosh i miss that so much. Where was the time when jun, lin, ani, kak jun, norjan, babang & me used to hang out every weekend?? where's norjan for godsake?? she's gone without trace tho SG ni tak lah besar mana .. aku harap dia masih "teguh" tak terpujuk kata cinta si budak kristian itu.. mana kau hilang? m...

it started last nite.. i took panadol b4 i went to bed but only to find out that by 4.45am the headache still on. I ate my sahur and took another 2 tablet of panadol (boy am gonna die out of it i think. It dinch stop and i had to carry it with all the way to office. Did few things in the office by 11.30 i went to the solat room aka store room and took a nap. 2 of my colleague tak masuk office today so tak besh lah tinggalkan boss sorang.. but i kept on sleeping till 2 and boss findout abt it and shoo me home. Obviously the pain was due to few things i suppose .. i cant tahan till i had to batalkan posa.. nangis tadi bila tak dapat teruskan posa.. entah lah, cobaan maybe. nantilah maybe esok i elaborate more.. sorry oso tak sempat nak update fadhilat terawih mlm nih.. too many things in my mind. Guilt, boredom and emptiness.. But at least i know Awan Putih is fine now. ..

apA YanG AKU raSA???

Malam 10: Allah S.W.T. mengurniakan kepadanya kebaikan di dunia dan akhirat.. Malam 11: Keluar ia daripada dunia (mati) bersih daripada dosa seperti ia baharu dilahirkan. Malam 12: Datang ia pada hari Qiamat dengan muka yang bercahaya (cahaya ibadatnya). wat an act! don't be alarmed this is just dibdib putting on an "expression of boredom" cos he knew the rest of us were watching him. That's my boy.. he loved playing facial expression hahaha got that from Me huhu. am back to my fasting mode again after 6 days. Hopefully.. am so crazy listening to few indonesia songs (found in one of the blog, lupa nak mintak ijin pun) .. am crazy as in i keep on listening to the song ova and ova full blast till i can hear it in my head. Its total crazy but it helped me to stay awake and work fast. Dono lah.. not the typical stuff that you would want to do in Ramadhan.. Astaghfirullah am so slack. Am so far to where am supposed to be.. to all frens out there; "how are u?...

Malam 9: Allah kurniakan pahala dan dinaikkan mutu ibadat hambanya seperti Nabi Muhamad S.A.W.. pening ayah dan ibuk kat umah.. sejak puasa nih, lampu kat dining hall pecah bila ayah merajinkan diri mengelap lampu. Baru smlm pasang lampu baru dah tv pulak terus mati .. ayah pening! ibuk pun pening sebab dibdib tak abis abis nak tengok tv. Kesian diorang kat umah. Dibdib can be quite annoying at times with all his requests. Let just hope the repairman can come asap to fix the tv or else lun jugak akan pening sebab kene beli tv baru untuk ayan dan ibu huhu. Did i tell u last month masa lun tengah Q to draw $$ kat ATM machine, infront of me ada this lady in her 40s. Lun tak pernah buat kerja intip lah but duno how i accidently saw her balance amount was $130,100. Mata dan otak lun berkelip2 memikirkan if there was a decimal error ke aper ke.. sebabnya lun tak de duit sebanyak itu. Masyallah .. bila agakny duit kat bank nak mencecah ke 6 digit pula ye?? maybe $$ is my greatest test of...

Malam 8: Allah mengurniakan pahala orang sembahyang tarawih sepertimana yang telah dikurniakan kepada Nabi Allah Ibrahim 'Alaihissalam. i sent him an email last week and till today still no answer.. was wondering why? my question was answered this morning when i go here. Awan , wish you speedy recovery brother. early morning yesterday jumpa tatot online. Chat with her for awhile just to catch up with her on her exciting moment right now. hehehe.. im sure you know what ur doing Dato' (juz love to call u that) i_mshe u pun sound like there's something wrong but i dono what. Am sure you find the solution to it, Insyallah. cekya , still sick? cian nyer.. avoid makan hot and hard stuff lah.. ur tummy need a rest tu. wtl , the one still struggling with her heart. i lost my words gurl. I know u come around very soon, you always do Insyallah. You must have love him so much. But love doesn't mean to be together kan? maybe just satu persinggahan utk dia merasakan dicintai ole...

Malam 6: Allah kurniakan pahala kepadanya pahala Malaikat-malaikat yang tawaf di Baitul Ma'mur (70 ribu malaikat sekali tawaf), serta setiap batu-batu dan tanah-tanah mendoakan supaya Allah mengampunkan dosa-dosa orang yang mengerjakan sembahyang tarawih pada malam ini. Malam 7: Seolah-olah ia dapat bertemu dengan Nabi Musa serta menolong Nabi 'Alaihissalam menentang musuh ketatnya Fi'raun dan Hamman. hope everybody's enjoying the ramadhan these far. i've have not been feeling well since last week i guess this morning was the worse. Couldn't wake up at all, doc gave me 2 days mc. Furthermore i came home late last nite.. slept almost at 2am. What to do, some family stuff need to be discussed .. not sure how the ending gonna be but i believe whatever that happend is a blessing in disguise. to WTL, hope u be strong .. don't cry to much dear. Sorry dear..can't help you much. Aren't u planning to see him? to the rest.. let us all be strong for each oth...

its friday, am still haunted by the sleeping syndrom. uhhh! eh, today is 3rd ramadhan..ayah's b'day rupanya. hope everyone doing fine and trying hard to get close to Him. Awan, how's Ad doing? i think once he gets his head again, he'll be ok. typical virgo are like that. suka sound ova but its not that bad (i wish). danny's been quiet too hehehe (why am i not surprise? was i like that once hmmm). kroll balik rumah mak ke ujung minggu nih? Reen, since the day u email me i dinch see u updating ur blog? watsup panda?? everything good?. Wtl oso dinch update her blog..but at least i see her name here and there.. but gurl, is everything ok right now? thank God the rest looks ok on the surface.. well guys, keep me posted k. I miss u guys... (kata2 orang yg tak cukup tidur kot..hehehe) Malam 4: Memperolehi pahala ia sebagaimana pahala orang-orang yang membaca kitab-kitab Taurat, Zabur, Injil dan Al-Quran. Malam 5: Allah kurniakan baginya pahala seumpama orang sembahyang d...

Malam 3: Berseru Malaikat di bawah 'Arasy' supaya kami meneruskan sembahyang tarawih terus-menerus semoga Allah mengampunkan dosanya. Korang, sape ada recipe cookies yg besh besh.. share ar.. lun dah ketandusan idea lah... tot nak prepare dulu dari skarang desperate nih! awan, smlm masak ye? Ad makan tak?

psssttt...ngantuk tak terhingga. Selamat BerPosa ye sMua!! Malam 2: Diampunkan dosa-dosa orang mukmin yang sembahyang tarawih serta kedua ibubapanya (sekiranya mereka orang beriman). its the first day of ramadhan wat the errrr... adek passed me 2 episode of The Gilmore Girls season 6 (jgn jelos hor!). I asked adek this morning how she finds the episode and she said SAD. Its the ramadhan .. ive been putting all this good stuff in my blog .. a reminder to all and to me (especially). But even the 1st terawih was a challenged. In the end, we did it at 4.30am. Imagine last nite dibdib behaving unacceptably (got such word?) and i had to sleep kindda late.. mind and body tired. Wake up early to gain what God has stored for us .. and sahur and by the time i drank the milk my stomach gimme me a funny feeling. God! i love milk... what do i do? must i stop drinking milk??? i drank my second glass.. and later u know what happen lah.. so i was still sleepy in the office. took a nap somewhere near ...

Esok 1 Ramadhan. Apa persiapan anda?? ingat nak "ghadak" sehendak hati pun tak jadi sebab lun bukan pun jenis cam tuh. ala ala teringin nak minum nescafe dlm can tuu ajer haha. Plan nak ke secret recipe pun tak jadi tho Oct nih they all ada promotion. Memandang kan 2-asset ku dah mengebu2 so redha jer lah. Did a list smlm on what to buy letak kat umah just in case nak buka kat umah tak lah ter"kosong" sangettt. But what to buy eh? cos i lost yesterday list itu pun tulis tak seberapa. U ols kalau ada idea share lah.. boley lun gie beli after work today. I need to buy corn beef, butter, mee hoon, tuna(?), susu carnation (in case nak buat air bandung), nescafe (for me alone), susu ... apa lagik eh?? side track skit.. am still thinking abt the bronze handbag huhu mlm nih, semoga kita dapat peluang dan berkelapangan utk berterawih. SELAMAT BERSAHUR adik2, abang & kakak2 ku... ingat lagik tak niat puasa??? to those yg tinggal seorang diri, buka & sahur seorang ...

why did i asked abt Izad (exist) in my earlier entry cos i saw him terbaring in his living room looked unconscious gitu but i missed the berita so i donch know what actually happend. Im still listening to his "julia" once a while.. i like him as a person on tv. Sempoi jer orangnyer... so sape yg tau tuu meh bilang kat chek eh.. i didn't go and beli my dream handbag.. malas ar. Nak tidur sajer but bila dah makan horfun noodle terasa full sangat sampai tak sempat nak tidur. I have not done any marketing at all for ramadhan. Need to make a list for survivor. Last week dah buat plan esok nak gie Secret Resipe for lunch but my fren on 2 days mc... hmmm tak pelah kita makan yg ala kadar & ala kadir jer lah ye...huhu. oh boi oh boi!! am sleeepiieee.. i hope everyone is feeling alright this monday...

last week lun singgah solat maghrib di Masjid Khalid (Onan Road), tenang dan senang bersolat di sana. Masjid satu tingkat tapi sungguh berakah (lovey pun kata gitu). Teringat pula waktu ikuti kelas tafsir Quran by Ustaz Abdillah , he was one of the ulama kat Sg yg dah pun pergi... (terlupa pulak nak ziarah kubur ustaz, cos it situated right on one corner senang nak carik..) waktu tu lun attended the class with lovey waktu tunang i think. Oh yeah, kerap jugak lun jumpa cikgu bad (short for badariah) cikgu pun dah pulang kerahmatullah. Teringat juga waktu berterawih dgn adek. Terngian2 suara "Mak Nanga" hehehe dats what we called her.. makcik nih vokal betul masa kat masjid dulu tapi sekarang dah tak lagi.. mungkin dimamah usia. few more days to ramadhan.. terasa keseronokkannya. Entah kenapa, mungkin sajer mengharapkan keindahannya. Lun pohon Allah berikan kemudahan, kesihatan , kerajinan serta kelapangan utk kita semua agar ramadhan tak pergi berlalu begitu sajer. Semalam ...

saturday, as plan earlier ayah, ibuk, adek, lovey, dibdib & me pergi ziarah kubur di pusara aman & pusara abadi. As usual our first destination would be to visit our very own, the only son for ayah & ibuk and the only bro that adek and me ever had. When i talked to "him" before i went off.. i realised that i still called him "boy" as what i used to.. sedih pulak rasanya, tapi aku tahan airmata. Jarang aku mengingati boy but bila aku melawat pusaranya rasa macam berbakul2 kesedihan di hati. Apatah lagik ibuk... kulihat matanya bergenang... dan ayah... sejak boy pergi he was never the same person... here's my bro I told dibdib that we were going to his "paman" house. He was excited but when i told him "this is paman" he was kidda confused. Cian dia.. he asked me paman sembunyi? cos he can't see his paman. Then i told him, "ur paman dah meniggal" with his big black eye he asked me "dah mati?" .. oh yes! abt a ...