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Adib had little accident last tuesday in school. Right after reciting doa, he ran instead of walk to his classroom and bumped on a teacher who was carrying a wooden tray full of class materials. The tray felt and hit on his feet. According to teacher he was ok for that 3 hrs in school but right after he saw Nyai waitng for him at the void deck, he started to complain that he can't move his feet, he can't walk and poor Nyai (who was a bit under the weather) had to carry him!! He called me and cried cried and cried. Poor adib .. he was playing tough in school yet all along his tiny feet hurt and by nite it started to swell. Teacher in school said he was ok all along and he was at fault too cause he should not run in the first place. hmmm .. Brought him to the doctor yesterday just to play safe cause little adib was limping. Alhamdulilah nothing broke or fractured but he would be out of PE for a week!! errmmm tonite silat how?? Out of the blue he managed to remember the steps of t...

pagi ni terkejut bila melihat gambar dibz kat sini . So aku curik gambar ini dan post di blog aku (tanpa izin!) hehehe. Tertawa aku melihat wajah dibz dgn "speckmata" nya. haha apa tu speckmata? aku kata 'specticle' dan 'cerminmata' ialah benda ya sama. so dibz came out with his own version 'speckmata' and it seems we need more time to convince him to call it correctly. hmm anak2 .. suka ikut reseh .. orang dewasa pun sama kan?? cute lah aku tengok gambar dibz ni .. oh well, he's my precious son!!

i ve been compalining abt my leg to almost everyone these days. i don't know why but my leg felt weak and tired easily. The pain was just unbearable. Last tuesday, i took panadol extend cos tak tahan sakit. yeah its my fault i guess .. never rest my precious legs. saturday: function @ woodlands and then proceed to jalan2 kat newly open T3. sunday: bz cleaning house, NTUC monday: IMM tuesday: Arab Street wed: Joo Chiat Complex thurs: Lun: how are u kak, heard u on mc yesterday? kak: alah running nose jer now ok Lun: my leg skarang ni sakit lah kak, cam very weak gitu .. agaknya pasal banyak jalan. kak: u gie T3 last saturday aper.. few days tak ok lagik ke? nauzubillah lah but careful eh, sakit kaki, sakit kaki tau tau tak leh jalan jer.. Lun: *gulp* (apa yang kau merepek labuuuu....) Note: not everyone would give the same reaction as what u hv in mind.

last tuesday a fren nephew was pronounced brain dead by the doc. it all started with continous headache that leads to vomitting. He's only 17, doing his 2nd year in pre-u. he was later admitted to hospital, doctor couldnt detect anything. on wednesday, the boy parents decided to pull out all the wired attached to him. let him go peacefully they said. yesterday abt 1 pm he finally rest in peace. there goes their beloved one and only child. condolence to mabel and family.

bila baca entry jimi tentang penyanyi Sinead O'Connors aku rasa macam aku pulang ke zaman sekolah menengah. Waktu aku emo cukup2. Masa tuu perkara kecik boleh menimbulkan kemarahan, perkataan 'rebel' macam sinonym dgn aku. Aku sentiasa merontak dalam diri. Rasanya beban aku pada masa itu tak boleh aku luahkan walau dgn sapa pun. Sebab tuu kengkadang otak macam 'sewel' sikit hehehe .. itu belum masuk isu cemburu lagi tuu. Rasa2nya lah.. dlm banyak2 lagu yang aku gemari ada 3 lagu yg dekat sangat dlm hati .. waktu aku sekolah dulu. Pertama ialah lagu Losing my religion by R.E.M oh yeah, i listened to the song religiously .. sampai aku semacam makin tewas dlm hidup .. bila keadaan merumitkan aku akan berfikir untuk lenyap aje dari dunia ini. Ikut rasa binase kan? Melow aku waktu itu tuhan aje yang tahu merokok never help but gudang garam manis hehehe *best*. Perasaan yg berat itu ditambah lagi dengan Sinead O'Connors. She was like my idol!! Aku dan Kak Sinead ....

this is lin, she's my goodfren apart from Jun.au. today is her birthday. she's pleasant at all time. beautiful people i might say. somehow i wonder if she's truely happy, why? cos deep down my heart i sense something for the longest time now. Happy Birthday Lin. kesabaranmu hanya Allah yang tahu ..

i hv sudden crave for dunkin donuts laaa, apa hal? last week lovey broke his spect and i made him choose a red and black frame this time. My lovey and sungguh low profile now nampak bergaya plak hehehe Dibz got astic so he too needs to put on glasses to refrain from having lazy eyes. Dibz choice of frame has to be purple! While Adek broke glasses last few weeks, she too gonna get a new piece soonest. Oh apek, looks like u gonna keep on seeing my face lah. So more discount ok uncle!! last week jln2 cari baju tunang tapi tak jumpa. Lunch hour tadi we managed to find one kat Arab Street. Ok, now proceed to Manja for tailoring!! phewwwww....

pic by american greetings its friday folks.. tomorrow is 10 muharam;hari asyrah. Be good pple, spread the love and be kind always. lunacy's looking forward for a great weekend with family .. Oh btw, be prepared to get cair wif Abg Nuar and the rest of the crew. Watch Sinaran Hati tonite @ suria errr dun forget to donate k! p.s: and a call from tatot who is in singapore .. finding her way to orchard!!

cam ne bley 2 hari berturut diorang kata "memandai jer (kak) lun ..." hehehe...

Alhamdulilah in that short conversation yesterday i manage to reason out things with him. Giving him space to think was the best way cos by night he was cool abt it. This morning on the way to work (sambil suap kan dia sandwiches) he asked few questions and i clarified. By the time i kissed him goodbye and left the car, no more doubt .. all air cleared. Alhamdulilah ... Normally i would fall asleep after putting the boys to sleep. But lately, im having trouble sleeping. So that will be the time for me to play game on my hp and reply to smses. Last nite, while all were sound asleep i 'ON' lovey notebook and replaced his desktop picture wif picture of sexy mystique (from the x-men) hehehe.. can't wait to see his reaction when he saw that hahahaha ... next, i squeezed myself beside him and fly to never land ... hopefully its not a sign of processing the third one. *whosh whosh*

Adek finally updated her advanture in HK and Shenzhen. I shld hv travel more when i was single. Jon.au would love me more if she could share her passion for travelling with me. But my parents were over protective of me .. and financially, i wasn't ready for that. Its something great that i had to let go... kengkadang aku ingatkan cuma orang yg blum kahwin jer selalu terperangkap dlm situasi serba salah. takut ter'offence' kekasih hati .. aiyooo u know those crappy sob sob situation. Guess what, i was caught in that situation a while ago. rasa cam satu beban besar bertenggek kat atas kepala. Fikiran jadi sempit, mood jadi lesu. Kalau nak lebih hindustan lagik .. aku rasa macam nak mati, nak terjun, nak nangis, tak mau makan dan nak sengaja carik helah utk jatuh sakit Hei! ni bukan aku laaa .. ni bukan utk aku yg dah beranak dua. Nih bukan situasi yg aku mahukan dgn lovey. Zaman 'gitu-gitu' dah lama ova .. errm tapi kenapa aku rasa cam gitu lagi. i need to think lah....

dua tiga hari ni aku rasa ceria bunga sangat .. mungkin kerana bila jon.au kembali bersuara rasa macam terungkap semua kenangan waktu aku kecik dulu. Kenangan lama dari sudut pandang jon.au sendiri. ni aku ambik dari email jon.au pada aku .. "before aku terlupa, thank you for including me in you blogy - Jun, jun, jun ... malu aku, especially tengok muka sendiri yang masih anak abu tu. Your last comment tu sungguh tak betul, tak sangka mata kau selama ini ceme ye, hehehe. To me you are the gorgeous and lucky one cause ibu really look after your well being since young. Tudung sekolah kau selalu licin and bersih tak macam aku punya berkerak selalu....maklumlah budak nakal." Ibuk mesti happy dengar comment sebegini indah dari anak angkatnya hehehe.. eh kau nakal ke jon.au?? Jika Jimi menulis tentang zaman dia menonton drama jepun: 101 proposal.. Well masa tu jugalah jon.au dan aku jatuh hati dgn hero2 jepun. Menyorot kembali kenangan lama ini membuat aku tersenyum lebar dan rasa ...

Hari ni 30 Zulhijjah 1428H. Jangan lupa baca Doa Akhir dan Awal tahun ye. Insyallah kita akan melangkah ke tahun baru dengan keimanan dan ketaqwaan dan sentiasa dirahmati Nya, Amin. Selamat Menyambut Maal Hijrah 1429.

lunch yesterday was great. Time was short but to be laughing our loud was spectacular. I was enjoying myself listening to stories after stories. As for me, there were nothing to tell, my pathetic ofice life was quite mundane without shanti and connie. I was without partners and bestfren. Thank God, i could still manage work and get help when i needed one but still my everyday life was half empty. There were less naughty and dirty jokes, less gossiping and stupid act. I even talked less these days and smile more. Well, im a smiley person. At times, i couldn't utter a word at all so i just smile and feel stupid. Hahaha i was never the greatest person on earth anyway.. Just a while ago, the rest of my colleague left for some briefing without telling me. Thank God i remembered it on time. So how would that make me feel?? My survivor instinct told me to pick up those spirit and just go ALONE!!. Yup, i saw a vacant seat beside a girl that i knew and sat beside her. In fact, i had a good ...

bila agaknya jon nak datang lagi baca blog aku .. terasa dekat di hati bila baca komen dari dia. dlm excitement ittew sampai spelling smua bertabur ancai! nervous kodok macam nak jumpa kekasih yang dikasihi tapi terhijab oleh lautan. Dah lama aku rasakan hidup aku tak seperti dulu. mungkin juga aku lebih banyak bertemu orang baru sebab tuu benda2 lama aku dah lupa. Tak ramai yg nak ingatkan aku kisah lama .. Tapi bila kawan lama kata "the saaame old wati" oiiii kau panggil aku wati kat sini?? ish ish ish.. there goes my secret identity hehehe.. ok back to the topic, "same old me eh?" .. macam nak ketawa besar pun ada. Agaknya dengan secara kebetulan Jon, u got me - time aku tengah naik angin. Teruk ke Jon, aku marah kau dulu?? we never really address this matter pun kan? anyway, touching ke lagu ni?? bila dengar lagu2 lama gini aku teringat zaman ibuk cuci baju dlm toilet dan aku akan duduk kat dapur depan toilet, temankan ibu sambil baca buku dan dengar radio. Mun...

cuba bayangkan ur favourite show was on tv and sekali tuu ur partner suruh u buat kerja lain, how wud u feel? aku cukup menyirap rasa macam nak bantai orang bila lovey suruh aku ajar dibdib walaupun dia tahu aku tengah nonton Gilmore Girls . Aku terus capai remote and off tv lepas tu mandikan anak2 one by one to get them ready for a visit to MIL's house. Marah ketahap nak nagis ar.. bukan ape rasanya dia failed to remember i was watching my fav. girls. Aku tak pernah pun complain yang timing kita gi rumah MIL and Gilmore Girls clashed. The least e can do was to REMEMBER some facts that i was a fan of the GIRLS!! He got the message only when i started to reply him in mono syllibus. Baru dia apologized. Aku pujuk hati lah yg entertainment bukan benda "hidup dan mati"... Pagi tadi on the way to office, he asked me "Luke and Lorelai dah off the engagement?" I couldn't believe my ears.. dare he mention yesterday anger?? i asked him to repeat what he just said and...

Hola 2008!! been trying to write but nothing seems right. thanks to all for the anniversary wishes.. lovey aku hensom kan?? itulah antara kenangan terindah, semoga yg lain pun dapat nikmati saat-saat indah diijabkabul Insyallah. 2008 nih .. otak jam ar.