Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Harith 6B -2015

As per the title, this entry is abt that thin, small little moody boy, timid and shy. I first noticed him when he told me he didnt know what to eat during school recess. I was like "wot?" A P6 boy dont know what to eat??? Duhhh... than as weeks goes by, i started to notice Harith and his patern in life. One day, i told him that "life is not a pattern. Sometimes it works and sometimes i doesn't". So everytime i volunteer at the canteen, im sure Harith knows that his life will be awkward and distorted. But he didnt get mad at me. That's the thing! I feel like he allows me to talk n nag and pretty much get involve with his life.

Today, i spotted Harith queing to buy his 2piece chicken without me asking him too. When he turned and saw me, i showed him a thumb up!. He sat on different bench with different group that is totally not his style. When i spotted him, he smile at me. Subhanallah!! Ya Allah, may this be a good journey to success for a boy named Harith. Ameen.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

This is US

On Thea's 3rd birthday.
May happiness be with us..

Bertaqwalah &Sabr

Itu yg bermain dlm fikiran, yg aku ingat daripada banyak hadith2 yg kami pelajari.
Bila kita takut pada Allah, Insyallah kita akan bersabar.
Syukur Alhamdulilah ya Rabb atas kasih sayang Mu utk kami. Kebahagian bersama melalui ayat Al-Quran Mu, semoga sifat kesederhanaan ini menjauhkan kami dari riak dan takabbur ya Rab. Lindunggilah kami, sesungguhnya Engkaulah sebaik2 pelindung buat kami. Ameen.

Sunday, January 4, 2015

Tuhan ku dan kemanisan bersabar

"Subhanallah, mulanya Kau duga kami dgn sesuatu yg sulit utk kami telan. Selepas itu Kau berikan kemanisan kehidupan. Sesungguhnya Engkaulah Tuhan yang maha Agung dgn segala sifat kebesaran"

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

And i thot...

And i thot we were sisters but i guess not. Its hurtful when u come to me with those words. When we dont even spoke in the first place.
And to the other sister, i would love to keep u as anonymous but why did you come forward and tell the pple that it was u?
Seriously, your way was so mean. It hurtful and disgaracing us. Even after a week, there is no apologize or whatsoever. At least Cik Hawa meant something to them. Unlike me!!. Ya Allah  grant me Your sabran jamilan Ya Allah. Less than a month ayah left us and people already started to say bad things about me. That shows how much i meant to them. My husband is so angry till it affecting his health. Bless him Ya Allah with sabr & health.

Thursday, November 27, 2014

Yatim piatu, 23 Nov 11

Macam mimpi. Sekejap aku terlari2 ke sana dan ke sini. Masak. Obat. Urut. Hospital. Tetiba dalam masa yang aku sudah jangkakan, nafas ayah semakin berat. Pandangan ayah tertumpu pada yang satu. Aku dan Lovey bergilir menyebut nama Allah, kalimah tauhid, ayat-ayat Allah di cuping telinga ayah. Tangan kanan, ku usap wajahnya. Tangan kiri memegang tangan ayah. Mati itu sakit. Mati itu pedih. Mati itu sedih. Akhirnya ahad, 5.52 ptg, tetiba nafas ayah terhenti. Aku lihat wajah ayah. Dada ayah. Rasa nadi ayah. Innalilahiwainnailaihi rajiun.
Wajah ayah sejuk. Hanya dahi masih panas. Malam itu, di rumah, aku tatap wajah ayah. Ayah senyum. Ayah garang orangnya. Tapi saat itu, ayah senyum. Senyum seakan gembira dapat pulang bertemu Yang Esa. Senyum seakan dapat bersatu dengan Ibuk dan Anjarulan Putra Jasman. Aku ucapkan selamat tinggal pada ayah sewaktu aku tabur pacai ke atasnya. Aku peluk ayah buat ke-3 kali dalam hidup ini.