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listening to Kota Mati penat gila siot !! hahaha macam bley terbayang kak emmy cakap gitu .. cam gitu jugak lah yg aku rasa. aku masih di bulan march jadi penat aku masih tak hilang lagik dah ditambah dgn penat dari majlis smlm. aku rasa perkataan 'penat' ittew terlalu pendek utk men 'describe' apa yg aku rasa. Di tambah pulak dengan komen manusia2 yg kata 'dia tu penat sebab tak pernah kemas rumah, bila ada majlis gini cam nak rak lah berkemas' ataupun 'asal buat kerja last minute ..' so far itu dua lah yg singgah kat hati buat aku meluap2 macam volcano yg nak erupt. Aku cuma sekadar mampu berjampi serapa dengan 'Astaghfirullah' supaya dgn miracle dari Allah gunung kembali dormant. Senyap dan sunyi hanya memerhati gerak tari manusia. tetiba dtg mood nak dengar peterpan kembali. Petanda emo nak ke kemuncak. Aku masih belum selera nak makan. the last time i ate a lot was last friday kat Pagi Sore for lunch, lepas tu aku skip dinner. And breakf

07/3 - visitted Rin, who gave birth to baby Muhammad Muaz @ KKH 08/3 - visitted Rin again this time wif the whole family 10/3 - kimi and me both having fever, flu and cough 11/3 - visitted lin's son; faqih who was admitted to KKH 13/3 - met ayah on my way to work, he was getting ready to go polyclinic. he looked weak.. i decided to accompany ayah instead. The doc was practically 'mengeletar' wif ayah's condition. He wanted the ambulance to send ayah to TTSH but i said i preferred SGH instead. We took cab to SGH A&E. Ayah was wheel inside for various checks. I stood outside; waiting and lovey joined me soon after. A dead body was wheeled infront of us .. a white and cold body. Thank God that was not my Ayah. Doc said ayah had a heart attacked and had to be examined further. 14/3 - ayah was warded, the kids looked ok, i was coughing. We found out he got 3 major atteries blokage. Ayah, was a smoker since he was 12 need to go for a bypass. 15/3 - by the time we reached

Selawat & Salam utk Nabi Muhammad s.a.w Thanks for the encouragement pple, am touch and thankful for your understanding and kind words. Am still not fully recovered but will not give up hope, Insyallah. Life goes on kan? love u all, ~lun~

what's happening to my life? my bodyache.. mintak tolong untuk berehat. Otak aku dah tak kuasa nak beremosi lagik. Perasaan aku lebih baik mati dari terus merasa. Thanks all for ur words of encouragement and doas kimi and me were sick again : (

think the world freeze when the endiogram results showed that 3 of ayah arteries were blocked. He needed a bypass, medicine couldnt help him much. I had problem digesting this. Lovey asked me what was my opinion? he couldt digest it when i said 'i dont know'. emotional flooding me. cried and cried last nite while showering. hopefully, ive let out the emotional that had been blocking my thingking. pray of us frens .. pls

my shopping spree agenda wif adek had to be cancelled. I accompanied ayah to polyclinic in the morning, his diabetic was getting bad and everytime he took the diabetic medicine his got headache and these days he had been complaining of chest pain. The doctor in poly got so 'kancheong' looking at ayah's medical condition. he kept on saying if ayah stop his medicine it could be fatal. I had to raise my voice to tell him that the medicine gave him so much pain that he even took hammer to hit his head!! Damn these doctor! so theory base that he refused to hear our side of stories. He said he would get ambulance to transport ayah to TTSH. But I told him I would prefer SGH instead. So the two of us took cab to A&E in SGH. It felt like forever.. waiting and waiting to hear results of ayah's condition. But first, ayah was given insulin for his diabetic. Then, they checked his heart. It seems that ayah had had a small heart attack. So doctors would like to examine

Family day @ pasir ris wif Hanis Monty my heart goes to my good ol'fren Lin Last nite while i was having my dinner, Ani called to informed that little Faqih had been hospitalized. Shocked as it is .. we hope he gonna be ok. Little Faqih turned 4 last friday (7th Mar). He was having a rare disease whereby his antibody was too active that it cause all sort of sickness in his body. Last monday, his heart was swollen Alhamdulilah doc was there to treat it. His skin started peeling and there was some kind of mump below his ear. I hope lin would stay strong. She had been living in the hospital since monday. Could you imagine how tired that was?? I hope doc would fine cure for Faqih real soon. I just came back from visiting him ... i could still see those manja eyes smilling .. lets pray for faqih health ya. let me know if any of u want to visit. Faqih is now in KKH.

Just received news that Cek Rin has safely given birth this morning. Alhamdulilah, the family will be more kecoh dgn riak tawa tangis budak2 nampaknya. Babies are the fruit of love .. love unconditionally .. welcome dearie Nephew!! Shall visit you pretty soon. Received news that Cekmi and Cekmi's sister involved in an accident. Both are fine now .. the bus that they took was badly hit. Rest well Cekmi, we are thankful that u escape wif no scratch ... take care : ) i got this picture fresh fresh from oven hehehe both Rin and baby well, i was their 1st visitor.. but the pic a bit blur lah since the baby too fragile i scared the flash might harm him .. so make do wif the blur one k.

friday late nite, the kids and me surprised Lovey wif Browny Birthday!! Lovey felt asleep right after Survivor .. so i got plenty of time to get the surprises ready and i got time to change too hahaha... main highlight of the nite!! I got two more muffins kept in the fridge for a mini celebration the next day ... Happy Birthday, Semoga kau dikurniakan keimanan, kesabaran, kejayaan, kesihatan dan kasih sayang selalu.. a great day spent as family .. Alhamdulilah.