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A star utk bahasa Melayu dan mendapat tempat pertama di dlm kelas.. I'm proud of u, Abang. Semoga menjadi insan cemerlang yang kamil dan penuh ikhsan ya sayang. Ayah dan ibu sayang Abang!! dan adik juga..

Mcm mana tiba-tiba aku lebih selesa bertudung labuh? Pelik juga kan? Aku tahu lovey suka memang dari dulu pun dia suka dan perubahan yang aku alami sekarang dia tak kata apa, tapi aku tahu dia suka. Mungkin inilah kelebihan bila berada di persekitaran madrasah dan masjid, Alhamdulilah.

I'm exhausted. How I wish I could go and meet lil Jimmy in Banting. A change of weather would be good but here i am stuck at home doing things day after day.. What I need by end of the day is a good hug from you.

For the first time of my life, i feel like i need to getaway, went for a holiday or something cos i was really really really tired. A week of school holiday went by just like that.. We didn't have time to bring the kids out as I had to take care of ayah. He was hospitalised for 5 days and came home last Tuesday. His legs and arms became weak.. It's hard for him to move around the house. I hope he can take care of himself when no one was home. Since ayah refused to go for heart bypass, his kidney and other internal organs seems to deteriorate. I could not just sit and watch ayah like that. Ya Allah, berkatilah usaha kami utk menyembuhkan ayah. Kami mohon keizinanMu ya Allah semoga Ayah sihat. Lindungilah dan rahmatilah ayah. Ameen. Buat anak2 The Croads smlm was fun kan?? I laugh a lot last night.. You guys too..

What's look like something harmless like cataract opt now turned out to something serious cardiac and kidney. Poor ayah cooped up in hospital now he developed fever, body aching, shivering and point pain. In 2008, ayah refused to do bypass tho 3 of his main artery blockage and his heart function was only 32%. Now, 5 years gone by and Ayah's heart is functioning is with only 25%!!!. I wonder if I'm gonna lose my ayah soon too.

Ya Allah apa yang sedang berlaku ini sesungguhnya dgn keizina Mu dan aku sebagai hamba Mu memohon perlindungan dan jauhkanlah kami dari ganguan jin dan iblis. Aku mesti berani melawan perasaan ini demi lovey. Tapi hari demi hari aku jadi lemah Ya Allah. Astaghfirullah halazim3x la hau lawala kuata Illabillah.. Subhanallah apa benarkah ada yang menyimpan perasaan dengki atas kami, semoga Kau merahmati orang itu dan lindungi kami. Sesungguhnya tiada days dan upaya kecuali dgn izin Mu. Mataku mengantuk yang amat sangat tapi aku tak boleh lenakan mata ini Ya Allah. Perasaan seram dan takut bermain di hati.

Alhamdulilah, atas rezeki umur yang Allah berikan padamu. Terima kasih ya Allah atas segalanya. Dear, terima kasih atas kasih sayang, masa dan setiap pengorbanan yang u berikan pd kita semua. Kehidupan yang sederhana cukup membahagiakan. Semoga jodoh kita kekal hingga ke syurga. Insyallah. Lets go thru this difficult time together. Dgn lindungan Allah SWT. ,