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Tadi kat kelas .. Kak Jun mintak ustaz bacakan doa utk aku dan Dewi. Panjang doa ustaz buat kami. Amiin amiin amiin .. semoga dimakbulkan oleh Allah. Rindu hati dgn adik dan anak2 sedara .. rasa mcm lama tak jumpa memandangkan exam anak2. Now exam dah over .. Ya Allah, kumpulkan kami semula dlm rahmat Mu, Ya Allah.

Not that im still whining but these boys just dont understand how i love to hv cake on my bday. Probably, this was my first time not having a bday cake and it felt like... as if my bday still hanging😣

Eversince ... eversince life reach its abnormality form .. i kind of lost some details that has been going on in my life. I cant even remember how was it felt to be forty and now im forty three! I miss having bday cake but if that is what its all about then, i would hv to forgo a bday in exchange to "peace". Ya Allah, only you know and i leave my life to you .. rough start of the year but the rainbow in the sky was kind of a hint from You can You are with me and everything will be alright. ان الله معنا😗😗😗

Ya Allah .. aku lemas dalam hidup. Aku tak bisa bersuara kecuali pada Mu. Kemanisan senyuman yang menjadi tembok luaran disebalik sejuta kerisauan dan kegusaran. Ya Allah, ingin aku bersuara tapi lidah ku tak bersuara. Hanya pada Mu jua aku bersujud dan mengadu. mungkin ini yg dirasakan ibu. mungkin ini yg menjadi cancer dalam tubuh ibu. Jika aku pergi, aku pergi dgn gembira, Insyallah. Kerana kesusahan ini menjadikan aku insan yg merindui jannah Mu, Kasih Sayang Mu dan Rahmah Mu. Doakan aku. Few days to bday ..