lunacy - di sini taman langitku

Siang tadi waktu aku duduk mengaji di masjid sambil menunggu solat jumaat, terdengar isakkan tangisan seorang teman. Subhanallah, air matanya mencurah2. Dlm hatiku berbisik "ya Allah Sesung guhnya ada jua org lain yg sedang diuji.. bukan sekadar aku sekeluarga saja."   Beberapa kali aku pusing melihat dia yg masih tersedu sedan. Selepas mengaji, aku bertanya2 patut ke aku ' menyoponya '? Maklumlah, takut org tak suka. Aku bulatkan semangat dan terus menghampiri dia. Dia terus peluk dan nangis dlm pelukan. Subhanallah, dlm hati ku berdoa semoga Allah permudahkan dia menghadapi apa jua yg dia hadapi. Masih lagi teringatkan dia.. suriani teman belajarku, semoga kamu tabah, insyallah. Ya Allah, kelihatannya seperti suamiku semakin kurang sakitnya, semoga segala usaha kami menyihatkan suami dia , Ameen.

Tadi lepas solat, aku cium tangan lovey mcm biasa yg aku selalu buat. Dia tengok aku, sambil pegang kedua pipi sambil berkata: " berseri muka u mlm ni". Aku tengok muka lovey.. muka dia yg lagi nampak seri.. dgn rambut pendek yg baru digunting smlm. Pandangan mengalahkan pengantin baru. Mungkin bila kita terasa yg bila2 kita boleh terpisah menjadikan kita lebih menghargai setiap detik bersama. Dlm hati aku berdoa: "Ya Allah, kau panjangkanlah usia kami dlm keadaan sihat, berim an  dan kau permudahkan la kehidupan kami. Semoga satu hari nanti, dapat lah kami melihat kaabah bersama Ya Allah."

Ya Rabba kau kuatkanlah iman kami dan anugerahkanlah kami sobran jamilan Mu. Looking at each other with tears in our eyes. I feel you dear ..

ikhtiar.. Yup,  insyallah selagi mampu. Walau ada yg skeptic dgn apa yg kami lalui tapi Kau maha mendengar ya Allah. Rayuan dan tangisan kami. Sakit yg lovey lalui Masyallah, semoga kau berikan lah kami manfaat dari ujian ini. Kau murahkanlah rezeki kami ya Allah. Terasa sangat kekurangan sekarang ini. Mana aku nak cari duit ya Allah..

He's asleep, here beside me. We did all that we could today, ikhtiar and doa. Ya Allah Ya Rabbal alamin.. please cure him. Make him well again... ameen.

For the past days, ive been living and breathing in sadness. I cried when i was cooking. Cried to Allah in my prayers. Cried as I tried to lessen his pain. Even when I smiled, my heart was crying. Ya Allah, please take away all the sihr from his body. Please ya Allah.. make him well again Ya Allah. He's a kind man and a loving husband. He dedicated his life for his family. Ya Khaliqul Rahman,  please cure him. Have mercy on him and us. Forgive us for we have sinned. La hawlawala quwata illabilla...

The family gathering on sunday became awkward these days all because of the "situation" we are in. Looking at how lovey deal with his pain they probably assume the worst. Subhanallah, may Allah help us dealing with this difficulty, ameen. They been quiet, concerned yet could not talk abt it. Probably, conversation only started as we left the house. The questions like did we do our solat hajat, how are we feeling came later thru sms. Masyallah, may Allah grand them faith that nothing is more powerful than Allah swt, ameen. Sad tho while frens n strangers are helping us openly, our very own choose to be so discreet.  Wallahu a'lam

The story is im having a bad headache!!! Not finding all my faults and make a summary out of it. Ouch....