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at last im bz till i got no time to blog. even this morning, i hv few things in my mind that needed my attention yet i kindda pause for a moment when i heard the news that Chrisye past on just this morning. Al-Fatihah. Just two days ago i heard a duet by Chrisye & Ungun ova the radio. Thot he's recuperating well after his battle with cancer. Well, take a listen to Munuggumu, a fav song of mine by the Master Chrisye and Peterpan. My dad (thanks for the doa pple) was not having a cataract opt!!! Thank God i took leave yesterday and found out that he's having a eye laser due to Diabetic Retinopathy . It seems the diabetic is attacking the small vains in his eyes that cause the vains to rapture. The Laser thinggy will not help him to improve his eyes sight but at least it will stop from worsening his eyes. Last nite he told me one of his eyes feels better but he can't see ...his left eye laser treatment will be on the 12th Apr. last wednesday i was saved by ligo. She as

Last nite it was all sticky for us, i woke up at 5 plus .. looking out, weather still normal. lovey continue with his work and me getting ready for another working week! Check on kimi he was happy after being fed with one bottle of milk. Dibdib on the other hand had developed fever, he was coughing yesterday. Took the kodomo patch and stick it to his forehead. Feed him paracatemol and cough mixture and told him to go back to sleep. By seven i was all ready, told lovey to move his butt or i took train instead *hahaha even lovey dun buy my warning* by the time we went out it was raining heavily with thunder and lightning. oh well i was late to work : ) my dad is having his cataracts remove this thursday morning. So i just found out only one eye at a time *doink* and the next day will hv to bring him again for check-up. I only have half day leave till the new financial year this coming apr. SO how? :( (For the first time in my working days i dun hv leave to bring forward hahaha time has

d ari tadi aku asik tengok foto2 orang hehehe kepo no.1 gitu and then pergi from one link to another. All the people that i dun know abt. checking out the youth these days cuti2 ke bali dan thai berbikini dan minum2 lagik. Haaizzz.. daring betul budak2 ni buat kerja kengkadang tu sampai aku terlupa yg diorang tu melayu. Tak pe lah semoga Allah beri hidayah pada mereka dan kita juge.. yang ada tuu bila dah berumah tangga terus berubah walaupun tak lah sampai tahap tudung lingkup tapi tiang agama dah mula didirikan... itu satu permulaankan? aku terjumpa plak blog tentang sahabat baik idola SG 2. hahaha ada gambar hadi jadi pengapit lagi. Ketawa aku sendiri bila membaca blog itu lucu sangat - sangat. serve punya serve aku terus tertidur, bila sedar aiyoo kesejukkan aku kat opis. Aku capai jaket dan teruskan melungsuri web lagik hahaha. Tengah lunch hour dan aku tak kemana pun, apa lagik nak buat. Semalam dah kene tegur yg aku ni gemuk hehehe.. aksyen happy dan tak kisah dgn komen orang

funny, i think its all coming back to me now. Like how it was when Jun left me. Probably i got the right song not for her but for me. As if Axl Rose was telling me to be strong; and errr .dont cry arrrgggghhh. For someone who was once called "neng yatimah" in class, can i shed no tears? Its gonna be a hard ONE month. That's how i foresee it. After that when she's gone aku melalak sorang2 macam steal heart uwaaak.. no more indian vegetarian on friday.. "Give me a whisper And give me a sigh Give me a kiss before you tell me goodbye Don't you take it so hard now And please don't take it so bad I'll still be thinkin' of you And the times we had...baby" "And please remember that I never lied And please remember how I felt inside now honey You gotta make it your own way But you'll be alright now sugar You'll feel better tomorrow Come the morning light now baby" jie , ive bn wondering abt ur greatest love story..share wif us laa.

morning conversation: shan: gud morning, got any sample on resignation ltr or not...hehehe...looks like I will give by end of today ;-) lunacy: morning. where got, so far nvr resign hehehe... still virgin on this matter nvr try before lah (a while later, i found lovey's old resignation letter in my c:/and a format from ligo) 19 Mar 07 * w eather kept on changing from sticky nite to heavy rain early in the morning followed by hot day ahead * h e got his temper again, was ready to pick a fight with him.. maybe because of his illness. gud i just wish he will end .. * t iring monday, didn't do much ova the weekend. With two am totally occupied. my house is going upside down aka shipwreck. * y esterday, i looked at him.. i heard voices in my heart " how do i ended with him and the two kids?" seeing is believing. yeah am not dreaming at all, am just blessed * s he's tendering very soon .. goodbye to the sweatest friendship. No matter how hard to see her go, i just hv

gimme few days to be in lunacy and im back to OK again. what hv i been up to? basically nothing, none of my plan work!! my shopping expedition to splur on myself was put on hold instead i went to MPH bought 2 books for dibdib. Dibdib love dinosours these days and the only Dinosour i knoe is T Rex, so a book to educate the whole family would be good. The other one is a book abt Time. How to read the clock!! What is Qtr/half and how to see the analog and digital watch. Cool eh? i hope i can find time to teach dibdib .. the coolest part abt these books - u can write/draw and wipe it back. Dibdib was so excited when i gave him the Dinasours book yesterday as a reward for being good. The kids are having their one week break .. im sure the Nyai and Yayi fening kepala melayan dibdib so i need to keep him bz!! i've been searching for Jurassic park vcd but couldn't find lah.. old movie for us but never too old for the children kan? Last nite after work we all had fish and chips for dinn

yesterday moody most of the time tho cekmi and his little magic made me laugh but it worked for a while jer. The black cloud stayed on for the whole day. Most pple in the office were either on leave or mc so i kindda left alone with my mood. Suddenly i feel "outcasted". U know bila dah salah everything also salah .. so the best thing was to listen to Metallica "The Unforgiven". Goodness it was so lemak manis to my ears. The song that really understand how i feel, the anger and justification. It felt so good that i fell asleep by lunch hour. Another thing, i hv to avoid frm meeting pple cos i wasn't ready to listen to pple story, i had my own lingering in my head. Today, i feel like doing some shopping. Funny thing, i hate to shop when im upset. Now that everything turn out goood i just feel like shopping. Yeah, a perfume, blue bag and maybe Laksa from Qiji would be good for me too : )

it hasn't been that great so far and it may get worse - probably. A simple sorry wont do it cos the mind & heart hv given a mixed signalled that the words said simply provoked the whole matter. Blame it on PMS.

A m bored!! bored to the extent of falling asleep in the office. so got this idea of getting away from everything and hurray-hurray like ol times. it shall be out little secret ok pple ; ) my hp is dead to the world and now im waiting for tralala to confirm that we gonna cabut together .. kental- dol mat- lagi dodol. kalau tidak .. i shall gie bawah and beli lunch and wait till 5 to ciou!! hp flat mood hilang sey.. tertutup smua ruang komunikasi. Happy Friday u ols!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ plan nak cabut tak jadi . duduk lah aku di depan pc ni lagi sambil mengunyah mushroom swiss single meal. One new director said he found two stall in Amoy St that he likes so he alternate. Bley gitu? u alternate out of the 2 stall .. maybe only actuary and engineer can lah. i figure bila2 kalau i tak de kawan nak gie lunch maybe i ikut dia jer.. chinese men from m'sia suka makan nasi melayu. he insisted to cakap melayu with me .. even when i converse in english with him. Cool

S ejak kejadian gempa di Sumatra selasa lalu aku jadi lebih takut dgn segala bencana yang berlaku. Sumatra terlalu dekat dgn Singapura, walaupun kedudukat singapura di kepung oleh Johor dan juga kepulauan indonesia, segalanya berkemungkinan. Gegaran yang aku rasakan mungkin tak seberapa tapi takut ku.. kalau tidak masakan aku tinggalkan salam ampun dan maaf kepada smua - kan? Temanku baru 3 bulan lepas pergi ke Padang. Dia ada teman di bukit tinggi. Setelah beberapa kali dia cuba sms temannya di sana baru dapat jawaban. Katanya dia selamat, rumah abis roboh. Dia ada 4 orang anak, yang kecil seumur kimi. Ya ampuunnn bayangkan anak sekecil itu tanpa keperluan secukupnya ... mereka bermalam di dalam kereta katanya lagik. Entah lah aku jadi emosi. Kita di sini tak mendengar rintihan mereka. Kita di sini asyik mahu di dengar saje. huuuummmp!! aku hela nafas panjang. apakah bencana yg berlaku akibat sientific atau bala dari Allah semata-mata? Lama aku tak doa pada Allah "semoga di jauh

interesting issue i had early this morning. Its all started with ligo tak dapat buat her morning exercise cos her other half can't handle the kids esp in the morning. I respect him for telling the truth at least its good to know and he acknowledge his limitation. Men needs more time to get adjustable and they are not so multi-task .. even Sujimy acknowledged it in last sunday programme - Santai. No its not abt being selfish at all. But its about Time. * sing: time after time* so this morning when i received an email full of "angst" from ligo .. i divert her thot.. let's not spoil your morning, dear. As i know she will try to make her plan works tomorrow, hahaha cos i know her style. Good luck gurl *sing: run run as fast as u can ..* so, the matter boggle in my head, i did a mini survey. i asked two ladies in the office "Can your husband take care of ur kids": anna said: It shld be ok i guess but infant maybe not. Its not that he cant take care but I dun hv e

smlm Ligo said she wanted to start becoming "tv addicts" again. Hmm interesting, plan dia kan? Maybe the time is right jugak. Bukan apa, after a while tv programme jadi mendak dan melayan anak2 dah cukup mengambil masa hingga ke 12 mlm hehe itu kes aku lah. Last sunday ch. 5 started showing Ugly Betty . I wouldn't say its very good but ok lah since it won some award recently. They say: Ugly is the new Beauty , yeah right why do pple still bias?? one interesting encounter smlm waktu dlm bus a lady board the bus looked exactly like Betty but without braces. Entah melayu ke, china ke, apa ke i duno. Carrying laptop and handbag she wanted to sit beside me .. well guess what happened? she lost balanced!!! eh eh sama kan? i got up from my sit and let her to her sit instead. Yesterday nite plak ada Amazing Race followed by 1st episode of Desperate Housewives . Its been 3 weeks Rob&Amber still in the lead hmmm lovey puzzled dan tak puas hati tak kan lady luck sentiasa on th

1st mar, lovey turned 33. I lost count of the the dates. Bn too bz @ home, trying to bring down the fever of my two boys. Lack of sleep. Oh dear, thanks to coffee! I can't take those medicines and knock off to dream land, whose gonna take care of my babies? Alhamdulilah, to Him we pray and seek progress. Bought the cake offshelves .. not bad it taste good indeed!! with a packet of mee rebus and nasi bungkus + root bear we celebrated lovey's birthday as a family. . pics from the lense of dibdib

hopefully by tomorrow no more fever. Kimi looked sick these 2 days.. ayah, bubu and abg love u sayang .. get well soon ya manja.