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i can't believe my ears when lovey told me he found red watery spots on kimi's body. so what now?? i had everything plan out for today, buy lunch early to escape long queue and continue with my work. But right before i left my workstation, phone rang and lovey told me about kimi's condition. there you go. i lost all my appetite .. how am i suppose to finish my work if tomorrow i had to take care of kimi at home? No, im not complaining, im just trying to find strenght. Dearest "el" had been my source of strenght indirectly. i admired "el" a lot, the attitude and strength amazed me. But dear "el" suddenly decided to lie low. So at this moment, i was left with "me" crying alone while typing this entry.

i cudn't find you, i wonder what when wrong? ive no answer to my own question only you know it.

beberapa tahun dulu waktu aku berborak dengan Awan di dunia cyber, dia ada beritahu aku yang bersahabatan tu perlu dibaja selalu. Entah kenapa sejak hari tu kata-kata itu seakan melekat dlm otak aku. Dan setiap kali bila sesuatu persahabatan yg terjalin menunjukkan tanda-tanda kelayuan kata-kata itu berligar lagi di dalam minda aku. Semacam lonceng 'red alert' keudara tak mahu berhenti. Aku cuba juga tekan butang 'snooze' tapi cuma buat beberapa ketika saje sebelum amaran merah bersuara lagi. *pelik kan?*

im in no position to understand everyone so as for now, i shall let it be. i was complaining to lovey about not having a watch sampai i sibuk shopping, lambat balik ofis. so i got a new one from him, Alhamdulilah. Bless him for the quick 'pick-up' to my hint. We passed by a watch shop and he told me to choose one, intead I told him to choose one for me .. i feel proud wearing something to his liking. Funny, i never feel like this before ..