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bizi tired bizi tired bz tiyed why must all come at once? blame it on poor time mgmt hahaha.. keep on blaming on other factor so i can feel gud lah tu. am going crazy already.. i think a ship wrack look more calssy than my house hui hui hui.. thanks to errm eh.. i slept with eyes close and smiling hahaha.. truly crazy lunacy

it was raining .. but i wasn't late for work yahooo!! terasa cam jambu today ... just 2 days ago i told lovey "how come i dinch hv any top wif a combination of green and pink?" kaklar.. suka sangat that combi tapi tak pernah come across anything that i can buy. So smlm i found a blause with that combi YEah!! hari ni pakai terus hujan.. LEbat plak Tuuu.. its been 3 nites in a row we slept in a tent in the leaving room. Yang bestnyer balik jer, penat.. mandi siap2 and gedebuk!! of we go to never land.. tak banyak songeh tak banyak hal.. smua dapat tidur yg secukupnya. Funny betul cam orang camping kat dlm hutan .. tv pun cam tak minat nak tengok. early morning comments from dibdib "ayah, best eh tidur kat sini" sambil gosok2 mata .. my everyday has been good so far, Alhamdulilah. This morning received an email from Jun .. hmm far yet still far hahaha ... Semalam, while waiting for train .. i saw a fren, an ex colleague of mine sitting - with a sad look. Arggghhh..

its been a roller coater ride for me these past few days, i wish i get to lay back and rest. Yeah, I WISH!!! the episode on shanti's leaving is ova now, i hope things go swell for her ova at the Graduated Medical Skool wif her new found partner stephanie hmmm jgn gaduh2 k. We shaved kimi's be-u-ti-ful "lion hair", i noticed he smile less these days. hmmm ... While adib loves to play so much that im getting worried. I need more time to teach him .. God, help me plssss We are currently in the process of renovating our kitchen and toilets. Maybe things will get started in May. Im excited .. its our first experience dealing with contractors. Need to start packing very soon, which means a lot to throw hahaha.. im anxious to find out what's hidden in the cabinet for the past 5 yrs hahahaha... Enjoy watching Kimi new look and Lovey, dibdib, kimi and me had a short runaway last nite. Its time for bonding. Its time to go crazy and enjoying what we been wanting to do .. so

3rd entry for the day frienship means a lot to me, since young i was surrounded by good friends. Friends that i put my heart and soul for them, friends that i will share my stories with - like an open book. As the yrs passed .. friendship remain but in our heart. Can't be seen with our naked eyes but it can be felt. At times it was never enuf .. these days, people who came to read my blog faithfully are my good friends. Yup, i put my heart in this friendship too .. its painful to see one after another left. Leaving this poor ol' lady rambling alone..pathetic. "dun close your eyes too long, fren. It is sad enuf listening to the song" ..

aku nak bersedih sebab aku tengah sedih aku nak bersedih sebab aku tak de lunch partner aku nak bersedih sebab aku terasa sendiri sangat aku nak bersedih sebab di tengah jln a group of colleague ajak aku lunch bersama meraka aku nak bersedih sebab waiyi tanya "beside shanti, whose my next close fren?" aku tak de jawaban aku nak bersedih tapi tak boleh sebab Allah kesiankan aku dan bagi aku teman2 utk mkn aku nak bersedih tapi tak boleh sebab sedih tu tanda orang separuh putus harap aku nak bersedih tapi tak boleh sebab otak aku sakit kalau sedih banyak2 aku nak bersedih tapi tak boleh sebab aku suka tersenyum aku tak akan berhenti berharap ...

.."entah macam mana harus aku kata, aku pun tak tahu. Atas nama kasih sayang, aku diamkan saje tapi yg aku harapkan pengertian. Memang pengertian dari smua sudut agak impossible tapi hidupkan penuh dgn tolak ansurnya. Atas nama kasih sayang utk yg paling disayang, kenapa tidak? mengapa mesti kemahuan diri juga di mestikan.. apa aku dan dia harus sujud minta pertimbangan.. itu pun aku tak pasti akan didengar. bisa tak kita berbicara dgn jiwa tenang tanpa marah di hujung lidah. Kekata yg sinis sering mem"provok" jiwa. Aku benci bila aku marah kerana sudah terlalu ramai yg marah2 di dalam dunia ini. sehingga suhu dunia meluap2 dgn hasad, iri dan akhirnya mati. Aku tak mahu itu.. Bukan kah satu kerja mulia mendahulukan orang lain dari diri sendiri lebih2 lagi untuk yg tersayang. Itulah yang aku cuba lakukan selama ini, walaupun tak terkira masa2 aku mengeluh frustrasi kerana yg aku lakukan bagai terdampar di tepi longkang kotor dan busuk! Tapi aku lakukan juge.. humhhh pa

MyPhotoAlbum free photo and video sharing A t last!! its all done & ova.. yesterday parting was so touching, our last hug!! Both trying very hard not to flood the dept. Trying very hard to remain cool .. trying.. very hard. K who was watching us sebak giler . All the hardwork and the mass mailing worked well. Everyone was eager to contribute something for shanti in the book. Suddenly people came and say hi to me .. smile and looking very friendly hahaha.. all thank to the mass mailing. Shanti said its the best gift ever! Alhamdulilah.. for giving me the idea. Some colleague requested me to do the same for them when they resign .. errr i dun take orders la guys . Btw, what i did was based on love and friendship. The lil silver heart pandent was Soo Perfect for the occasion. It got footprint and shanti's name engraved on it and the beautiful butterfly earings and the baby blue silk umbrella from tralala. The handbag was from HT(my boss) and Anna .. the 3 of us were very excit

ive come to the end of the road, today is her last day. I've been crying for nites.. last saturday for instance i couldn't sleep. Was watching tv2 listening to Saleem voice and thinking of me being left .. i started crying when he sang Soldier of Fortune, ku kehilangan cinta 3 dimensi and tiada lagi kidungmu by Nash. This morning, lovey asked me why i slept late these days i told him cos i was sad.. his sweet reply was "u jangan lah melebih2 ..." hmm that was it i turned away in silence .. let me cry alone, i prefer it that way darling. Whatever u said after that don't count cos i was hurt .. She loves the lil gift i got for her.. hmm ...

Dear WTL “If there's something that you're dreaming of then may it all come true, because you deserve it all... HAPPY BIRTHDAY " Keep on smiling always, lunacy

12 oclock sharp i went down and took mrt to bugis. mission was to look for dibdib superman water bottle. my son noe how to demand for things. Poor thing when he said "kawan2 adib smua bawak bottle bottle superhero tau ibu" hmmm yup im spoiling him but... by 12.45 im in the train again on my way back to office, couldn't get what i was looking for. Leaning on the train wall, my mind was thinking of the bee hoon my mom packed for me that morning. Then came a friendly looking lady. She turned to an indian guy behind her and said "hi". I thot he must be her friend. Then she asked me "next stop is tanjong pagar?" i smiled and said "yes". Then she said, "Jesus is the son of god and he loves u". I looked up, smiled and turned away, bley? she turned to the guy on her right and said the same thing too. The guy said "i knoe" and she handed him her card. She must be some kind of pastor, i suppose. Out of the train, my kind heart told

.. aku baru abis tonton tentang dia, lagik. Dulu waktu pertama kali aku tonton tak rasa apa2 kok tapi mlm ni lain pulak. sebak. hujung mata terasa lembap..aku memang perlukan vanue utk aku bersedih buat beberapa hari ni. Mungkin blum masa utk aku "meraung" kat lovey lagi. Buat masa ini aku hanya mahu malayan perasaan aku..menyiapkan diri dari "kehilangan" Next, i watched An American Rhapsody .. and the tears can't stop flowing... mungkin kah selepas ini akan ada pengganti? p/s: prison break last thurs remain (still) in my heart when michael scofield called sara and cried ova the phone..i nvr seen him like that and its soo ssooo sooo breaking my heart hahahha

this morning while i was spreading butter on a piece of bread a boy grabbed that bread and... i can't resist. I snap a pic of him .. 5mth old kimi just recovered from flu Enjoy the holiday peepz!! be good jgn notti2, k p/s: mamaEmmy, chickenpox suck!! speedy recovery!!

happy b'day Gary Moore, i still got that blues.. the mission started yesterday when i started the mass mailing. People are seXcited, so am i. Someone wanna bet that am gonna cry on that day hahaha no way am gonna put my money on the bet cos the outcome is so obvious. counting down the days.. p/s: congrats Ligo, u are officially welcome to race on the raod!!

am on a mission, a secret task can't reveal to you guys now one day i will.. no cold sweat yet just cold hands, im nervous to the max but i pray to God that everything will go as plan.

S elawat dan salam utk Junjungan besar kita Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. Smalam ova at jln sultan rasa cam half raya cos ramai yg berbaju kurung, bersongkok .. senang, riang dan sejuk mata memandang.. oh, we were at zam zam.. am still looking for my buku maulid. Nak baca dgn anak2 tapi blum jumpa lagik! *alasan* today's the 1st. Kimi turned 5 mths old and having high fever. kimi cepat baik ok boy.. bubu saaaaaYaaang kimi. Dibdib plak hari ni rajin berkemas. Hahahha cute sangat.. nak tunjuk pandai lah tuu. Lovey is doing his 12hr shift today, so later im gonna do the fish & chip again with white cream pasta. ok tak tu? *mana buku maulid tuuu?* still searching...