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I'm not giving excuses, I would love it too and I think I shld do it before I turn 40. But right when things are moving well, am adjusting with this year routine .. Planning for a baby and carrying it around will be hard on me. That's what I'm worried about. I know u kind of disappointed that I quit my driving lesson, my bis going slow and now this.. Ah!

Awal feb lalu aku bertemu Sahabat sejiwa ku, shanti. Kenapa sejiwa? Kerana walaupun lama tak bertemu kami tetap berfikiran sama. Puas rasanya bercakap, berkongsi dan merasakan benda yang sama dlm berbagai bidang. Ya Allah terima kasih Tuhan, atas anugerah ini. Aku memerlukannya sekali.. May we grow old together and still understand each other!

Ya Allah, terima kasih kerana mengizinkan aku di sini. Rumah Mu ini magis sekali. Melembutkan hati, membawa hati ku pulang kembali ke tempat yang pasti. Subhanallah, segala puji buat Mu Wahai yang menciptakan Alam dan segala yang di dalamnya. Aku bersyukur ...

Kimi stared his P1education this year. I foresee that everything is going to be ok but I guess not.. He cried during assembly He cried and don't want to let me go His Ustaz had to carry him away He told me to wait for him but make sure he can't see me. Kimi Kimi Kimi .. He so grumpy and grouchy He cut his own hair while in class. Ya Allah He told me a boy stole things from him but his class teacher think oth wise.

New Year dtg lagi. Cerita kita berulang lagi. Rutin harian berlari-lari tapi tak semuanya sama. Keputusan 1) anak2 dihantar oleh kami sendiri ke sekolah. Aneh, tak pernah terpikir pd 2Jan, itu la keputusan muktamad. Lovey hantar dan aku jemput. Kimi masih intransition period, kadang nangis. Keputusan 2) carik dermatologist utk Adib. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah. Keputusan 3) Vesshnu mendapat keputusan yang amat baik. Aku tumpang suka. I spread the news to pple in MAS and shanti replied was ' Ratna, I love you' Ahhh why did it brought tears to my eyes. I miss her so much. Dian & Zaki got their key to their house. They going to be bz.. Lovey did 'bekam'. Ya Allah, dia tidak sihat.. Tapi tolonglah sihatkan dia..

There goes 2012.. It ended with me watching Noah on RCTI. MIL, FIL and BIL are here to stay for a while. Their house are under HDB upgrading. I'm thankful so far, Alhamdulilah. We went to visit Ibuk on 25th Dec, this year Xmas wasn't much of a Xmas. We had Thai food instead! Oh Cik Yayah ( Kaka's dad) passed away. Cik Pah is mourning .. We turned 11 last 29th Dec. I got to splurged on myself, Ameen. Oh and I got 4 "O" from him... At this age, hahaha not bad kan? 2013, Kimi goes to P1. Yesterday, we decided that Lovey would send him and I'll fetch the boys home. Today, 2nd day to school .. Kimi cried from home to school. His daddy must hv a hard time right now in school. Kimi oh Kimi ... Alhamdulilah, Adib is settling well in class. Heard some bad boys transferred to his class this year, so we constantly reminded him to stir clear of those pple. Ah... I want to be with Kimi..

It's the greatest challenge of all. My in laws are coming to stay. Errr I'm scare to death or am I over reacting? I guess for the past 11 yrs we never live together and now I'm all nervous and friggy. I'm worries that I may not be the best that I shld be, I'm worried that the evil in me might just come out and .. Oh no!! Ya Allah help me pls.. Let me be at my best behaviour and let it be the all good till the end. Merry kissmass, Lun!!! Hahaha