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Closing ayah bank ac is a painful experience. Esp when im doing it alone. Sad. It is sadness and holding back tears cos i feel like one by one im eleminating him of what he had. Ya Allah.. forgive my ayah and ibu. Bless them with your rahmah, Ya Allah.

Alhamdulilah Ya Rabb. Thank you so much. You heal my pain, You help me gain my strength to move on. To face the people that had wronged me and now i received an apology WA. Subhanallah, Allahu Akbar. Alhamdulilah, You heal my heart until i don't feel anger or pain when i saw the msg. Just anguish and syukur. I let it be, for i cant find the right words to begin with. Time will tell.. time will tell me what to do. For i am not that guliable kid anymore. I will take my time, You will guide me when the time comes, Insyallah.

As per the title, this entry is abt that thin, small little moody boy, timid and shy. I first noticed him when he told me he didnt know what to eat during school recess. I was like "wot?" A P6 boy dont know what to eat??? Duhhh... than as weeks goes by, i started to notice Harith and his patern in life. One day, i told him that "life is not a pattern. Sometimes it works and sometimes i doesn't". I could not put Harith away fr my thots. Everytime i volunteer at the canteen, im sure Harith knew that his life pattern would be awkward and distorted. But he didnt get mad at me. That's the thing, you see! I feel like he allows me to talk n nag and pretty much get involve with his life. Today, i spotted Harith quieng to buy his 2pieces chicken without me asking him too. When he turned and saw me, i showed him 2 thumbs up!. He sat on different bench with different group. That was totally not his style. When i spotted him, he smile at me. Subhanallah!! Ya Allah, ma...

On Thea's 3rd birthday. May happiness be with us..

Itu yg bermain dlm fikiran, yg aku ingat daripada banyak hadith2 yg kami pelajari. Bila kita takut pada Allah, Insyallah kita akan bersabar. Syukur Alhamdulilah ya Rabb atas kasih sayang Mu utk kami. Kebahagian bersama melalui ayat Al-Quran Mu, semoga sifat kesederhanaan ini menjauhkan kami dari riak dan takabbur ya Rab. Lindunggilah kami, sesungguhnya Engkaulah sebaik2 pelindung buat kami. Ameen.

"Subhanallah, mulanya Kau duga kami dgn sesuatu yg sulit utk kami telan. Selepas itu Kau berikan kemanisan kehidupan. Sesungguhnya Engkaulah Tuhan yang maha Agung dgn segala sifat kebesaran"

And i thot we were sisters but i guess not. Its hurtful when u come to me with those words. When we dont even spoke in the first place. And to the other sister, i would love to keep u as anonymous but why did you come forward and tell the pple that it was u? Seriously, your way was so mean. It hurtful and disgaracing us. Even after a week, there is no apologize or whatsoever. At least Cik Hawa meant something to them. Unlike me!!. Ya Allah  grant me Your sabran jamilan Ya Allah. Less than a month ayah left us and people already started to say bad things about me. That shows how much i meant to them. My husband is so angry till it affecting his health. Bless him Ya Allah with sabr & health.