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 First, he got his IB diploma. Now he got his school shahadah. Graduating ceremony very soon. Syukur ya Rabb. Alhamdulilah atas pertolongan dan kasih sayangMu ya Allah.

 Few days ago.. aku MIMPI Taha terbaring dan mengucapkan 2 kali syahadah dan dia terus pergi tinggalkan aku.  Nauzubillah.  Aku tak sedia ya Allah. Aku tak tahu apa yg aku patut rasa. Taha sakit2 few days ni dan aku cuba sedaya aku menjaga dia. I terjumpa di youtube, chinese drama 'Remembering Lichuan'. Now in 2021 only, I found this drama and sadly the lead actor died in 2019. His character died too in the drama. I don't understand much why is the drama feel so close to my heart and I hope it has nothing to do with me ..  Ya Allah.. ease my journey in life.

 Alhamdulilah, finanly the results was out. Adib passed with flying colours.  

 

 12th years ago, ibuk left us and returned to The Creator. After 10years... things got hard. With life, health, weather, snake scares, disagreement and now Covid 19 ... we didnt visit kubur ibuk and ayah that much... This year i had this strong urged to do something for ibuk and ayah. I the service of Pusara care.sg to help with the cleaning. Alhamdulilah, so thankful for the service with moderate charge. I am all happy with tears .. seeing the clean look of kubur ibuk and ayah. هذا من فضل الرب These few days I ve bn down with guilt knowing that ive bn doing a lot for mak and bpk and nothing for ibuk and ayah. Alhamdulilah ya Rabbi atas izin dan ilham dari Mu. Amiin.

 Mak dtg bertandang lagi. Suka mak bila kat sini.  "Mak ucapkan terima kasih wati sbb ajak mak duduk sama-sama. Layan mak dann masakkan utk mak." Ya Allah sebak aku....jgn puji aku terlalu tinggi. Sbb nanti bila jatuh sakit . Wallahu taala A'lam

 In this course of my journey im experiencing difficulties that I never felt before. As our saving is almost empty.. im relying on Allah's mercy to get thru life day by day. By His grace and mercy, life is still as sweet as always.  These days, grocerries shopping makes me nervous as I dont know if I have enuf cash to pay for what i took. Everytime when I passed that hurdles i felt a surge of love and mercy Ya Rabb. The feeling that not everyone gets the chance to feel what im feeling. its me! among the abd' the choosen one.  La ukalifullah illa usaha..... Alhamdulilah, adek is doing so well. Im so thankful for that. She got a new condo and bz planning renovating it. Ayah and Ibuk must be very proud of her and family. Alhamdulilah... As for me, I leave everything to Allah. Rabbi yassir wala tuasir. You are the Best Planner of all.