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I’ve never cried this bad in …

Been wanting to write abt it but cam tak de lunacy style ar .. maybe I just be rat for once

Aku sayang ibuk. Ibuk is my everything. Sapa2 yg kenal my ibu will call her ibuk too straight away. I guess, korang yg blum kenal my ibu bila dah kenal pun mesti terus ngam nyer. She knows all my frens and all my frens adore her.

Saturday morning abt 4am .. aku berhenti dari tersedu2, aku lepaskan tangan yg menutup mata yg berair, aku baru sedar yg aku masih lagik terbaring di atas katil. Aku nangis dlm tidur sehingga mataku bengkak. Mimpi? kenapa tak terfikir of that possibility earlier? Aku mimpi ibu meninggal (nauzubillahiminzallik). Itu yg buat aku nangis dan nangis dan nangis …. Tinggallah ayah, adik & aku. Aku nampak .. arwah uncle duduk kat satu corner. Aku nampak arwah nyai duduk di ruang tamu dan bila anak jiran cina tuu dtg bertanyakan di mana ibuk dgn ku … aku tak terjawab terus nangis .. arwah kak eda dtg memujuk … tu lah yg aku ingat. Sebab tu aku nangis.

I called adik, dia masih tidur lagik. While ibuk tengah masak utk sahur. Alhamdulilah. I told adik abt my dream and started crying again. Aku tak cakap dng ibuk cukup lah aku tahu ibuk sihat. I doubt I can talk at that moment. Adik told ibuk abt my dream and ibuk kata Alhamdulilah itu maknanya ibuk panjang umur. Insyallah. Semoga masin kata2 ibuk tuu.

Bila aku dah sober sikit .. aku sedekahkan Fatihah pada arwah2 yg appear in my dream. Maybe they come for a visit. Smoga Allah berkati mrk & kita semua.

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Mama Emmy said…
hi lunacy, enigma bace nie pun cam nak meleleh airmata... kenaper ek.... tapi ibuk cakap tu betullah... kalau lunacy rajin bace tafsir mimpi, mimpi org yg hidup meninggal tu maknanya panjang umur org tu.... Alhamdulillah....

cheer up okies...
lunacy said…
hey enigma, thanks for understanding. sedih giler tak terkata lah. yesterday, i watch american next top model 2. yest episode plak pasal this one girl shandi kata dia tak dpt love and attention fr her parents dats why she took drugs and kene busted for robbery. bila dia nangis .. lunacy pun nangis sama seh. she needs love and for start, a hug is gd enuf. then yoanna hug her ... the power of hug is so great.

*HUG* to everyone from lunacy ya!

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