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Trust
someone asked me if i can be trusted, what should i say?
"yes, you can trust me 100%!"
heh, i don't think i can say that. its too wordy. And so .. the matter on trust becoma an agenda in my mind. Finally, i concluded that TRUST has to be earned. it has to be built thru frenship. When the times come and your instinct feel at ease that's the sign that u can trust that someone. Maybe this is the answer to the above question.

Broke
i am broke. i need a pay raise. i need the promotion badly... i need it! Did my financial check over the weekend and was sad to know that im far from where am suppose to be. I still manage to save abt 20% of my salary yet i need to save more!! i have to cut on my misc expenses ...

Hope
a) it is so related with broke. Lovey and me have a common Hope for a "xxxxxx xxxxx" yet our current financial situation doesn't seem to be on ourside. saving is important, standard of living is too damn ex here. can't take the risk to live life day to day without any saving. so in the mean time we shall Hope.

b) someone Hope to cry. kak lun nak stori skit, at one point of my life.. i told myself i dun wanna cry anymore cos im such a "neng yatimah"!! it was not an easy task. yet it happened. i managed to change myself. i was hard. hmmm, i can be very sad but still i can't shed tears. after sometimes i got scared my heart turned stone-cold.. try nak melalak cam ne pun tak jalan...(so doa lah balik pada tuhan. baca Ya Lathif (doa pelembuat hati style ustaz Badrul Amin).. and one fine day, i shed tears ova a song that i heard on the radio.

Truthful
i am so happy to have people coming to my Watts_in. they keep me happy, they are so fun and caring. i never wonder if they being truthful or just being someone else cos my heart never doubt them. I hope it stays that way. to pretend and be ova is ok.. hey we are human after all. But NOT to the expense of someone else. i HATE that!!

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