saturday, as plan earlier ayah, ibuk, adek, lovey, dibdib & me pergi ziarah kubur di pusara aman & pusara abadi. As usual our first destination would be to visit our very own, the only son for ayah & ibuk and the only bro that adek and me ever had. When i talked to "him" before i went off.. i realised that i still called him "boy" as what i used to.. sedih pulak rasanya, tapi aku tahan airmata. Jarang aku mengingati boy but bila aku melawat pusaranya rasa macam berbakul2 kesedihan di hati. Apatah lagik ibuk... kulihat matanya bergenang... dan ayah... sejak boy pergi he was never the same person...
here's my bro
I told dibdib that we were going to his "paman" house. He was excited but when i told him "this is paman" he was kidda confused. Cian dia.. he asked me paman sembunyi? cos he can't see his paman. Then i told him, "ur paman dah meniggal" with his big black eye he asked me "dah mati?" .. oh yes! abt a year before my adek gurl was born.
dibdib & paman
scene from the pusara
As i was walking around the pusara.. hati berdetik, mati telah pun berkunjung mereka .. aku pula bila?
ps: glad i get to cry while writing this entry.. to let out yesterday's tears.
here's my bro
I told dibdib that we were going to his "paman" house. He was excited but when i told him "this is paman" he was kidda confused. Cian dia.. he asked me paman sembunyi? cos he can't see his paman. Then i told him, "ur paman dah meniggal" with his big black eye he asked me "dah mati?" .. oh yes! abt a year before my adek gurl was born.
dibdib & paman
scene from the pusara
As i was walking around the pusara.. hati berdetik, mati telah pun berkunjung mereka .. aku pula bila?
ps: glad i get to cry while writing this entry.. to let out yesterday's tears.