Pagi ni smua rasa tak betul. hati meluap2 tapi aku tetap diam, segalanya mendatangkan kemarahan. Sebelum keadaan melarat aku kluar rumah untuk ke office walaupun pagi masih gelap. Berbagai benda berlegar dlm otak entah lah dari semalam aku dah macam gini. sengaja aku tidur awal to avoid talking to lovey. Even the programme on tv loath me to death. pagi ni, issue tudung mustard piss me off, dibdib pulak tak mau buat homework, hump! Dat's it, aku bersiap dan terus kluar. mungkin penat dan tak cukup tidur kot.
Suasana pagi di luar segar saje .. entah kenapa langkah ku seakan slow sangat. Im practically dragging my feet, tekak rasa macam tercekik, pathetic kan? Aku lihat2 keliling dan dapat lihat di belakang tempat memungut sampat ada wanita berbaju kurung sedang duduk di situ walaupun tak berapa clear sebab dia di cover dgn kotak2. Aku nampak tuan2 yg membela anjin berlari2 anak, aku nampak ramai nyonya2 berlari2 anak. Haaaiii, aku jugak yg terbelakang. Jarang skali muka aku masam macam nih. Nak senyum pun terasa macam plastik! ah benci lah gini.
i finished up reading another book (Chill Factor) by sandra brown today in the bus. Sampai office i did the ritual. But seriously i hate it when im angry with my loves ones cos the pattern slalu turned out the same. That was why i kissed and hugged dibdib before i went off. I pujuk mood sendiri and redha.
So what's next?? The phone rang. Adek was crying cos she lost her phone. Damn!!!
I was angry with adek too this morning and see what happened now? Can't help myself for feeling guily. Typical virgo style i guess. Sape can verify?? i called the TransCab to report the missing hp. She tried her luck by calling her hp. Got answer lah.
gosh! its only 10am. Ligo is coming to my workplace at 12.15pm today. I_mshe tak join cos sakit.
p/s: how was yesterday awan? got surprise party ke?
Suasana pagi di luar segar saje .. entah kenapa langkah ku seakan slow sangat. Im practically dragging my feet, tekak rasa macam tercekik, pathetic kan? Aku lihat2 keliling dan dapat lihat di belakang tempat memungut sampat ada wanita berbaju kurung sedang duduk di situ walaupun tak berapa clear sebab dia di cover dgn kotak2. Aku nampak tuan2 yg membela anjin berlari2 anak, aku nampak ramai nyonya2 berlari2 anak. Haaaiii, aku jugak yg terbelakang. Jarang skali muka aku masam macam nih. Nak senyum pun terasa macam plastik! ah benci lah gini.
i finished up reading another book (Chill Factor) by sandra brown today in the bus. Sampai office i did the ritual. But seriously i hate it when im angry with my loves ones cos the pattern slalu turned out the same. That was why i kissed and hugged dibdib before i went off. I pujuk mood sendiri and redha.
So what's next?? The phone rang. Adek was crying cos she lost her phone. Damn!!!
I was angry with adek too this morning and see what happened now? Can't help myself for feeling guily. Typical virgo style i guess. Sape can verify?? i called the TransCab to report the missing hp. She tried her luck by calling her hp. Got answer lah.
he picked up the phone!
he said he'll return my SIM card and memory card
i asked him u want to keep the phone issit?
he asked me back issit
possible?
apa ni
mepek ar
gosh! its only 10am. Ligo is coming to my workplace at 12.15pm today. I_mshe tak join cos sakit.
p/s: how was yesterday awan? got surprise party ke?
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somedays things just do go right cos we didnt close last nite's chapter. umm... i know u be the one initiating to lovey. Well maybe you should do it again and tell from your heart. Its time for him to listen perhaps.
imshe, smlm i geram pasal lovey keep on marah dibdib. so dlm penat tu i still dpt tidurkan both kimi and dibdib without any complaintand without lovey assistant. lepas tu tv plak cerita pasal susu ibu. the doc said kids yg minum susu ibu will hv higher IQ bla bla so lovey kata "tak de harapan lah" cos i dah tak breastfeed kimi lagik. i tak naik lok tang cuma BINGIT jer.
"bro, lu peluk bantak sua mlm ni"
I saw you walking just now, relax je, slowly, no hurry tapi actually macam seribu satu macam benda nak di tackle.
yeah beb, i ni kan minat relek..kene slow and steady *sambil berangan*. Jadi tak confuse macam err macam err macam sape tuu?? *hint hint* hehehe
tak baik tau merajuk mcm tuh... tapi kan kalau aku pun loktang jugak ar beb dgr remarks die mcm tu...
tapi takpe, sabar je ek... suruh die beli bunga mintak mahap... boley ke
I remembered feeling sooo loww and depress giler. And my own hubby too at that point of time took it as if it was my fault that i cdn't breastfeed. Ingat ape.. the body doesn't react to stress ke? Men camne u explain pun to dorang lambat nak paham.. melainkan they have female brain. kalau pure male brain jgn harap.
*i_mshe* turut peng dgn lovey
sabar ya lun
awan> good to hear that. Anyway u still young lah, jgn fikiran sangat k.
imshe> cool down k. on normal days i would justify the situation wif him but bila dah penat anything also can sound wrong kan? anyway jgn terasa sangat lah u can do it with ur 2nd one. i heard makan bayam will help the susu to be more tau. and jgn stress klu baby tak tau nak engage kat nipple bila dia dah lapar nanti dia tahu sendiri. kita jer kene strict with the little one. i think i slack lah with kimi cos lovey bz attending to FIL so i pun lupa2 nak breast feed hehe. Gd luck to u ok.
but it is still not too late lar... kau try ar for the next one!!! yeeeehaaaaaaa