abt me

.. but thank God, husben been very understanding. cos i dun feel quite stable
emotionally these days lah. maybe menses.. but maybe worried that ibuk has not
been eating well .. *beeb* not talking to *beeb* ... i skip breakfast and drag
my lunch by dinner i got no appetite to eat. Im 57kg now .. imagine i was 62kg
before ramadhan. Im taking it all silently, Rai.

Lately, i been listening to Peterpan ova and ova and ova.. Dilemma Besar, Walau Habis Terang, Kisah Cintaku, Tak Ada yang Abadi. Ariel voice had been my closest comfort when im alone. Can you imagine how emo that cud be? I got the chance to email Rai on how my life had been and reading her reply just brought tears to my eyes. Yes, at last someone who cud listen and understand. Thanks Rai, for sticking around. Im on a breakdown mode. So you can imgaine how fragile my feeling cud be.

Recently, i was inform that something is already trying to form in my body. Maybe in 2-3 yrs the growth cud be detected this cud lead to another case of cancer in my family history. 'fraid not darlings, am on medication now, my ovarall body chi level isn't that good either. But i cud still joke about my health condition unlike lovey. I cud see him beriya-iya benar coming up with questions after questions. I let him and prof discussed more abt me, i cud see his eyes turned red trying hard to stay composed. I know he loves me dearly and i do too, Ayang ;)

Last nite, coming back home i cud feel the whole legs sore. It feels terrible ... am i next in the list to go? .. like what ariel been singging to me everyday "tak ada yang abadi .. tak ada yang abadi .. tak ada yang abaaadiii"

i hope:
- anak anak jimi gembira dgn keputusan mereka and jimi juga
- cekmi, survive the 5 days kem
- cekya dapat siapkan baju sequin for the wedding of the yr
- biah & mom sihat-sihat selalu
- wtl, tak bersedih lagi ..
- chita, can be happy at work mcm kat amp
- jah, dpt bertemu Mr Obama (hahaha)
- Rai, have fun wif snow in tmrw baking class
- awan, tersenyum selalu
- kak jan, jgn lupa gambir serawak k (owh!!)
- jun, bila marathon layan tamu jgn lupa take a break
- ibuk CT Scan results will show great improvement to her health
- adik not agry wif me anymore :(
- tmrw adib graduation ceremony will be a success

p/s: Congrats to CekRin for passing her driving test. Its time to convert that red plate, dunch u think?