blast - post no. 970

i wish i wud post that middle finger pic to show my anger just like mr mgr posted all the penyapu pics.

i wish i wud and i cud ..

ive been crying non stop. sedih.geram.outrage. my body was tired, my mind was tired, physically i felt tired, mentally and emotionally tired too. i think every part of my body was complaining of this tiredness. So why did i cry so much. was i sad, tired or mad? why did i curse and swear infront of ibuk and MIL??

Because I was accused of something that was not TRUE!!!

to everyone who cares for me, if u wanna know abt the true fact of ibuk, pls ask. But pls make sure that u hv all the time to listen to my story. If u can't be sure of that, its ok. Just take whatever i said but dun add any sugar and spice pls. It mess up my mind and my brain.

i juz came back from NCC. After being discharged from hospital, ibuk could not squad in the toilet. Her legs got heavy, she could not lifted her body from bed, her skin turned red and she purged on and off. The pain was unbearable and now her legs swell bit and she slurrrr... oh yes, dearest all. our lovely ibuk spoke thru her nasal. Doc said she slurrrr. Guess what Doc immediate response to all my complain??? he said "stop the chemo right away!! its too strong for ibuk. But in case ibuk sickness got bad, bring her to hospital right away .. hospital is open".

So u see, my hunch abt ibuk being admitted in a hospital was true after all. Her condition worsen and best thing was, the bone scan could not detect anything on ibuk angkle.

my furious and dissappointment came to a boiling point when i received an overseas call blasting me on something i didnt know abt. Oh yeah it hurt so much that i curse and swear and cry till i had enuf!!

to those who read this entry.. pls tell me u love me and sympathise wif me.. im so in need of TLC.