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she's on her own

14 December 2008, ibuk asked to be admitted. The pain was too much for her and too often that she gave up and decided to get herself admitted. Well, that was my guess. Anyway, its 1.30am and I hope ibuk is sleeping now in SGH. I hope the sharp pain won’t come and I hope she’ll be able to eat again. Since ibuk is in hospital, I will be able to sleep soundly. There won’t be any smses or phone calls from adek or ibuk in the middle of the nite to disturbed my much needed sleep. And I don’t hv to sleep wif my hp just in case I missed their calls. The young nurse will be able to help ibuk. She will able to assist ibuk. She will be around when ibuk needs her. So why am I still not sleeping?

I hope my guts feeling is wrong this time around. Im praying to Allah that ibuk is making the right choice. I hope the doctors will take a look at ibuk overall health condition instead of concentrating in one organ at a time. Time is running and any delay in treatment will cause her a great deal of her health.

If u asking if im crying right now. Yes, I am .. I miss taking care of ibuk, zikr for ibuk, looking after ibuk. My heart is aching.. and there’s no way I can talk to her now. We are connected thru our love. I hope she can hear me right now. My worry and concern. Stay strong ibuk, stay positive. Allah with you always and so is our love for u.

Comments

Anonymous said…
my sweet angle, you are not alone.My heart is aching too,dear. My doa for ibuk always. Take good care of yourself. We may be far in distance but always close in my heart.
Yati WTL said…
darling...be strong. Wtl akan selalu doakan ibuk.
Anonymous said…
hey kak lun.i hope ur ibuk's condition is better now and i hope the sharp pain wont come again. u take care of urself alright.be strong and hv a lotta patience & ignore other ppl's negative comments k
lunacy said…
jun, wati & siti - thanks so much for ur love and concern and doa. Hopefully ibuk will sihat again ..

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