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entah sampai kapan ..

how wud u feel eh to find out that the reason ur little one kept wanting to go his grandpa house was because he was still waiting and looking forward to meet his late grandma.

everyday aku cuba jadi kuat, aku cuba kuatkan hati. aku cuba tanamkan senyuman. aku cuba ceriakan perasaan. dan bila anak kecil ku kimi bertanya mana Nyai bu? kimi nak nyai. hmmm macam bersepai rasa hati ni. aku pilih utk berjawab perkara yg benar bahwa nyai dah tak de lagi. Nyai dah meninggal. Rumah Nyai kat kubur dan macam2 lagi .. dan aku tahu kimi 'refuse' untuk terima apa jua jawaban aku kerana dia masih menuggu nyai ..

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aqriz said…
remuk hati, berkaca mata, baca you posting. kimi rindu, semua rindu

kalau ada baju ke, kain, nyai, kasi lah kat kimi, buat dia lepas rindu. that's what i usually heard people says
lunacy said…
oh ye tak ye.. maybe i shld give it a try. thanks ligo. kesian lah dgn dia.. esp he don't noe how to express his feeling. kalau i bz tak peluk2 or kiss dia nanti dia kata 'nak gi rumah yayi'. tu rindu nyai lah tuu.. cos ibuk selalu sayang-sayang dia.
The 6 of Us said…
Kesiannya Kimi, so sad for him....susah eh kalau budak2 kecil sedih...like you said they don't know how to express their sadness which makes it all the more harder & sadder for them & us (the parents) :-(
lunacy said…
yes Rahmah, that's wat we facing right now. but not everyone could understand this.. some even told me to go 'berubat' for kimi. Im like 'helloo!! he is just missing his grandma, can't u understand that?' - *sigh*
The 6 of Us said…
I know how it feels 'cos the 1st time when we came to NZ, my 2 kids (Hasif & Hani) were only almost 3 and 2 yrs old, and they gravely missed their grandma/my mom who had been taking care of them everyday since baby (when hubby and I went to work). I knew/could feel their deep sadness but they didn't know how to express it much, just kept asking "Where's Nani (nenek)? Want to go c Nani". So hard to explain that we couldn't bring them to c her so easily....but at least there's still an opportunity unlike for you & Kimi :-(
I think only time will help heal his wound as he grows older & begin to understand & accept the loss and then the sadness & pain will lessen. In the meantime, hang in there, try to distract him when he asks for his nyai so he temporarily forgets, help him to move on by not wallowing too much on the loss even though its not easy, overall shower him with lots of love as what you've been doing already, may Allah give us the strength to overcome His challenges in this life, amin.

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