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Monologue raya bersama Ibuk

#2 track was not for me but track #12 broke me to tears. Everytime I heard it. You went so soon, you left so soon. I have to move on cos I know it's been to long. I have to be strong and move on..
And I remember all the stories you told me, I missed the time you were around. But I'm so grateful for the time I spent with you.
Buk, tahun ni lepas solat, I selalu nangis ingatkan Ibuk . Sejak awal ramadhan lagi, hati rindu sangat dengan Ibuk. Tahun ni, kita sambut raya ala kadar jer Buk. I dah tak kerja, jadi banyak yang I kene cut down. Bila dengar Yeh beli brooch baru, oh baru I ingat kita selalu beli brooch, kasut, beg dan make up baru utk raya. I dah terlupa semua tu sbb I kene budget sekarang Ni. Kalau boleh I tak mau minta lebih walaupun I tahu kalau I minta dia sure kasi tapi I rasa tak sama dgn guna duit sendiri. Jadi tu, I beli mana yang patut je la tahun ni. Dulu pun masa I kecik kita pernah susah so kalau sekarang I tutup sikit sedikit keinginan, Insyallah boleh kan Ibuk. I tahu, Ibuk mesti paham, itu yang I rindu sangat bila Ibuk takde. Teman bebual, macam mana nonsense pun Ibuk tetap faham. Sebab Ibuk la sorang yang rajin dengar cerita hidup manusia. Ketawa Ibuk mengubat keresahan hati, Ya Allah, rahmatilah ibuku ini atas segala jasanya mendidik aku.
Ibuk, tahun demi tahun raya samakin hambar, apa lagi dgn ayah yang sanggup matikan perasaan dia. Ibuk how I wish you be around to knock some sense into his head!! Buat masa ni, I doa utk ayah setiap kali lepas berbuka, semoga doa ini didengar Tuhan, Insyallah. Sbb dah lama I stop doa utk ayah tapi I rasa dah masa I mohon agar ayah beroleh taufiq dan hidayah, Ameen.
Hari Ni, I dtg rumah ayah awal tapi ayah dah keluar. Hp pun ayah tak on.. Buk, doakan I dapat put some sense to him sbb I want togetherness in this family esp raya nanti.

Ibuk, semoga Allah merahmati mu.

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