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Last 2 or 3 yrs we were there with my family. This time we went to USS with Loveys family. Oh the more the merrier alhamdulilah .. It was fun! Somehow I told myself to try as many ride as possible. (Oh credit shld go ustaz khalid, he said:"Jaga-jaga ketakutan awak jgn sampai melebihi takut pada Allah, sbb itu boleh jadi syirik". So we tried except for Galactica hahaha.

Minggu lepas aku keletihan dgn urusan harian ku. Minggu ini pula terlalu mudah utk aku menitiskan airmata. Mak, selalu mengingatkan aku supaya jgn lupa makan. Kengkadang dia call bertanya khabar. Ya Allah, berikanlah syurga buat kedua2 Bonda dan Ayahanda. Isnin, sewaktu aku di pasar geylang.. Seorang penjaja yang aku tak kenali mula berbual2 dgn ku dan dia memberitahu rahsia disebalik kejayaan perniagaan dia. Katanya rahsianya satu aja: jaga ibu dan ayah. Subhanallah, terima kasih Ya Allah. Adakah krn keluhanku, lalu kau menghantarkan seseorang utk menyejukkan hati ini. Terasa dekat diri ini dgn Mu, Ya Rabb. Alhamdulilah .. Aku jadi lebih pelik bila duduk berbual dgn ayah menjadi perkara harian, perbualan yang di'repeat' mcm "rekod rosak"( Ibuk would say). Berbualan itu jugak la yang buat hati aku sebak. Bila aku mahu pulang awal ayah kata "takpe, ayah boleh jaga diri sendiri, wati pun penat kan". Allahu Akbar! Hanya Engkau saja yang memahami hati ini...

A star utk bahasa Melayu dan mendapat tempat pertama di dlm kelas.. I'm proud of u, Abang. Semoga menjadi insan cemerlang yang kamil dan penuh ikhsan ya sayang. Ayah dan ibu sayang Abang!! dan adik juga..

Mcm mana tiba-tiba aku lebih selesa bertudung labuh? Pelik juga kan? Aku tahu lovey suka memang dari dulu pun dia suka dan perubahan yang aku alami sekarang dia tak kata apa, tapi aku tahu dia suka. Mungkin inilah kelebihan bila berada di persekitaran madrasah dan masjid, Alhamdulilah.

I'm exhausted. How I wish I could go and meet lil Jimmy in Banting. A change of weather would be good but here i am stuck at home doing things day after day.. What I need by end of the day is a good hug from you.

For the first time of my life, i feel like i need to getaway, went for a holiday or something cos i was really really really tired. A week of school holiday went by just like that.. We didn't have time to bring the kids out as I had to take care of ayah. He was hospitalised for 5 days and came home last Tuesday. His legs and arms became weak.. It's hard for him to move around the house. I hope he can take care of himself when no one was home. Since ayah refused to go for heart bypass, his kidney and other internal organs seems to deteriorate. I could not just sit and watch ayah like that. Ya Allah, berkatilah usaha kami utk menyembuhkan ayah. Kami mohon keizinanMu ya Allah semoga Ayah sihat. Lindungilah dan rahmatilah ayah. Ameen. Buat anak2 The Croads smlm was fun kan?? I laugh a lot last night.. You guys too..

What's look like something harmless like cataract opt now turned out to something serious cardiac and kidney. Poor ayah cooped up in hospital now he developed fever, body aching, shivering and point pain. In 2008, ayah refused to do bypass tho 3 of his main artery blockage and his heart function was only 32%. Now, 5 years gone by and Ayah's heart is functioning is with only 25%!!!. I wonder if I'm gonna lose my ayah soon too.