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bizi tired bizi tired bz tiyed why must all come at once? blame it on poor time mgmt hahaha.. keep on blaming on other factor so i can feel gud lah tu. am going crazy already.. i think a ship wrack look more calssy than my house hui hui hui.. thanks to errm eh.. i slept with eyes close and smiling hahaha.. truly crazy lunacy

it was raining .. but i wasn't late for work yahooo!! terasa cam jambu today ... just 2 days ago i told lovey "how come i dinch hv any top wif a combination of green and pink?" kaklar.. suka sangat that combi tapi tak pernah come across anything that i can buy. So smlm i found a blause with that combi YEah!! hari ni pakai terus hujan.. LEbat plak Tuuu.. its been 3 nites in a row we slept in a tent in the leaving room. Yang bestnyer balik jer, penat.. mandi siap2 and gedebuk!! of we go to never land.. tak banyak songeh tak banyak hal.. smua dapat tidur yg secukupnya. Funny betul cam orang camping kat dlm hutan .. tv pun cam tak minat nak tengok. early morning comments from dibdib "ayah, best eh tidur kat sini" sambil gosok2 mata .. my everyday has been good so far, Alhamdulilah. This morning received an email from Jun .. hmm far yet still far hahaha ... Semalam, while waiting for train .. i saw a fren, an ex colleague of mine sitting - with a sad look. Arggghhh.....

its been a roller coater ride for me these past few days, i wish i get to lay back and rest. Yeah, I WISH!!! the episode on shanti's leaving is ova now, i hope things go swell for her ova at the Graduated Medical Skool wif her new found partner stephanie hmmm jgn gaduh2 k. We shaved kimi's be-u-ti-ful "lion hair", i noticed he smile less these days. hmmm ... While adib loves to play so much that im getting worried. I need more time to teach him .. God, help me plssss We are currently in the process of renovating our kitchen and toilets. Maybe things will get started in May. Im excited .. its our first experience dealing with contractors. Need to start packing very soon, which means a lot to throw hahaha.. im anxious to find out what's hidden in the cabinet for the past 5 yrs hahahaha... Enjoy watching Kimi new look and Lovey, dibdib, kimi and me had a short runaway last nite. Its time for bonding. Its time to go crazy and enjoying what we been wanting to do .. so...

3rd entry for the day frienship means a lot to me, since young i was surrounded by good friends. Friends that i put my heart and soul for them, friends that i will share my stories with - like an open book. As the yrs passed .. friendship remain but in our heart. Can't be seen with our naked eyes but it can be felt. At times it was never enuf .. these days, people who came to read my blog faithfully are my good friends. Yup, i put my heart in this friendship too .. its painful to see one after another left. Leaving this poor ol' lady rambling alone..pathetic. "dun close your eyes too long, fren. It is sad enuf listening to the song" ..

aku nak bersedih sebab aku tengah sedih aku nak bersedih sebab aku tak de lunch partner aku nak bersedih sebab aku terasa sendiri sangat aku nak bersedih sebab di tengah jln a group of colleague ajak aku lunch bersama meraka aku nak bersedih sebab waiyi tanya "beside shanti, whose my next close fren?" aku tak de jawaban aku nak bersedih tapi tak boleh sebab Allah kesiankan aku dan bagi aku teman2 utk mkn aku nak bersedih tapi tak boleh sebab sedih tu tanda orang separuh putus harap aku nak bersedih tapi tak boleh sebab otak aku sakit kalau sedih banyak2 aku nak bersedih tapi tak boleh sebab aku suka tersenyum aku tak akan berhenti berharap ...

.."entah macam mana harus aku kata, aku pun tak tahu. Atas nama kasih sayang, aku diamkan saje tapi yg aku harapkan pengertian. Memang pengertian dari smua sudut agak impossible tapi hidupkan penuh dgn tolak ansurnya. Atas nama kasih sayang utk yg paling disayang, kenapa tidak? mengapa mesti kemahuan diri juga di mestikan.. apa aku dan dia harus sujud minta pertimbangan.. itu pun aku tak pasti akan didengar. bisa tak kita berbicara dgn jiwa tenang tanpa marah di hujung lidah. Kekata yg sinis sering mem"provok" jiwa. Aku benci bila aku marah kerana sudah terlalu ramai yg marah2 di dalam dunia ini. sehingga suhu dunia meluap2 dgn hasad, iri dan akhirnya mati. Aku tak mahu itu.. Bukan kah satu kerja mulia mendahulukan orang lain dari diri sendiri lebih2 lagi untuk yg tersayang. Itulah yang aku cuba lakukan selama ini, walaupun tak terkira masa2 aku mengeluh frustrasi kerana yg aku lakukan bagai terdampar di tepi longkang kotor dan busuk! Tapi aku lakukan juge.. humhhh pa...

MyPhotoAlbum free photo and video sharing A t last!! its all done & ova.. yesterday parting was so touching, our last hug!! Both trying very hard not to flood the dept. Trying very hard to remain cool .. trying.. very hard. K who was watching us sebak giler . All the hardwork and the mass mailing worked well. Everyone was eager to contribute something for shanti in the book. Suddenly people came and say hi to me .. smile and looking very friendly hahaha.. all thank to the mass mailing. Shanti said its the best gift ever! Alhamdulilah.. for giving me the idea. Some colleague requested me to do the same for them when they resign .. errr i dun take orders la guys . Btw, what i did was based on love and friendship. The lil silver heart pandent was Soo Perfect for the occasion. It got footprint and shanti's name engraved on it and the beautiful butterfly earings and the baby blue silk umbrella from tralala. The handbag was from HT(my boss) and Anna .. the 3 of us were very excit...